Lecturer My wife
Chapter 107 Hana's Regret

There was a moment of silence that Syifa was processing her brain. The energy drained from nausea vomiting all day plus the many thoughts and regrets because it can not help care for Mama Rina.

Though he had intended if the mother-in-law came home he could focus on taking care of her. All this time his mother had been very well received himself and had also sacrificed a lot of time caring for Bella who was not at all who she was.

Of course Syifa has a lot of debt because caring for small children is certainly not easy especially Bella who began to be active.

And Hana's words, although they are true, make Syifa so sad. It was as if it was a loud slap for her showing how incompetent she was in this house.

By holding back the tears that actually want to roar out Syifa tried to stay strong especially in front of Mama Rina whose condition is still unstable.

"M-I'm sorry, Hana. I can't take care of my mom properly. So I leave this to you, then I want to go down first look at Bella." said Syifa who immediately rushed out of the room.

With his steps feeling so heavy Syifa had to leave. She knew Bella was sleeping at the moment so she went straight to her room. Close the door of his room and lay down on the bed.

Luckily, Dion is out to monitor his cafe. Her crying broke instantly. He cursed himself who was so weak and useless. Drop by drop the tears that came out felt so painful. Whether this is purely a cry out of sadness or just a sensitive feeling a pregnant woman Syifa does not care.

In fact, this feeling has been resistant since he saw Mama Rina rolled unconscious beside him. At that moment the panicked Syifa immediately called Dion and Papa Wira. He wanted to go to the hospital but Dion banned him for health reasons.

That sense of regret continued to roll until the peak today. Syifa knew very well the irritation on the face of Hana, her best friend and sister-in-law.

"I'm useless, I'm just bothering everyone." Syifa muttered in tears.

Meanwhile, in the room of Mama Rina looks Hana feeding her mother-in-law. It seems that Mama Rina ate dishes made by Syifa so greedily.

Hana sighed harshly, perhaps not only because of the attention from being pregnant. Syifa is indeed an ideal son-in-law who is good at taking the hearts of parents. Hannah felt guilty herself.

"Mama's done eating, now take medicine and rest huh. Later if you need anything, just call Hana" said Hana to her in-laws.

After that Hana went out of the room and found the whole house looked lonely. Hana glanced towards Syifa's room. He wanted to apologize for his rude remarks but he did not dare.

She went to her husband's room, which was also her room. A sense of dilemma began to haunt him and made him even more uncomfortable.

"If Shaka's brother was here maybe I would ask him for advice.'' said Hana fretted.

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Syifa who was tired of crying unconsciously finally fell asleep. Even though he still sobbed intermittently. Dion, who had just returned, felt very sorry for his wife.

During this pregnancy it feels very heavy to live Syifa. But there's nothing he can do. Dion could only pray that he would suffer all these hardships.

She often heard and found out about sympathetic pregnancies where nausea and vomiting were felt by her husband, even cravings as well.

He will also be ready if it is what experiences him as a form of responsibility as a husband. But again, it is the power of God.

Only a gentle hug and a swipe can Dion offer while saying prayers in his heart for the safety and health of his wife and future son.

"Darling, are you home?"that voice could be heard by Dion.

"Hmm.. How are you?" Dion kissed his wife's soft forehead.

Syifa looked at her husband for a moment. There was no way she could tell him what Hana said to him. Dion will be angry and the family relationship will be not harmonious.

"Em, it's still a little nauseous, but if these glares are initially a little lost. Dedek again wants to be spoiled just as his Papa might be." Syifa held Dion's hand which rubbed her stomach

"Alright, I'll wipe it every time. Whatever you want, baby." The attention Dion gave her really made her comfortable and happy.

Syifa did not stop looking at her husband who loved her so much. A man she never thought would be her life partner. It turns out that with all his attitude and attention it always makes him happy.

"Honey, thank you." said Syifa.

"hmm. you're welcome." replied Dion.

"Thank you for being a part of my life." a single tear came out wetting her cheek.

"I also thank you, you have colored my days, my teacher." Dion wiped Syifa's tears.

A soft kiss landed on Dion's lips, so sweet and as if he didn't want it to end. All the touches about them in fact feel so beautiful and intoxicating. No matter how long he was together, the two men were so crazy they would love each other.

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Hana who actually regretted her words also wanted to apologize to Syifa. However, he should not be selfish and of course he is aware of his position in the house. Shaka is Papa Wira's stepson.

"Syifa where's Dion?" ask Papa Wira who is waiting for all his family members.

"Again in Pa's room, don't want to go down maybe still not enk body. Dion's permission to accompany Syifa to eat on it yes Pa." said Dion.

"Yes, you accompany your wife so aunt can prepare a meal for you." Now only Hana and Papa Wira live at the dining table because Mama Rina is also not allowed to move much.

The two ate in silence, but Papa Wira could catch a look of sadness on Hana's face. Dion said that Syifa did not want to go out of the room.

"Where to eat a lot yes, do not hesitate this is your home too." Papa Wira tried to melt the atmosphere.

"i-iya pa.." replied Hana awkwardly.

" If you're tired of rest, let Papa take care of your mama. You have been busy for days back and forth from the hospital." said Papa Wira again.

"Yes pa.." Hana who was overwhelmed with guilt could only answer her potluck.

He was more guilty of putting envy on Syifa even though both of his parents-in-law were in fact so considerate of him.

Until finally finished dinner Hana immediately rushed to her room. He was so sad and regretful.

"Why with me? why am I being so selfish? it's clear Syifa is in a bad condition even I hurt her feelings. Accepted in this family alone I should have been grateful but why did I suddenly become greedy? I have to apologize to Syifa, but what if she won't forgive me? What if Dion hates me too? Oh my God I'm really confused.." Hana's her own monologue.

While in other places it appears Papa Wira is feeding Rina's mother. But his attention was not distracted by his two daughters-in-law. Curious about what really happened.

"Ma, can Papa ask?"

"Well, what's the matter, Pa?"

"Are our two daughters-in-law out of the storm?" Papa Wira who always has more sensitivity also directly asked his point.

Mama Rina seemed to think for a moment then remembered the incident last afternoon.

"Not a storm, just a little talk is not good." Finally Mama Rina told the incident this afternoon to Papa Wira.

"Ma, Papa doesn't blame Mama. Papa knows Mama loves them, but lately mama is more attention to Syifa because she is pregnant. Mama also intermittently always asked about the situation of Syifa even though there was Hana who always took care of mom in the hospital. Maybe with Mama's attitude Hana became discouraged. What else Hana who is not pregnant may make her more inferior. You can worry about Syifa but you also remember there is Hana who has taken care of you. We both appreciate their feelings yes ma.." hearing her husband's words made Mama Rina aware.

"Yes also yes Pa, Mama is just used to Syifa so do not realize that it has hurt Hana." regretted Mama Rina.

"Well then hope they get along again." Said Papa Wira who directly guaranteed Mama Rina.

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The next day as usual Hana who prepared breakfast and fed her mother-in-law. But this time it didn't feel like usual. Hana was still filled with guilt for Syifa while she had not met and asked Syifa for maf.

"Why you, baby?" asked Mama Rina when she saw Hana was daydreaming.

"It's okay ma." replied Hana.

"If there's anything you can tell Mama." Mama Rina commented on her smile.

"Ma.. What did Hana say yesterday to Syifa too evil huh? Hana's really sorry." Hana is trying to be honest.

Mama Rina also grabbed Hana's hand and held it gently.

"Darling, every human being has committed mistakes and mistakes but as long as we are quick to realize and apologize it will be good. Your attitude is also because of your mother. Sorry mama pay less attention to you when you have been taking care of your mother during illness. I'm sorry, my son, and I thank you so much for taking care of my mother. Both you and Syifa are my beloved. So never be discouraged." Mama Rina's words were immediately embraced by Hana.

And now he must be sure and determined to apologize and repair his relationship with Syifa.

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