La Hora
LH - 45 - Love?

-◈ Rayaa Hermawan ◈-

I slowly opened my eyes. I was shocked when I woke up in a room I didn't recognize.

What the hell's going on?

Last time I was at __base camp__ brother Regar and. I grimaced when my stomach hurt so much.

What the hell's going on?

Brother Regar already....

Is this sick?

__Regar looked at Rayaa seriously. "You'll be in pain, so hang on."

Before Rayaa responded, something foreign attempted to enter her by force. Rayaa screamed in shock.

There was nothing the girl could do but squeeze the pillow. Rear gained a place when he forcibly snatched the girl.

The kingdom drooped and cried bated. He didn't know, first time contact would hurt that much.

Not yet there, Regar moves to get his wish.

Shakily, Rayaa clung to Regar's waist.

A warm kiss landed on his lips. Regan kissed him feelingly.

"Thank you. I love you, Rayaa."__

I immediately shook my head. I'm so disgusting. Why do I have to do this?

I don't remember anything else, it looks like I fainted. I don't know if Brother Regar still did it when I fainted, or not.

The door was opened from the outside, indicating that someone had entered. I looked, apparently Brother Regar.

The guy looked at me. I immediately turned my eyes to the left.

Brother Regar approached then rubbed my hair gently. "You want something?"

I'm shaking.

"The waiter will bring you food." After saying so, Brother Regar passed.

I got up and walked to the window. What a nice view.

But where am I?!

I'm not in Jakarta?!

I immediately got out of the room and looked for Brother Regar. I need an explanation from him.

When I reached the end of the stairs, I heard a female voice. I'm really upset, is there maybe another girl who approaches Brother Regar?

I peeked into the room where the woman and brother Regar were talking.

A tiffani? The girl who was with Regar's brother in the dressing room?

Disgust! I don't want to remember that anymore. What they did made me hurt.

I try to listen to what they are talking about.

"... have I given up my chastity for Regar's sake, and Regar's brother wants to end this relationship?" Ask Tiffani.

I'm surprised, they're in a relationship behind my back?

Did ya?

"I've never had a relationship with you. From the beginning my boyfriend was just Rayaa. You know that, right? And the matter in the locker room at that time..didn't you come to me and want to do it yourself? Don't blame me, you will." Regar's answer pisses me off, but it makes me happy too. Uh! The point is I'm pissed!

"You're such a jerk!"

"And it shouldn't have approached me from the beginning, if you had known that. I've never approached a woman who doesn't want to sleep with me."

"If you feel like she's Rayaa's boyfriend, why touch another girl so recklessly?" Ask Tiffani.

"Because I love Rayaa. I love him and don't want to ruin him. She's a good girl."

Regar's answer surprised me. That right? He loves me sincerely?

Tiffani stomped her feet and then passed.

Brother Regar put his shoulder. "Where did the girl know where I was at this villa?"

The villa? I'm at the villa?

The steps of Regar sounded closer. I wanted to leave immediately, but Brother Regar found me.

"What's right here? Listening to my talk?" Brother Regar asked with full investigation.

"Sorry." That's all I can say.

"It's okay." Brother Regar grabbed my waist and we passed into the dining room.

"No waiter delivering food to the room?" Ask Brother Regar.

I'm shaking.

"All right, we'll have breakfast in the dining room. The waiter here is not much. They won't stay all day at the villa either."

My brother and I were sitting next to each other at the dinner table.

"Sister Rear will take me home, right?" I'm nervous.

Brother Regar shook his head firmly. "No, you'll be here with me forever. From now on, you are mine. You can't go anywhere. From now on, I won't sleep with another girl besides you."

There was fear when Brother Regar said that. He talks like a psychopath. Is he not going to hurt me?

"I love you." Suddenly Brother Regar kissed my lips.

I guess, Brother Regar doesn't love me. Her....

-

The day goes on.

I stayed at Regar's villa for a few days or even weeks. Brother Regar goes to school every morning and leaves me with some servants.

He will be back by 2pm as he should. His attitude was much better and very gentle to me.

I'm confused, does he really love me, or is he just obsessed with my body?

We had intercourse and I thought, Brother Regar kept me because he used my body.

He doesn't love me, he doesn't love me at all. I was tired of being in this place too. I miss Januaar.

Is she okay?

Every time I say I want to go home, Brother Regar will be angry. I was scared and dared not ask him to return me.

Januaar must be worried about me. I have to see him. Or he'll destroy anything to find me.

When I got home from school, I saw Regar's brother full of anger. He threw everything on the floor.

I dare not ask, even I do not want to show myself in front of him.

He used to say that his emotions were unstable. His mood is always bad. He always reminds me not to approach him when he's angry. He doesn't want to hurt me when he's angry.

I just peeked near the stairs.

"Damn it! Januaar is crazy! Why is he doing this!" Shouted Brother Regar.

Whahuh? Janut?

What has my sister done?

The sound of a car stopping in front of the villa. A man who may be in his 35s enters the room where Mr. Regar is.

Is he Mahali sir?

Seeing the chaos on the floor, master Mahali looked at his son. "I heard it from your friend. Your enemy gang is slaughtering your men. Have you gone crazy? Why are you quiet?"

Ja-so... his father knows, if brother Regar joined the gang? But.. Why not get banned?

"The parents of the victim sued me for what you did."

The deg!

"I'll fix it, Pa." Brother Regar replied with his head bowed.

Mr. Mahali leaned his back against the sofa while laying his feet on the table. "You're my oldest son that I trust. After me, you're the one who should hold our family throne."

The throne?

Meanin?

Don't-don't. Mahali family....

"Regar, you need to be ready."

"I'll do my best, Pa."

"Is that girl here?" Mr. Mahali circulated his gaze.

The question gives me the creeps. What does it mean 'that girl' is me?

Who else is it? There's only me here.

Brother Regar nodded.

"Better let the girl be with Januaar. Or you'll be in danger." Master Mahali looked at his son seriously.

"I love her. I'll keep him, even if Papa forbids me." Brother Regar looks so firm.

Actually, I was moved by the words of Brother Regar.

"I never forbid you to be with anyone, even though Rayaa is my enemy's son, I don't care if it makes you happy."

The deg!

The enemy?

My father. and his father, brother Regar....

"Don't play with girls, I'll kill you if you get the venereal virus." After saying that, mister Mahali left.

I soon passed to hide.

It feels scary. I didn't think the Mahalis were a mafia family like me. So, this is the secret they've been hiding all along?

No one dared to disturb the Mahali family. I get it now. I shouldn't have approached Regar from the beginning.

My father didn't give Gallardo's last name to his children in order for his children to be in trouble\, because he's the chairman of __gangster__.

I threw my body into bed.

I'm sure, brother Regar doesn't want to be the successor to his father's dark throne. Januaar is like that too. I am the same.

Why do we have to get into trouble like this?

Their dark world made us suffer in fear. We have to fight without knowing what the fight is for.

If they want to fight, do it yourself. Do not take children to the battle field.

Don't get married. Just take responsibility for everything yourself.

Their children's gangs are apparently connected to their network. I should have realized this from the beginning.

I flinched as I felt the burly arms hugging my body from behind.

"I'm tired." That's the voice of Regar.

I looked up at him. Both of the men's eyes looked puffy.

She cried?

"What's going on? Brother Regar can tell me." I rubbed his hand.

"Nothing I want but your existence. Stay here, Rayaa. You are the calm for my feelings."

Is he in a romantic phase?

"Is your father like my father?" Ask Brother Regar.

When it comes to my father, nothing seems fun.

"He's not a good guy. Not a good man, not a good father." I thought, Brother Regar will understand with my answer.

"Why were we born?"

The question also popped out of my head and I didn't know the answer.

Silent.

Is Brother Regar asleep? No, he's staring.

"We are born to continue what they have built. The dark world they had already built would continue if they had descendants. We are not considered children by them. We're the next chess pawn."

I feel like Regar's words are too far away. We are still Junior High.

"I'm talking nonsense. Sleep on." Brother Regar tightened his embrace.

-

The more days I get bored in this villa. There's nothing I can do.

The people around me must be worried. They'll think I was kidnapped and disappeared.

My phone was taken by Regar. Neither Januaar nor Raihan will be able to trace my whereabouts.

Seeing that there was a room next to this room, I entered. While in the villa, I never entered this room, because it was always locked. This time it just happened to be unlocked.

I went in and looked inside. This room is a library. There are a lot of books on the shelf.

Surprisingly, the books in this room seemed to be books that contained about the Mahali family, such as family genealogy, names that were sequential according to family rules.

They're very tight. It turns out that Mahali's surname is not carelessly made. Although their names are long and unique, they have a way of determining what letters to wear.

I spent my time reading in this room. It feels fun too. My boredom is sidetracked with these books.

Every time Regar goes home, I'm gonna get out of that room and hide. I'm afraid he'll be angry if he finds me reading books in the room without permission.

I haven't felt like I've been in Mahali's villa for two months. Has Januaar not been looking for me? Or maybe he knows, I'm okay? Or how?

As usual, I'll be in the library early in the morning after Mr. Regar leaves for school.

But today I found a new book on the table. Looks like the book was read last night and forgot to save it.

I opened the book. It turns out that it is the neat writing of Mr. Regar. Is this his __diary__? This book tells about his daily life from 2013-2015.

There is nothing fun in this book. Brother Regar is depressed. I can't describe what his life is like. I think the burden of his life is much worse than my life. It's like being trapped in the blood ties of the Mahali family.

I just found out, she has a sister. Last page, I was surprised to see the names of my father's family.

There were some red streaks on behalf of some people. They are dead people, what this means....

His last name was Januaar.

Brother Regar wants to finish off my sister?!

This can't happen!

Januaar is my only family, my closest brother who is much better than my other brothers and sisters.

I heard footsteps coming into this room. I should how?

The door opened, Brother Regar entered and was surprised to see my whereabouts.

"What's right here?" Ask.

"I was just a little bored, so I found a lot of books here. I'm sorry, I didn't say" I said.

I thought\, brother Regar would get angry\, it turns out he just nodded while taking the __diary__ that I had read.

"Tonight I have to go home. My mother must have thought I was running away from home, because I haven't slept at home in a month, yes even though I have lunch and dinner there sometimes."

I nodded in understanding.

My chance. I have to get out of here and tell Januaar.

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September 22, 2016

Ucu Irna Marhamah's