Martial World's
Ch 1938B - Living Without Regrets
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The two men were silent for a long time.
Then, Lin Ming looked at Zhu Yan and asked, This “Nation has fallen, so why are you still loyal to the old dynasty? You should know that once the fate of the dynasty has ended, wanting to revive it is a very difficult matter. ”
Lin Ming felt sad for Zhu Yan. Since ancient times, once an old dynasty was destroyed and replaced, it rarely managed to revive. Even if they somehow managed to build up some sort of semblance of political power, they would last at most 10-20 years while enduring in a miserable country.
Zhu Yan's future was uncertain and dangerous. Even if he tried his best until his last heartbeat, he might not be able to produce any results.
Zhu Yan was silent. He saw the sky. His old eyes seemed to glow with a feeling of loss, as if he was recalling the days that had passed.
Slowly, he said, “I'm loyal to the previous emperor because of!
“My family name was originally Zhu. More than 100 years ago .. My family prospered and my aunt was an imperial consort. My way of life was to help the prince usurp the throne, where he would then appoint me to a high position in court and where I would enjoy great wealth and wealth.
“I could have been called young and talented. But it is because of this that I am stubborn and unruly, reckless with my actions. And because of who I am, I made a mistake .. I never thought that this little problem that wasn't in my mind would actually turn my life upside down. My life, from the highest peak, fell to the lowest abyss …
“I'm defeated. Under everyone's gaze, I lost in a fair fight. And, my opponent is much younger than me.
“My woman left me, but it was not because she left me, but because I forced her to leave. At that time I had no choice but to do that.
“After that one battle, I was seriously injured. But before I could recover, I was expelled from my family and the patriarch openly cut all ties with me. I was no longer able to take the name Zhu and even the prince considered me like a living plague, fearing that I would negatively impact his great cause.
"Alone, without any injuries except mine, I left my family and my master and began to explore the world …
“My future is just a gloomy darkness. I could see the changes and changes of the human heart and at that moment my life was without rays of hope. But, I don't want to. My son has a heart higher than heaven. I think the world is unfair to me! I hardened my resolve to break into the Xiantian realm and make everyone who doubted and betrayed me know that they were wrong.
“I want to prove to myself that I do not need to rely on my family or others, that I can fight through my own life …
“I want to make a name for myself and return to my homeland with wealth and glory. I want my family to know how stupid they are for ignoring me. ”
As Zhu Yan spoke, he looked shivering. He found it hard to maintain his composure. He took a bottle of wine from his waist and started drinking it.
He rarely mentioned these past events to anyone.
“After that, for decades, I had countless hardships. I experienced the warmth and cold of man. I understand a hundred changes of the human heart. I work as a stableman, a soldier, an assassin, a soldier, and more. Without the protection and protection of my family, I could only rely on myself to develop a martial path and I was unable to use any resources.
“For resources, I risked my life many times to get it. I wanted to soar into the sky with a single step, but only then did I realize the truth. Reality, far .. too brutal. The young me was not strong at all. The people I fought with were far, far stronger than me, and there was a never-ending ocean.
“This kind of competition cannot even be described as tragic. Loss means death!
“Some times when I was fighting for lucky chances, I received a lot of injuries. However, as I did not have good medicines to recover my body, the hidden wounds within me started to pile up.
“Thus, my wounds became heavier and my body condition became worse. As I got older, my chances of getting into the Xiantian realm became increasingly uncertain …
“Then, I accidentally learned that my opponent had reached a very high height. He entered the four heavenly Kingdoms and even broke through the void with his martial path, rising into the starry sky.
“But to me, let alone the Xiantian realm, even breaking through to the Houtian realm was difficult. The difference between the two of us is greater than heaven and earth!
“Your idealistic dream may seem beautiful, but reality is cruel. I finally realized that I was too naive. With my heart higher than heaven, I am sure that I will have tremendous success in life. I thought I could go home, famous and famous, and slap the faces of everyone who talks bad about me. But actually, I failed to achieve all that …
“Then I understood that there were too many people who were just like me. They all thought they were different, unique existences in this world. Everyone dreams of achieving their desires, but we are.
“I finally have to accept the predetermined path of destiny for me and wake up from the beautiful dream I have .. because, I am ... no longer young …
“In those days, even though I experienced countless tribulations, these tribulations slowly gnawed at my ends and corners, causing my character to change and become very different from what I used to be …
“I started learning how to hold back, learned to think deeply about my actions and their consequences, learned to accept reality for what it is, learned to be grateful …
"So ..even if the fate of the old dynasty has run out, I will still fight for it. The reason I did this was not to restore the old dynasty. I no longer desire glory or riches, and only do what I do for peace of mind once I die … "
As Zhu Yan spoke to here, his old eyes were already wet with tears. He can no longer speak.
He drank deeply and also gave his wine pot to Lin Ming.
Lin Ming felt something stirring deep in his heart. He brought the pot of wine to his lips and started pouring the wine down his throat.
Warm wine, simple sheepskin covering, wind fluttering, boundless desert …
And two people who have known each other and fought each other. Although their lives had taken very different paths, at this point they were two people with similar moods, seemingly watching the horizon fade away …
This was a scene that could not be described with words.
Somewhere, somehow, there seemed to be some inexplicable karmic cycle that brought Lin Ming and Zhu Yan, people from two completely different worlds, back together.
Men do not cry easily, but it is because they have not reached the source of grief. Lin Ming did not know what feelings he had in his heart. He stood up, silent, welcoming the strong wind.
Whether it was humans or Empyreans and True Immortals who stood above everything, everyone had their own suffering, their own bitterness.
Zhu Yan's life had also experienced up and down turbulence. Perhaps his experience might not be worth mentioning to those who came from a higher realm. In comparison, Lin Ming's experience was of great things relating to the sustainability of the existence of the heavenly Realm.
Between the two, there must be a difference.
But in Lin Ming's eyes, people might be divided into the weak and the strong, but when it came to self-suffering, there was no difference.
The pain in Zhu Yan's heart when he faced his tribulation was probably no less than his.
Zhu Yan's life, Lin Ming's life, were both the same.
From this meaning, Lin Ming was also an ordinary human.
Zhu Yan had experienced the ups and downs of mortal life. He dreamed and hoped that he would rise in the future and fight for it, doing everything in his power to achieve it, but in the end.
Despite the failure, he clearly recognized himself and acknowledged his own fate. He found himself and changed himself, found a new faith and fought for it.
What about Lin Ming?
Without seeking riches and glory, seek only peace of mind after death.
Lin Ming silently considered these words. He drank more wine.
Right now, he was desperate more than Zhu Yan in the past. Even though Zhu Yan had lost everything, he was still young and had a life in front of him to continue fighting for the future.
But for himself, he wouldn't even have his life …
He wanted to fight, but there was nowhere to fight.
But Lin Ming was unwilling to give up. Even if he died, he still wanted peace.
Without asking to reverse his destiny, he would only ask to live a life without regret.
He ... can die because he has lost his soul power. . .
But ...he couldn't allow himself to be defeated just because he lost his soul force …
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