JUST LEAVE IT ALONE
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this year 2019, this is the first meeting when I felt a deep disappointment in him.he did not change much in terms of his face but his weight seemed to drop drastically while the feeling mmm I don't know.

I'm not still hoping, anyway what can be expected of a playboy like, really feeling it's gone, I hope not because everything has been buried in bandung with tears during my escape. that's my thinking but it's not 100% like that.

yes I wish it was just hope, I once asked someone, I said

know what the answer is?

he said "nothing, because forgetting the former is an obligation not a race. It's good that he is independent but you are still colonized by the past and bitter with him, he said, eghhh realized please don't be a moron because of him" he said rada.

talking easy but moving and starting a new relationship is hard to not help.all the ways I have done but in fact once called hay in WA, I dak palak so all my efforts just froze.

I keep trying and trying, if I fail to keep trying, that's what I do now. anyway we are not ex but friends but ngarep. and unfortunately only I hope here. the pain is obviously still painful.

it should be after the profosal fighting spirit to do research and then submit a thesis I can reach but because the pair of kingkongs I drop.

honestly kingkong was one of my reasons until after taking care of the research permit, I was so relaxed living in bandung.

it is not an easy matter after my name is juxtaposed with the kingkong that was popular at that time, both classmates, seniors, juniors and even lecturers know our relationship.

memories of the past instantly made me smile cynically.I don't know why at that time I was too beguiled feelings.

seeing him now honestly still leaves a wound but there is also a longing that erodes hearing jokes and seeing his smile that I miss.

we didn't sit side by side or face to face, he saw me quite far away at 05. I was busy controlling my brain and heart here while pretending to enjoy mace food.

he with his activities, I was so that he paid for his food he had shouted unhappily and said

"WIDYAAA I MISS" he licked and greeted with cie cieee from those who know us both.

he just left afterwards without regard for the cheers of the others nor the emotions he was back to lure.

which foolish woman will flutter after being hurt and be able to forgive easily? sorry it wasn't me.

he is still very annoying, still indifferent, humorous, and the news I got from the mace he said he had become a contract lecturer at this campus, he was still single, he said.

see the canteen mace just know us, well after breaking up also suddenly many are looking at me with sympathy.

I hate that and I hate the kingkong that has played with my feelings like this.