Love Mas Cousin
Inner Struggle

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Larisa looked at a house painted in white chocolate. Many plants in his yard, honestly he wants to look closer at once enter and hug one by one the inhabitants of the house.

His home, which is a lot of beautiful moments that he experienced. Likes and sorrows he lives. Larisa was powerless to endure her sadness, stuffing slowly out of her thin lip blade.

Larisa hopes to see the figure of anyone, one of her family. Whether it's mom, dad, Ganta or conscience. Thank goodness he could see them all at this time. Larisa recklessly came all the way after being tormented by her inner struggle. Overtaken by Bassta's constant togetherness with Jema and to remove the shadow, Larisa wants to try to divert by traveling far while wanting to see her family.

However, it had been an hour that he was standing in the quiet corner of the small alley he was walking in, not a single one of his family he had seen.

Now, Larisa was even caught by someone who immediately pulled her hand. Larisa who was crying was shocked, almost screaming but her mouth smothered her friend Nayla.

“Larisa, what are you doing?” nayla asked slowly, her eyes were looking around, afraid that there were people who saw and would cause a struggle again. In fact, the mouths of the gossipers had begun to subside because Larisa's family had never served her. Diladeni will even cause a dispute, after all, they are all gossiping about something certain. Larisa's family has put it all together on time.

“Nay,” says Larisa hoarse.

Nayla gasped because Larisa immediately hugged her, she returned the shivering embrace. Nayla was really scared to see Larisa's condition right now. Therefore, Nayla was finally more determined than Larisa to bring Larisa to her home. Mumpung no one because Nayla saw Larisa when she wanted to cry, complain, also needed the warmth of a hug.

The two walked together quickly, Larisa covering her head with Hoodie's jacket. He doesn't want any neighbors to see him. If that happened, he would not be able to forgive his mistakes because again his family will suffer the consequences.

The heaviest burden in life is indeed facing the humans around us.

Arriving at Nayla's house, Nayla takes Larisa to her room. There, Larisa spilled all her complaints, although in fact she was also afraid if Seruni suddenly appeared to discover her existence.

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After Larisa told me everything. Nayla could only remain silent with her head lowered. He is confused to hear the situation of his friend who is trapped and tormented by the choices he takes.

Larisa has stopped crying. His eyes were puffy and highlighted blank even though there was Nayla right in front of him.

“Ris.” Suddenly Nayla made a sound, from the look on her face, she seemed to want to ask something very sensitive.

Larisa looked at her friend.

“I want one thing with you and please answer honestly,” said Nayla and Larisa just kept quiet. “It looks like you're not just stuck in a situation you created yourself. But you are also confined in a sense that you are not aware of.”

Larisa looked down at Nayla's words.

“Ris.” Nayla pulled Larisa's chin, the face raised, their eyes looking at each other. “Honestly, you're starting to like Bassta?” her tanyanya was soft and Larisa immediately took a heavy breath.

“I—“ Larisa stopped, unsure of the answer she was going to give.

“You don't like and are disappointed that Bassta has a boyfriend when it's clear, before you plan to get married. Your marriage is just a shell to cover and protect the status of your baby.” Nayla now touches Larisa's stomach.

Larisa lowered her head, her lips puffed up, then she cried back sobbing.

“I don't understand.” Larisa tries to dodge, as quickly as lightning Nayla holds and presses Larisa's shoulder to stay still in place.

“You like Bassta even though Bassta can't possibly reciprocate the feelings you have?” nayla said, she wanted to make Larisa realize that the feeling she has now will instead add to the burden that stifles her chest.

Larisa mengelos, took down the second time from the bed, she stood up then stepped closer to the white-covered window.

“I'm also confused why can I do this? I don't understand why since Bassta was willing to help me by marrying me, I was expecting more than protection from her. I demand vengeance a sense, you could say, I am indeed very ignorant of myself.” Larisa said with a hoarse voice.

Nayla turned her gaze to hear it, then a blink of an eye she looked back at Larisa's back.

The house across there seemed to be movement. The door opened and Larisa immediately wiped the tears on her cheek. Larisa is silent and Nayla who is curious about what Larisa saw was approaching, it turns out that Larisa is watching her house across the street.

Some came out, a smile also adorned the lips of women who were experiencing the dilemma. However, as he clearly saw who was coming out, he immediately rewinded his legs away.

Sadi, her father who came out and Nayla immediately closed the curtain that opened a little.

“Daddy,” says Larisa with choked. “Ayaaah,” the screech again and Nayla holds his shoulder.

“Sabar, Rice. Now is not the time, be thankful that you can still see your father even from afar.”

Larisa keeps crying and wants to see her father again. However, when Seruni's voice was heard calling Nayla from outside the house. Larisa immediately panicked especially Nayla.

“Where is this, Nay?” larisa.

“Naylaaaaa, help me bring groceries into the house. You're inside, right? Get out first, help Mom.” Seruni was already screaming again.

Sadi in front of his house who was wearing shoes also gave a sigh to hear the sound of Seruni blaring, very disturbing.

“Nayla!” Seruni's voice was rising.

In the room, Nayla and Larisa are confused.

“Through the back door, aja, Ris. I'm sorry I can't bring you home,” said Nayla while holding Larisa's hand.

“Nothing, Nay.”

“Told you that you were home, yes,” pinta Nayla and Larisa nodded strongly.

Now, both of them left the room. Nayla did lock the front door, Nayla only watched Larisa from afar, then she approached the front door to immediately meet her mother who kept calling.

“Truly you! Like cussing something,” firmly Seruni when Nayla opens the door.

“So I overslept, Bu.” Nayla reasoned.

“Have a virgin daughter whose work sleeps only.” Seruni nagged, Nayla pouted in response. Then when he saw Sadi coming out through the fence of his house, Seruni spoke again. “But better to fall asleep than get pregnant first. Make shame, make a riot sekampung.”

Seruni snickered and Sadi who heard immediately stopped her steps. He twisted his body, his eyes so sharp that they pointed at Seruni and Nayla. Nayla can only swallow the saliva, pull her mother's hand and hope her mother doesn't speak anymore.

“Eh, Mr. Sadi.” Seruni said hello while grinning, he felt innocent by what he had said.

“What did you say, Seruni?” reprimand Mr. Sadi, he held tightly to the strap of his sling bag.

“Ih, what's it, Sir?” sahut Seruni, trying to calm down even though his face was red, he was afraid to see Sadi continue to glare and harden his jaw.

“I am not deaf! You obviously insinuated me! Want my child to get pregnant first, how about it, cake! It has nothing to do with you. So a mother has a mouth don't get rotten so why, anyway? Hobby is so denouncing and insulting the living situation of others!” Sadi and Seruni snapped his eyes.

“Eh Father ordinary, aja, dong. I—“ Sentence Seruni truncated, Sadi interrupted.

“I what? You like to have fun over other people's problems. Do not be difficult with neighbors, there is nothing you ask for help, right, neighbors first before people far away. Living in harmony and indifference is the same problem people are very difficult for you, yes?” Sadi shook her waist and Seruni stepped forward to fight.

Nayla held her mother, now she's the one who's advancing.

“Pak Sadi I'm sorry.” Nayla's voice stammered.

“Say the same to your mother! Got a mouth in the guard. My wife can be quipped every time with your mother, but I'm not to be equated. If you dare let's talk directly, I jabanin!”

“I'm sorry, Mr.”

“Don't be angry with my son, dong, sir!” Seruni not accepted.

“I also do not accept my child and you make pergosipan meal no end!” reply Sadi and Nayla continue to attract Seruni.

“Bu, let's go in.”

“No! I don't want.”

“Buuuu.” Nayla almost cried.

Sadi was still standing in front of the fence of their house, Nayla kept trying to pull her mother in. Sadi exhaled a rough breath as Seruni continued to shout cursing and denouncing her family.

The uproar also invites the souls of the neighbors. Some went straight out of the house to look, some approached to calm Sadi down and more of them peeked out of their windows.

Sadi who was irritated and lazy was finally undo his intention to go to Laundry. In fact, Fitria was already waiting for him to be picked up.