Main Yuk Kak's
Hard Decisions

Hani apologized full of regrets. Even he was unable to stare at Jaelani's face. However, his mouth did not stop saying all his regrets.

“Sorry to Jae. Back then, when we went to Dahlia High School. I actually used you to take cover. And ask you to take me to a dangerous place you may not be aware of.” Hani said still with his head bowed.

Jaelani is crispy, she doesn't believe what she hears, even though she doesn't understand what Hani says. At once Jaelani remembers the worst memories with Hani while at Della's house. An event beyond reason that feels very real. Jaelani also still felt her horror when she remembered it. Actually, Jaelani wanted to ask what happened at that time. But he didn't have the courage to ask. However, now Hani may finally be able to answer it.

“Ah, I sincerely help you. So the victim of bullying is definitely torturing. So...” Jaelani said cut off.

He thought for a moment, if his guess was right Hani had remembered all. Is Hani able to accept this bad Jaelani. Well, Jaelani considers himself a criminal for falsifying testimony. Although Galih did not involve Jaelani at all in his investigation. Jaelani still feels guilty.

First, Hani becomes an easy target for bullying and it turns out that what causes everyone to hate Hani is Galih who spreads hatred through class groups. Can Hani forgive Jaelani who worked with Galih to cover up a crime and make Hani a victim of Galih's mistake.

“So, you remember everything now Han?” Jaelani asked without hesitation.

He had to accept the fact that it would happen sometime. Sooner or later, though it is likely that only 1% of Hani recalls after amnesia. And now it happens. Jaelani can only resignedly hear whatever Hani's statement. If he really remembered, then he would be prepared to move away by himself.

“Iya I've remembered everything.” Hani weak.

Instantly the atmosphere became silent. They are immersed in each other's thoughts. Secure on the other side. Kiki looked at the two with an impatient cold expression. He was an impatient little boy. But, also a coward when it's bluffed or he knows when he can't do anything.

“Choose sis.” Kiki's words were clearly heard in Hani's ears.

At first Hani was upset when Kiki told him to hurry. But, it also became Hani's encouragement to immediately say all and complete this mission.

Finally Hani took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. The way Hani breathed was enough to grab the attention of Jaelani who was daydreaming. And Hani who caught Jaelani's eye noticed her immediately shrieked back. But, deep within him. I want to be free from this guilt.

And Hani told me everything. Now he looked into Jaelani's eyes firmly. Telling all the events they experienced was caused by a covenant that could not be reasoned. Hani knows, Jaelani must not be able to believe his words. However, he kept telling all the stories up to his last memory when he was sealed by Tony sir and Tina ma'am. And after that, he doesn't remember anything.

Actually he remembered when Nana's spirit tried to kill Galih. But, he didn't tell it. Because he wasn't sure what he saw. Perhaps it was the effect of his own mind being frightened because of the spirit of Nana that haunted him.

While Jaelani was stunned to listen to Hani's story that clearly did not make sense. But, somehow Jaelani believes that what Hani is experiencing is real. Remembering she had seen for herself what happened between Hani and Della at Della's house at that time.

As soon as Hani finished telling the story. Jaelani was still a thousand words silent and froze. His brain was still processing everything he had heard. The story was so heavy that it made him dizzy. Jaelani had not yet finished processing the story. Hani had already asked a question that put Jaelani in a difficult decision.

“Jae, can help me just this once. I can't tell you now. But, I need you to help me. This is the last time. Please take me to Della's house. And if you'd like to, take me to Della and Violla's graves. I'll make sure after that, I won't involve you again.” Obviously Hani was at length while Jaelani and was hoping to be anxious.

Jaelani became quiet. His brain and feelings were fighting in Jaelani. Her brain says “Don't deal with Hani anymore. It's for his own good.” But, his heart said the opposite “Did Jaelani have the heart to let Hani go to a dangerous place alone?”.

Then, bad memories come to mind when the day Jaelani finds Hani bleeding. Blood did not stop flowing from his head. She escorts Hani to the IGD room in a panic she tries to call Hani's family and is afraid of being blamed for Hani's current state. Although in fact, Ratih did not ask that because he was too panicked by the state of Hani who entered in a critical time at that time.

“This is the last one, after that. We won't bother each other anymore.” Hani said.

***

Jaelani was surprised. It turned out that what was on Hani and Jaelani's mind was the same. They feel guilty and want to disappear from the face of the earth. It felt like disappearing from each other's face for good.

“Don't say that.” Jaelani said unconsciously.

Now Jaelani spoke from the bottom of her heart. He does not use logic at all. Let go of everything on his mind. Jaelani is honest with herself if she likes Hani. He wanted a second chance to improve himself. Now the problem is, can Jaelani be honest with Hani and say the mistake that is considered to make him a bad person.

***

Hani thought he was just waiting for an answer. His feeling was now relieved just like that. If only he had said it long ago. Maybe he won't be like now. Hani had also intended to stay away from Jaelani. He did not want Jaelani to get into trouble because of it.

Hani was staring at Jaelani expectantly. He just wants to be delivered to Della's house. That will be enough. After that, he will run it himself. However, when Jaelani opened her mouth and said the words that made her heart melt instantly. The real words Hani wanted to hear.

“Don't say that.” Jaelani.

“I don't want us to break up contact. Well, even if only.. can.. chat via chat.” Jaelani continued blushing.

Deg deg deg deg.

Hani's heart is pounding. Seeing Jaelani blush made her misbehave. Shameful, unclear smile, uncertain eye direction in any direction even though glanced at Jaelani. It's so incredibly awkward. But it's pleasing.

For a moment the atmosphere froze. Time seems to stop. So quiet, even the sound of the wind blowing from the outside coming inside was heard so loud.

Sreth!

Suddenly Jaelani's glass shifted to break the silence. Jaelani who was shy became tense because she saw the incident. Hani stared intently behind Jaelani. Hani saw Kiki staring at him with her flat, cold face. Hani knows what Kiki wants.

“Iya okay, so can you help me?” Hani says spontaneously.

“Iya.” Jaelani answered without hesitation.

They agreed while shaking hands.

“So when can anter? Oh yeah, Adit's brother's in the hospital. We look at ya. You also know Adit.” Hani said casually.

Instantly Jaelani's mood dropped again. It was clearly a disappointed expression on Jaelani's face. Hani who realized that was quite surprised and delighted. Instantly crossed the idea of jail in the mind of Hani. He also wanted to learn a little, how Jaelani felt to Hani.

“Can yes. I also miss Adit's brother has not seen him for a long time. I usually meet.”

Jaelani's eyes are getting lazy. His face is getting sour. His lips are getting more and more manyun. And Hani was getting more and more flowery because of Jaelani's pouting face. Hani is now guessing at Jaelani's feelings. He thinks Jaelani has the same taste as him.

“Iya.” Jaelani replied coldly.

“OK. Later on again yah.” Said Hani while holding his smile.

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