Marrying My Sister-in-law
Go Not Back

The beautiful face of Alexa who is now 11 years old looks sad. He knew his mother had a dangerous disease. During this time Finly kept up with his pain tight but eventually he gave up too. Finly told Alexa yesterday.

The conversation came back yesterday when his mother just finished putting 3-year-old Felicia to sleep.

"Eca, I'm sure that Eca has understood that human life will not always exist in this world. We'll all die in the time God sets."

Alexa looked at her mother. "Eca knows, ma. Surely if it comes, it will be very sad to part with our beloved prang."

Finly smile. For one month he felt that his condition was getting worse. Some time ago, Juan brought him to France for treatment. But the cancer that has entered the final stage can no longer be cured.

"Eca, mom's sick."

"Eca knows, ma"

"Mama is happy because Eca already knows and I hope Eca will understand that this pain can not be cured again. Mama's probably gonna go see Eca and Felicia. But Eca, don't be sad? Eca has to be strong in order to take care of Felicia. If Felicia was an adult, would Eca tell her about her mother? But don't tell me that you used to leave Eca with Giani's aunt?"

Alexa's tears fall. He looked at the beautiful face of his mother who now looked pale and thin. "Eca will tell you that mom is the best mom in the whole world. Felicia will love mama even though mama.mama."

Finly's pale face smiled. "If you leave, Eca can cry. But not for long. Eca must be strong for Juan and Felicia. Eca wants to promise?"

Alexa nodded. "Mama, would if you died, Eca would meet you again?"

"Of course baby. We will meet in heaven, Lord. Mama's body may be invisible, but she will live on in Eca's heart."

Alexa hugged her mother while crying. The beautiful girl knew soon she would lose her mother.

Juan who peeked out from behind the door held tightness in his heart. However, he has not lost the first love of his life. But Juan since marrying Finly, Juan already knows that this day will certainly come also because the disease suffered by Finly has entered the final stage.

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From the room divider, Alexa looked back at her mother. Her mother's body looked helpless with some medical instruments attached to her body.

"Alexa darling.....!"

Alexa looked up to hear the call. He immediately ran and hugged Giani who came with Jeronimo.

"Auntie....!" Alexa immediately hugged Giani with tears of sadness.

"Darling, you're patient. Eca still remembers what aunt said?"

"Yes. Everyone will die. But does mom have to die now?"

Giani crouches to keep his height level with Alexa. Slowly Giani wiped away Alexa's tears. "We don't know, baby. If God is going to call you, it's time for you to come."

Alexa's tears fall. He hugged Giani tightly.

Giani could not hold back his tears. He could only rub Alexa's head to give the little girl peace.

Joana and Aldo arrive at the hospital. They came home to take their son first and immediately came to the hospital.

"Where's Juan papi, son?" Ask Joana.

"The fire is still in the doctor's room with Oma Sinta and Opa Denny." Said Alexa who is now in the arms of his father.

Soon, Juan, Sinta and Denny leave the doctor's office. Mama Sinta's eyes look moist showing that she's been crying too much.

"Ma, what's the doctor saying?" Ask Jeronimo.

Mama just shook her head. He could not talk to make Denny immediately embrace his wife.

"The spinal cord surgery Finly performed years ago, didn't change him much. Since a month ago, Finly's condition has actually been severe but Finly hid it from us. The doctor said there was nothing more we could do. Chemotherapy can no longer be done. We just have to wait." Juan said with a very sad face.

All who stood in front of the ICCU room could only bow weakly to Juan's explanation.

A nurse came out. "Mrs Finly wants to talk to Mr. Jero and Ms. Giani."

Jero and Giani came in after wearing green clothes, wearing masks and hand shirts.

Finly who was lying weak immediately smiled when he saw Jero and Giani entering.

"Thank you for coming!" Finly said while fixing the oxygen hose.

"Sister.....!" Giani tried to hold back his tears, but when he saw Finly's thin and pale face, she couldn't hold back her tears.

Finly reached out his hand, asking Giani and Jero to come closer because Finly's voice was very weak.

"Gi, thank you for marrying Jero and making him fall in love with you. Because in that way, God gave me the opportunity to repent and enjoy happiness with Juan." Finly stopped the sentence. He took a deep breath several times.

"Sister, you better take a break. Don't talk too much." Giani.

Finly shakes. "I have to say this. I hope, if I'm gone, you'll keep Alexa and Felicia."

"We'll do it, brother."

Finly smile. "Jero, you've forgiven me, haven't you? I dragged you a lot in sin."

Then, it was Joana and Aldo's turn to come in.

"Mas, I'm sorry I hurt so much while we were married. I'm so ashamed to remember everything I did to you."

Aldo touched Finly's hand. "Don't remember the past, Fin. After all, you've given me happiness while pregnant and giving birth to Alexa. I never regretted ever marrying you."

Finly's tears are flowing. He nodded. Then his eyes turned to Joana. "Thank you Joana for loving Alexa sincerely. Thank you for giving Aldo my love. I pray that you two be happy until death do you part."

Aldo felt his heart ache. After all, he once loved Finly very much. Seeing Finly on the verge of death, Aldo felt sad. Especially imagine that Alexa would lose her mother.

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Finly's hand caressed Juan's face very weakly. Juan took his wife's hand and gripped her tightly.

"Juan, you should marry again if I'm gone. Look for women who love Alexa and Felicia. You can't get lost in grief when I'm gone. "

Juan did not answer. He just gently tucked Finly's hand. Mom Sinta and Papa Denny were standing on the opposite side to Juan. Alexa sits at the feet of her mother.

Finly apologized to Sinta and Denny. He felt relieved, his heart had told him everything.

The four of them don't want to move from Finly's side. Dion and Clara just got home. So also with Jero, Giani, Aldo and Joana have returned to their respective homes. Juan brought Felicia. The little boy barely hugged his mother. He even fell asleep next to Finly. The nanny took Felicia home.

"Dw.....!" Call Finly slowly.

Alexa put her face closer to her mother. Finly whispered something that made Alexa nod. "Eca promise, ma." Said Alexa with a forced smile.

Finly took a deep breath. "I'm sleepy."

"Sleep, baby." Juan said then stroked Finly's head.

Slowly closed his eyes. It looks so peaceful. There was a smile on his face. Until finally, Juan felt that Finly's hand grip weakened, the sound of a heart detector was heard a long beep tone and a straight line was seen on the monitor.

Mama Sinta immediately hugged Papa Denny with her deep cry.

While Juan looked at Finly with tears that had flooded his cheeks. "Good way, my dear. You will always live in my heart."

"Mrs....!" alexa shouted and hugged Finly's body which was lying stiff.

*******

The sky of Jakarta in the afternoon was cloudy. At a fancy funeral complex, people have just disbanded after Finly's funeral is over.

Still standing around the tomb, Juan was holding Felicia. The little boy did not really understand what was going on yet he looked sad. His eyes never loose on the 20R photo placed in front of the headstone.

"Mr.....! Mama...!"'s search....!" that's what Felicia always mentioned.

Alexa was still crouching in front of the tomb. His hands occasionally wiped his tears. "Ma, Eca promised never to cry again after today. But if Eca misses mom, can she occasionally cry? But Eca promised not to cry in front of Felicia."

Giani and Joana's tears flowed back. Both women who love Alexa feel the pain of Alexa's heart. For 4 years, Finly has made amends for his mistakes, often ignoring Alexa when he was a child. Finly manages to cultivate a great love in Alexa's heart.

*Go in peace, brother. I will never ignore Alexa. Batin Giani's.

Go in peace, Finly. Alexa and Felicia will never lose my affection. Inner Joana in Aldo's arms.

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A week has passed.....

"Juan, Finly asked me to give you the vacant land next to my house for you to build a house there. Finly knows that Alexa can't be away from you and me. Please, don't refuse." Aldo said as he and Joana met Juan this afternoon.

Juan took a deep breath. "He even prepared everything. She is a wonderful woman."

"So, papi Juan wants to live near papa Aldo's house right? That Eca and Felicia would never part. Eca promised me to take care of Felicia." Said Alexa.

"Yes, son. We're gonna build a house next to Daddy Aldo's." Juan said as he looked at the smile on Alexa's face.

Alexa smile. He looked at the picture of his mother in the living room. Ma, calm down there, okay? Eca will fulfill everything that Eca has promised mama. Eca will find it.

Hiks....hiks...Will I make Finly die?

But the reality is that people who get stage 4 cancer, rarely anyone recover, right guys?

Finly was happy even though only 4 years with Finly.

Then Juan how dong? Juan was not happy?

Alexa will find happiness for Juan. With the help of her mother Bulenya and aunt Giani who are equally astute. Wanna know???

There will be a special part for the cool widower Juan who has done good by marrying a sick Finly.

Keep supporting mom, right????