Love The Way You Lie
It's Not Easy to Be a Mother
“Yes! I did, do you know why I did that? So that I have a reason to have you! And you didn't know yourself trying to hide my son and kill him! You don't even deserve to be a mother because of your selfishness.”
Dafa spoke with explosive emotions, he did not even use his heart and mind when saying such a painful sentence.
A killer? Isn't it too cruel to accuse Ria of being her own child murderer? Who wants to lose their child. No parent wants to lose their child.
“Yes Allah, Already Dafa.. Ria... You better calm down first, this is all the destiny of God son.” Papa Lukaz tried to calm his son and daughter-in-law.
Dafa who was staring at Ria sharply finally left Ria and her two parents, while Ria was getting hurt. She felt lost in her spirit, sick, unable to break her heart too much for now. Losing her child, her husband blames her and leaves just like that.
He wanted to ask why would God give back the test if yesterday he gave the rainbow after the rain? Is this really his way of life that should always be hurt ? just now, he had just felt a tremor from within his stomach, signaling a life had grown there.
Now that he had to swallow the bitter pill, his happiness should be gone not lasting long.
“Yes God, sick. I couldn't bear it, just now I feel its presence now I have to lose it.” Ria cried roaring she felt really hurt.
Ria continued to cry, screaming hysterically until finally the doctor re-injected the sedative into her body.
His eyes closed again, mama Maya faithfully waits and takes care of her daughter-in-law it gives attention because mama Maya is a woman and a mother she certainly knows what it is like to lose her child who has not even been born to the world.
“Honey, you must be patient.believe God is making your child the key to the door of heaven later for you.” Maya's mother said as she stroked Ria's head, although Ria unknowingly gave Maya a doctrine she was sure her son-in-law could hear in her subconscious.
While after leaving Ria's room, until late at night Dafa has not returned to see the state of his wife. Dafa chooses to calm himself, Dafa chooses to come to a lake, to vent his disappointment over the destiny given by God.
“Aaahhhh!” Dafa shouted as if his shout was able to finish off the disappointment in his heart.
Dafa was so disappointed in this fate, Dafa was so disappointed in Ria who did not reveal her pregnancy because she did not believe in him, Dafa was so disappointed in himself for having done such a foolish thing to have Ria hurt Ria.
Dafa admits he was wrong, he was wrong to hurt Ria with his love. But why when he wants to change himself, as if fate doesn't give him a chance.
Dafa rubbed his face, he sat down with his feet bent, for a moment Dafa looked at the calm lake water with a little light given by the moon. Tears shed, he began to sob, when talking about the heart of any man will not be able to hold his tears.
Until the early morning Dafa was still loyal to his position, he seemed unable to go home so hurt, Dafa contemplated all his regrets, his stupidity and his selfishness.
When Dafa was just getting out of his place at 4:15, when he did not return to the hospital, Dafa chose to go back to the apartment, Dafa chose to rest himself.
Dafa laid his body in the room after arriving at the apartment, he closed his eyes slowly his breathing began to irregular signs of Dafa had entered the dream realm.
The morning after passing through the painful night, Ria was now lying on her side, her body facing towards the window where the sky was so dark as if the world was feeling her pain.
Raindrops that fell, in rhythm with Ria's tears that also flowed without anyone knowing, Maya who did not come home to keep her daughter-in-law was sleeping on the sofa a small mattress in Ria's room.
Ria was diving into a sea of pain, when awakening from her long sleep Ria realized that the one she had experienced last night was not a dream.
His body became rigidly contemplating his fate, even when he woke up Ria did not see Dafa the husband was at his side, when his other wife would be accompanied by her husband when he was grieving, Dafa like her did not want Ria to feel that.
Ria knew that Dafa also felt lost, but could not give Dafa a little empathy for him. Ria realized her dishonesty about her pregnancy was wrong, but Ria did it not without a clear reason.
Ria wants Dafa to understand why Ria delayed telling her about her pregnancy, even though her hopes were lost because she had to feel the loss of her child.
Ria closed her eyes again when she heard the door open, she did not want to be seen crying and would pretend to be asleep.
The steps of someone who approached the cage of Ria, it turns out Reza came to bring breakfast and change clothes for Maya's mother after being ordered by Papa Lukaz.
Maya hears someone enter the room, opens her eyes and rushes to get up from her place.
“Good morning mistress.” Sapa Reza when she saw Maya who was already sitting on the edge of her small bed last night.
“I brought you an order Mr. Lukaz, this is breakfast and change of clothes for you and miss Ria, madam.”
Reza put a paper bag containing breakfast on the table and a sling bag containing Maya and Ria's clothes in the closet in Ria's room in the care.
“Iya Reza, please put it there ya.” Answer mama Maya.
“Is there anything else I can help madam?” Ask Reza.
“No Reza, thanks you can get back to work now.” Maya smiled at Reza.
“Good mistress.” Reza answered, he rushed to leave the room until Reza's steps stopped when Maya's mother called him back.
“Reza, do you know where Dafa is now?” Ask mom Maya.
“Sorry madam, I am still figuring out the whereabouts of the young master. And also, last night young master did not return to the main house.” Reza replied as he bowed his head in regretting his ignorance of the existence of Dafa.
“Emh, okay. If you have any news about Dafa please tell him to go to the hospital immediately.” Maya.
“Good mistress, I said excuse me.” Reza bowed her body again to pay respect to Maya's mother.
Meanwhile, there is someone who again feels pain in the bottom of his heart.
Yes, from now on Ria who was pretending to be asleep heard all the talk of Maya and Reza.
Ria felt disappointed, it turns out that her husband did not just accompany her in the hospital, but her husband did not return to the main house. In her heart, Ria now felt that Dafa was not worried about her at all.
The clear thread that Ria had been holding, the end flowed back. She cries in silence again, because of her position behind her mother Maya and also Reza. Had her body not been weak, Ria really wanted to go away from Dafa and her family.
At once Ria recalled, was this all punishment because she and Dafa were married without any riddles and blessings from her mother and father.
But why did God punish him through an unborn baby in this world, why did God not punish Ria in any other way.
“Ria, baby you're up son?” mama Maya finally called her daughter-in-law, because she saw the change of Ria's sleeping position since last night.
Ria was just speechless hearing her mother-in-law's call, she was even so embarrassed by her state this time.
“You eat first yuk, you must have a lot of energy dear.” Mama Maya persuades Ria to get up and eat.
Slowly mama Maya sits herself on the edge of Ria's cage, slowly mama maya stroked Ria's body with affection. It makes Ria's heart pinched so sore, mama Maya is so good to her, she is so sincerely loving Ria makes Ria more sobbing in her cries.
“Ria, you cry son?” Ask mama Maya who heard the sound of a sobbing from Ria.
Ria just shook her head slowly, she still did not want mama Maya to know her condition which was currently crying.
Meanwhile, the mama Maya who understood was just a small smile.
“Ria, in human life must have experienced a test. The more you are tested, the more God believes you are a tough human being. If you manage to pass the test with patience, you are already one level above the others.” Said Maya's mother who tried to strengthen Ria, she knew her son and daughter-in-law were now in a very low position.
Ria immediately recalled the words of Matien's father who once said, when Ria cried longing for her biological mother.
“Ria must be patient in the test that God gave, if Ria be patient insha Allah Ria will be happy son.”
TBC🌝