
WE ARE ONLY LIMITED TO THE PAST
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Now Juan is alone standing waiting and hoping a taxi will come and drive him. Yes, all this happened because his phone was lowbet and he refused William's invitation to go home, he was embarrassed to face or face to face with William even longer. Either his mind now wanders somewhere.
Juan felt that someone was watching him right now, he immediately walked away from the front yard of the party building. Sure enough to feel Juan, there are men who are now chasing him.
"Juan," he said half-running to match Juan's accelerating pace.
"I'm taking!" The check was strong as Juan tried to leave.
Juan threw out the man's hand and looked at him with dislike. "No need, you've helped me a lot."
"Listen Juan there's no taxi or bus at 11pm like this. Please don't refuse." I begged Juan to come with her. Rarely or never even once did he plead like this to another woman except Juan.
"Listen, Mr. Bara, I really don't need your help, i-i-"
"I'm forcing!" bara's snapping made Juan instantly speechless and just followed wherever Bara took Juan away.
Whether there was any magic so that a chatty Juan suddenly became quiet when faced with a Barata Dewanggana.
"Let go, this hurts!"
Juan grimaced probably because so long Bara's hand gripped Juan's arm. Bara who realized that he hurt Juan immediately took off his grip and turned to open the car door for Juan. "Come in" to Bara who responded to Juan's action sat down with force, ya know for free if Juan refused, Bara remained firm in his stance.
"Sucks." Juan's lips softly but still can be heard by Bara who is now sitting in his steering chair.
Bara just smiled at Juan's sneer which even looks very adorable. Bara started the engine and immediately gas.
There is only silence that accompanies this journey, plus the streets are quiet, only the car lights are the lights of the road.
"Sorry-"
Juan suddenly looked at Bara who was still focused on driving forward. "For?"
"The incident and anything else that I might have hurt you."
I don't know why he suddenly remembered his mother's words earlier.
"Well, for example, people from his past mamah come again mamah life, carrying old wounds again. What are you gonna do?"
"I'm sorry he ndukk, sekang kuwe koe will learn the meaning of sincerity and atimu will be calm."
Indeed, if spoken very simple but if done will be very heavy and will be very difficult.
"Ju-"
"That's just the past for myself and you, so there's no need to apologize. Let's just say it never happened even for today's events." Juan's eyes reluctantly looked towards Bara, his heart sliced saying something that was not his desire at all.
Bara suddenly stopped his car and held the steering wheel very tightly, like holding something in him, Juan realized it.
"Stop being formal with me and everything is fine." said Bara, he was furious at Juan's behavior like this.
"My Ember-sir-"
"It's not all right, Juan."
"You and I aren't good at all!" Emotions Bara peaked he hit and punched the steering wheel until his hands bled.
"Bara-" muttered Juan surprised to see such an emotional Bara.
Tess
Again Juan's fucking tears came back dripping freely.
Bara again felt guilty for snapping at him just for following his emotions.
Bara's hand that would wipe the tears on Juan's cheek was immediately slapped by Juan, he then turned his face in the opposite direction.
"Argh..." Bara growled in annoyance. He was so upset with himself that he made Juan cry.
How stupid is this self that can only make you cry. I'm sorry I couldn't hug you and say something nice to you. I regret.
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Juan got down from Bara's car with eyes that looked puffy and soft. Yes, for the rest of the trip there was only silence and sobs held back Juan's. Bara who did not know what to do and Juan who could not stop his crying. A really confusing couple.
"I'm saying goodbye."
"Wait." said Juan, his voice sounded raucous as a result of crying earlier.
"Hm?"
"Come in, you're hurt because of me, don't make myself owe you."
Bara nodded, he was actually very tired and wanted to rest for a while so he agreed to Juan's orders. Bara followed Juan's steps into his house.
Chequek.
Juan opens the door to his house, he always carries the keys to the house wherever he goes so whatever time he will come home, he will not be tired waiting for his brother to open the door.
"Assalamualaikum." Greetings when entering the living room.
There is no answer, yes maybe all the residents have fallen asleep especially since 12 o'clock.
"Wait here. Sit as comfortably as possible" he ordered and passed.
When he sat down, he looked around him. He realized that the decoration in this house was still the same as before and nothing had changed, even though it had been 10 years.
Instantly he remembered the incident 10 years ago, when he first came to this house with the same reason Juan treated a bruise on his cheek first because of a fight with his classmates for daring to hurt him. The difference is, Juan used to do that with a sparkling gaze and full of worry, he continued to nag. While now staring at Bara alone was reluctant let alone talk a lot to him.
"What are you daydreaming sir?" Juan waved his hand right in front of the face of Bara who was dumbstruck.
"Ahh-ti-dak."
Juan just smiled and sat down next to Bara. "Do you treat yourself or do I treat?" asked Juan who heard more offers.
Bara smiled witfully in response to Juan's offer. "If you want to get a reward, I'm ready to be treated."
"This is not a mode, just to help you get the reward," he continued accompanied by a savory laugh .
Juan clucked in wonder at him and immediately treated Bara's wound at the corner of his lips. Slowly Juan cleaned Bara's wound and applied red medicine using a cotton bud on Bara's wound that was clean.
"It's gonna hurt, hold it." The coals slightly grimaced as Juan applied the medicine on his lips.
"It's not worth what you've been feeling all along."
Juan turned his face towards Bara and found Bara also staring at him.
Deg.
The distance between the two of them is now only a few cent, really close. As if time stopped, their beads of eyes felt stiff and just stared at each other.
"Juan, I'm really sorry for everything-" she said hoarsely, somehow it felt so heavy to say this was inversely proportional to earlier.
Juan just silently stared and traced Bara's eyes, he hoped there was a lie there, but no Juan found not the slightest lie from his eyes.
"Juan Akuu tinker-"
"We've been over since you chose to leave."
"We're just limited to mass and now Dira your future."
"So get rid of everything that has to do with us. Enough of me to feel her sense of being left behind, not Dira."
Bara felt his heart ache deeply when he heard the statement coming from Juan's mouth.
Juan smiled wryly and ended it with a sweet kiss on Bara's smooth forehead.
"And this is the last time."
I hope he turned back the time ago so that he could correct his mistakes in the past.
"You'd better go home, it's late at night. Maybe they're all looking for your whereabouts that suddenly disappeared." Juan said it with a frenzied tone as he stood up, "Sa-ya wants to go for a while," he said nervously and with a hiccup.
Bara immediately stood up, pulling Juan's body into his arms. Juan was crying, his head was buried in Bara's neck.
"Hiks..hikss..sorry - I was crying, sorry - I was so crybaby.It hurts so much, I...hiks....hikss.." raved Juan while lapping his chest softly, which felt tight. Bara who saw it felt very tight in his chest, Juan spilled all his heartache through crying.
"Enough." Bara stopped the movement of Juan's hand by holding his ladder and gently kissing Juan's palm.
Maybe fate is playing us both, so let me finish this game well. Whatever happens, I'll stay with you.