Last Letter to Kheira
DESTINY LOVE (Flashback)

The deepest wound is not betrayal, but a dream shattered by the death of a loved one forever.

~Light Novelia

Rained out...

I loved you once, though,

But that was before.

Before your club eats him

Rained out...

Why did you cover it with your dark mist?

Your spot does imply crying, though,

But why did you let this cry come again?

How much sacrifice to pursue it...

It was just a mirage, though,

And the illusion.

Hallucinations continue to linger within...

To a dream that never returns.

As far as chasing him...

Your hands are still unable to reach it.

Whatever deep your cry...

Still is, though,

He can't come back to stop it.

(Gayatri, 10-May-1987)

He wrote it in a white book about his heart. His pen shook writing sentence after sentence, his tears flowing profusely soaked the white sheet of paper before him. His fingers tried to wipe his tears, but again the tears fell by themselves.

"Tri, there's a guest"

Shouted the mbok from outside the room.

"Sopo mbo?"

Ask lirih.

"Your friend, Adi"

Pekik the Mbok.

"Tri wants to be alone first mbok"

His clarification makes the mbok even sadder to see him in a slump.

"Russia..."

Said the mbok as if asking him to continue to meet the man under any circumstances.

"Udah gapapa Mbok, if Tri can not meet me"

Adi's cry to the Mbok that sounded to Tri's ears.

While thinking, Tri decided to meet him, walking out of his room with a pale face made the mbok look bitterly at him. His eyes were full of solace, swollen flushed walking with blank stares as if despairing.

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(FROM POV)

In the living room, Adi occupies an ancient couch belonging to mbok Sarah. Moving his legs and putting both palms on his knees, as if giving a picture of anxiety in him.

His attention was on a woman who was opening the door. Makes him wake up from his stopover, seeing the woman he loves in grief.

His feet quickly stepped towards Gayatri, he held her hand and led her to walk towards the living room.

Realizing that his eyes continued to protrude towards the woman who was sitting beside him, watching the face of grief in the woman.

"Tri, when are you going to keep doing this? Indra is gone, please let go"

Pinta Adi clasped Gayatri's hand trying to strengthen her.

Without feeling the tears Gayatri poured hard from the lacrimal of her eyes, shed all her emotional tears. Made Adi tightly hug the body of the woman beside him.

His mind felt tight to see the woman he loved weaken.

"Cry until you calm down"

Lirih Adi stroked the shoulder of the woman in her arms.

A man as fresh as Adi who fought many times and many times also broken with rejection. Keep trying to sincerely fight for the woman he loves, trying to keep her and heal her wounds.

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(AUTHOR POV)

It has not been a month since the departure of her first love. Inadvertently Gayatri soiled her white clothes with red patches of dirt she was sitting on, the burial ground of her first love.

He revealed a white scarf towards his shoulders, his palms touching and stroking the gravestone before him.

The strangulation of someone patting his shoulder from behind made him look back.

"Rina"

He was slowly stunned to see someone coming before him.

Katrina, her best friend, came to see her at the cemetery. Gayatri hurried to get up from her seat and hugged her best friend tightly.

Her crying spilled on her best friend, a friend who had been a place for her outpouring of heart. However, a few years after graduating from High School, they have rarely met or just gave news.

"Patience Tri, I know it's hard for you but I'm sure you can get through it all"

Katrina stroked his best friend's shoulder making Gayatri's cry even more into his arms.

"Oh yeah, here's a seat for you"

Katrina took off her arms and took a letter from her bag.

"Who are you from?"

Ask Gayatri slowly.

"Mas Indra"

Katrina shrieked softly as her words made Gayatri stare in silence.

"He left this letter before he left for the city, he deliberately left it to me because he knew me as your best friend"

Katrina watched as Gayatri's eyeballs filled with wounds.

"I don't mean to keep this letter for long, I just don't want you to be sadder when you find out this letter"

He clearly placed both hands on Gayatri's shoulders.

"I understand Rin"

Gayatri muttered briefly towards him slowly he opened a piece of paper in his hand, then read sentence by sentence written in it.

*Yogyakarta, May 1, 1987

Hi Tri, how are you?

May health always be in His protection. Tri, pray for me. So that I'm sincere even if I can't be with you. Tomorrow is a very moving day in my life, I have to be with a woman I don't love.

I honestly don't want to disappoint you, I don't want to hurt you. However, I cannot resist this match. I don't want to hurt anyone in my life whether you, that woman or my parents.

I really love you. However, if not meant to be together then no one can force.

If you can't have you and can't hurt her. Perhaps going with God is the safest way.

Love someone who loves you. Do not continue to drag on to this endless sadness. Open your eyes and your heart, there is someone more ready to be with you than I am. There is someone who loves you more than I do.

Good bye Rin.

........ Indra News*.......

Harsh tears unstoppably soaked his cheeks, guilt increasingly drifting within him.

"It's all my fault"

His screams smacked his head wrapped in a white scarf.

"This whole FATE ain't your fault"

Katrina firmly grasped the hands of Gayatri who was still trying hard to rebel.

"Remember Tri, man can only plan, God governs it and no one can violate His decree"

Katrina kept Gayatri silent at the words of her best friend.

"Seek off his departure"

Lirih Katrina grabbed the body of her best friend in her arms.

Every pain is harder to forget and more imprinted in memory.

~Light Novelia

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It took me years to forget a memory. However, little by little he learned to make peace with the heart and tried to open the heart.

Finally he decided to accept Adi's proposal after 2 years of the departure of his first love. But he tried to keep his reasons for building love and open his heart to Adi only because of the will of his old love.

Adi's face looks very happy, because finally the patch of his heart is able to open his heart to receive his presence.

Time after time goes by, originally a love story that initially only relied on one hand, now all avenged.

Adi always sincerely gives love to Gayatri and Gayatri tries hard to build her love for Adi.

From there they began to build his love for a palace that gave birth to his daughter's son.

However, without them realizing a forced love will be a disaster for those present in his life.

*it is hard to love someone we do not love.

But in reality, it is more difficult to force a love that is not destined to be together.

~Light Novelia

**What calamity will befall them? Will a happy life end happily? or end up with wound***?