Married to a Big Boss
Bayu feeling

"Stop this! You exploit my weakness. You know that I can't openly express my feelings" Bayu said.

"Masa? Aren't you always open with your feelings for Caca? When apologizing to me, you are very difficult, the turn to apologize to Caca is very easy like no burden!" Ica without feeling guilty.

Ica took her breath because her voice had been dropped to the highest point of her tone. That way, he can talk again with Bayu with a normal tone of speech.

"I want honesty, Mom. Why is answering that so hard? I have revealed all my feelings just now, now you do not even want to replace. Since when have you been so unfair? Oiya, I forgot, from the beginning you were not fair. Since this matchmaking was determined, you only attach importance to your profits, right? Since then, there has been no justice for me, no justice in your heart."

"If so, why did you accept this match? Raisa, you want me to say that, right? Unfortunately I won't say that seriously. Marrying you is not something I regret. When you suddenly changed your faith to accept the match, I was surprised and happy. There is no desire to end this marriage. I'm really grateful this marriage happened."

Ica collapses its defenses. His tears that he had been holding since, now came down to wet his cheeks.

"If you can say that, why can't you say you love me, Mom? You cheated!" say Ica as you please. While he could not argue with Bayu because he was touched by Bayu's words that turned out not to regret this marriage happened.

"What's wrong with my honesty? I am not cheating. It is so."

Ica tried to wipe away her tears and calm herself down. He hated this whiny self.

"If you can't answer using a sentence, I want you to answer Ica's questions honestly. Just say 'yes' or 'no' as an answer. I have to know and make sure the truth" challenged Ica.

"Okay, if that calms you down a little. I'll tell you the truth" thank Bayu.

Before starting, Ica took a deep breath first. "Mas Bayu regrets marrying me?"

"No." Okay, Ica made sure of that.

"You often pay little attention to me. There is an attitude of yours that is also gentle to me. Is it all just pity and you're doing it to act like a husband?"

"No."

"So, your concern and your gentle attitude towards me is sincere, Mas?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Okay, if that's the case, does that sincerity mean you have a taste for me?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Is there love in your heart for me, Mom?" tanya Ica hesitated. He was not ready to hear the answer. Bayu is also seen buying time to answer it, unlike previous questions that he quickly answered.

"No," Bayu replied lowering his gaze. After saying that Bayu has no regrets because this marriage happened, he instead claimed there is no love for Ica. Actually Ica already knew from the beginning, there should be no need to confirm it again. But his little heart still wished there was that feeling for Ica. Now he really collapsed because Bayu admitted it.

Hix... Hiiks.., tears are pouring back after it had subsided. Before Bayu made sure there was a feeling for Ica, the turn was asked the feeling was love or not, he instead replied no. Ica is being played. Ica is disappointed, but she wants to resume this game, her initial goal has not been met, she will continue to ask Bayu even though with as much as she wants.

"Do you love someone else now?" asked Ica bravely despite any reluctance.

"Yes." Yeah." Honesty for honesty has been revealed. Bayu looked listless answering Ica's question this time. Because he also cursed himself, married but instead loved another woman who was not his wife.

"If so, what woman is Caca, Mas? The figure of your first love, your business partner, and your biggest reason for using our matchmaking as an escape?" Ica looked angry this time.

"Yes." Yeah." Ica's tears are getting worse. He cannot control his feelings. He knew it before. However, when Bayu himself confessed, it felt so slicing the heart. He stopped this game of honesty, because he had got the goal he wanted. Ica painstakingly grabbed a drink that was already on her nightstand to wet her dry throat because of the talk and felt swollen due to the cries that continued to run rampant. Not to forget also he beristighfar and ask that his tongue be used to say good and necessary words.

Ten minutes, fifteen minutes, thirty minutes. Ica still can't calm down. Her tears continued to flow, but she was no longer crying. The accompanying sighs also tormented him.

For two hours they sat in the same position. At the hour that they should have slept, Ica wanted to end it before the day ended without a solution. He also began to calm down even though every bittersweet thing was his eyes instantly soothing tears.

"Now I want to make sure. You said that you also felt happy when I suddenly changed my faith to accept the match. But, what does that mean? Is that how your initial intention of escaping heartache with Caca worked? You have also said that accepting matchmaking is the best and profitable option. What is this, Mas? In that case, there is nothing more to defend. Forget this yes no game. My heart has been broken to pieces knowing your true feelings."

"I don't know where you're from about the escape."

"I eavesdropped on the conversation you and Dirga had, in the office parking lot back then. And before that, when Dirga visited home without manners. After hooking everything up, so it makes sense, yes, Mas. I doubt if you don't regret this marriage that happened, you actually regret it, right? You cannot escape this bond because you are in a hurry to agree to this matchmaking as an escape, when in fact you also want to ask Caca once again and make her a wife."

"Your words are not entirely true!"

"But there's nothing wrong, right? This half-truth is enough to prove how immoral you are. Don't make this marriage a game, Mom. You think bringing religion back then is not a sin? You remember, right, the way you convinced me to accept this match, you hooked up religion! You used religion to make me touched and think back to accepting that match. But at that time I was too naive, despite knowing that it was your ability to talk and negotiate, I was blinded with admiration and slowly changed my mind."

"Divorce is hated by God. You also said yourself, you started to grow a sense of love because you used to be with me. Maybe I can too. Rather than ending, it is better to fix it. It's not too late. I also met Caca and ended our contact last night. The meeting, a meeting aimed at ending my association with Caca. I also gave the business to Caca so that there was no reason for us to meet or even connect. I began to realize, what I did all this time related to Caca is a sin, and I have long wanted to end. And just last night, it was all over. I'm telling the truth, and if you want, you can ask the person directly. So, do not decide in a hurry. I also want a marriage that is only one time in a lifetime. I can fix it" said Bayu who is now steady staring at Ica. Then Ica, he did not want to be fooled again by the way Bayu negotiated.

"Repair will never be the same again, Mom. Like broken glass, when all the pieces are put together again, the glass is not perfectly intact because the marks of cracks and scratches will never disappear, imprinting. That's what it's like if this relationship is fixed."

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