Love Gift
Distrusting

Erika's eye bead was clear, her eyes were bright, not foggy, unlike before, which was only filled with disappointed twinkle only. Now the eyes sparkle, waiting for an answer from the man he loves.

“So what do you want to explain?” Erika held the hand of Axel, the man she loved was glancing towards her hand which was now held by Erika, the woman who had been in her heart. Axel admits he's a hypocrite, but that in itself is a kindness to Erika.

“You remember, no, it used to be about thirteen years ago, I also had a cold attitude towards you?”

Erika's forehead wrinkled, then she nodded, as she remembered, she had indeed felt pain as well as the result of Axel's treatment of her, but it did not last long, as she remembered, because since Axel entered High School the handsome man was back to be gentle and warm to him.

“What does this have to do with it? I mean, you're repeating that time again?” Erika asked with an annoyed look on her face, then she snorted.

“I have a reason to do that, Rika,” said Axel, Erika again focused her attention on the man she loves.

“Explain, what is the reason, and it should certainly make sense!” Erika said with a fierce face and also firm, Axel who saw that just laughed a little.

“Then, when I was third grade Junior High, there were women who liked me,..” Erika raised her eyebrows.

“Oh, so that means because there are other women? I understand, yes already, do not need to be explained again, Brother, I have been hurt enough so far, so do not add again!”

Axel chuckled, then he shook his head, “Not, Honey. Not that, you heard first what I wanted to say to you.” Although lazy, but Erika still cleared her throat, the beautiful girl looked at Axel's face which now looked serious again.

“She, her name is Mia.” Erika was about to open her voice again, but Axel held her back. “She said that if she likes the same I've done it many times, I've rejected her too many times, but she's chuckling. He said he loved to die with me. I can't believe it, dong. We are only third grade Junior High, and children our age must know the name of monkey love.” Axel was silent, he looked at Erika's face which looked curious about her story.

“But it turns out that my guess was wrong, he actually love died with me, until he was willing to kill himself because I refused him. At that time, I went straight down, he wrote me a letter that he brought all his love to me to death. I assume he's crazy, for sacrificing myself like that, I'm really down, Ika.” Erika came along when she heard Axel's story. She clasped Axel's hand, trying to encourage her husband to tell her all about his problems.

“I was afraid of being wrong, you know that time I was still unstable, and just as I asked other friends, it turned out that he was already sick. I don't know anything about him, I don't know his house, his parents' job, because I don't care about him. I've dropped my choice on you, so yes once I never glance at any woman again.” Erika smiled slightly when she heard Axel's words.

“He had brain cancer, Ika. And because I constantly rejected him, he assumed that he had no passion for life anymore. And finally he chose the kayak path so.” Axel took a deep breath.

“Continuous. Continue!”

“Well that's why I'm also looking for a High School away from my old Junior High School, so I don't get terrorized by guilt anymore. After High School, I can feel comfortable again with my new environment, and can make you laugh again. But it did not last long, because her sister Mia, she neror I fit into college.”

“I know he is also from a family that is, and that is why I am getting scared, because he threatened me to hurt anyone who is close to me. And that's why I kept you, Ika. I love you too much, so I chose that path.” Without feeling, Erika's heart became sick when she heard Axel's story. He thought he had suffered the most, but Axel suffered even more.

“I admit I'm stupid because I don't tell anyone about this problem, because I don't want you all to be burdened by my problems. Especially at that time Julian was also having problems. I'm afraid Ika, at that time I really felt alone, because that was also my mind so fickle”

“Because of fear, I even consulted with a psychiatrist, I am ashamed to admit this but this is reality, because I do everything. That guilt makes me feel like I'm going crazy, living in my own apartment after college, I really am someone else. Sometimes the sudden shadow of Mia made me feel even more guilty. And cleverness makes me worse.” Axel sighed many times, the fear made his emotions change.

“I thought, if I hadn't rejected Mia, if I had known she was sick, if she hadn't been so desperate, I probably wouldn't be crazy. I've been to a psychiatrist for over a year, and thankfully after that I felt better. But the terror was still I got from sister Mia, but after graduating the terror was no longer there, but the fear was still there.”

“Because of that too, I have to keep making you hurt because he knows that the woman I love is you, and incidentally Rian also likes you, actually I don't like it all, actually, but I realized that everything happened because of me. I tried to make you look the same as him, until I made a silly skit by pretending to have a boyfriend even to insult you.” Axel chuckled, recalling the stupidity and also the pain he had been trying to hide all along.

“You know, I'm upset and hate myself for it. If you go abroad I am afraid but also grateful, because at that time my company collapsed, because it was attacked by the same company Mia's sister, but fortunately Julian helped me to fight him, he said, and because of my struggle for three more years, now that I have stood firm, I have many branches of the company, and also there is Brother Julian who helps me from behind, so I feel that now I can show you to the world, even though there will be people who do not like it. Now I have the strength to fight, and not rely on Julian's brother anymore, yes even though I know, that I always need him.”

“You're the sickest of the two of us, brother. You should tell this to everyone, and don't save everything yourself.”

“I'm afraid of being chased by fear and guilt, Ika.”

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Has anyone guessed anything like this? And what do you think? Doesn't it make sense? Wkwkwkwk.