METHANOIA
A Secret

Blank.

Sasha's treatment room, Patra's fiance is empty. The lab was good and he was allowed to go home. And, this reality made Zeline feel quite satisfied. Because today she's on duty in the in-patient treatment room, Shapirre. This 1st class patient care room and VIP RS.

Zeline breathed a sigh of relief but was also slightly riled up. He looked back at his phone screen. The message to the name of the Sword Leaf was indeed quiet. His last message was not answered and was not even read! Goddamnit! Zeline snorted annoyedly. So great, do you have a fiancee? The heat! On the other hand, there was a message from Reksa saying he could not pick her up from practice. He still has to complete a special task from Mr. Reyhan.

What other genius child's enjoyment is a mutual lie? He should even be doing an internship, but he gets a special discount. He also often misses certain materials because Mr. Reyhan busies him with his laboratory research. Surprisingly, Reksa remains a medical student with fantastic grades. The test material is almost perfect. Practice exams? It's really good. Zeline recalled that when she had to split a human doll for surgical practice, Mutual could perfectly do heacting (Suturing torn skin), while Zeline, who could tie a thread without a single trace, was already grateful. Never mind, in essence Mutual who seemed busy with Mr. Reyhan and Helena, he still showed his cleverness in any lesson. Material or practice. He has been a genius since Junior High.

And oddly enough, why did Zeline go to medical school like Reksa? Zeline was silent for a moment. Ah, he remembered..he once harbored a special feeling on Muta! Damnit damnit! Zeline almost forgot that she was the first one who ever had a crush on Reksa. To the extent that he followed in Mutual's footsteps to college in medicine.

"Tsk. Good thing Reksa doesn't know that I ever had a crush on him. Can ge-er him. And me? I can be ashamed of you." said Zeline, hitting her head with a small ballpoint pen.

Zeline was silent again. He stopped liking Reksa since he was selected as assistant lecturer Mr. Reyhan. He was busy and so close to Helena. She was jealous and made him determined to stop liking Mutual. Eh, instead stuck with complicated feelings towards the sword leaf.

Zeline distracts him, saving the phone back into his suit pocket when the nurses are back after the action.

"Eh, morning doctor.." said a nurse named Naina.

Zeline smiled, "Morning.today I practice here. Replacing doctor Jena for visitation to the patient."

"Oh.good doctor. Want to go visit?" ask Naina.

"Still read the status first. Learn patient data first. The mother can continue her activities first, only." said Zeline while opening and reading a patient status named Mahardika.

"Ready, doc."

The sisters were busy with their respective activities while Zeline was still reading through the status of Mahardika patients with a diagnosis of CKD or acute kidney failure. Zeline was immersed in her focus on reading the status of the patient when Naina's sister interjected a sentence that stunned Zeline.

"Miss Sasha's patient yesterday, beautiful huh? Where is his fiancee handsome." said Naina.

"Beautiful. but with the diagnosis of Tentamen Suicide, make a little horrified.." said Sister Lina.

"Eh yes... Why did doctor Jena change the diagnosis for Sasha from Tentamen Suicide to a diagnosis of anemia, anyway?" ask sister Naina.

"You're new here. Miss Sasha was an old patient here. His grandmother, is one of the largest shareholders in this RS. So, you could say Miss Sasha is a special patient. He has long suffered from Anxiety and PTSD." said Sister Lina.

"I want, when I was new here. about three years ago, Miss Sasha was also in treatment. She almost killed herself by slashing her hands." said another sister, Sister Kia.

"Wait a minute. His wrists are given a silk cloth tied to a kayak again with a bracelet." said Naina.

"To cover the many incision wounds there" said Sister Lina.

Zeline, who had been eavesdropping on three sisters, suddenly could not focus on her patient status. She may look down on the status of the patient, but her two sense of hearing, focus on the three sisters. Zeline also remembered how Patra could know about the Suicide Tentamen that became the material of their duty. It was because her fiance was suffering from the same mental illness. Is that what makes Patra so hard and cold?

"Initially... Miss Sasha's father cheated. This made him have a big fight with Miss Sasha while driving the car. Which eventually, caused an accident and Miss Sasha's father died. Ms. Sasha was in a coma for three months before coming to a hysterical state. From that moment on, she started to get traumatized and suddenly wanted to kill herself" said Sister Lina.

"And, Patra's mas friend of his little miss Sasha, is a loved one of Miss Sasha. Since realizing it, in the mind of Miss Sasha, mas Patra is her fiance. He became possessive. And somehow the story goes, anyway they are actually fiancee." continued Sister Lina.

"And, it's actually been a while since Miss Sasha was treated for her suicide attempt. Miss Sasha has started to improve since her fiance. But why did he go back to killing himself, huh?" ask sister Kia.

"It seems that we are fighting again ama mas Patra." said Sister Lina.

"It's natural that Miss Sasha is possessive." said Sister Lina.

"But, most patients with psychiatric illnesses, must have a possessive side to their loved ones" Naina said.

"I'm sure, mas Patra is actually tired so his fiancee Miss Sasha. Maybe, that's what makes Miss Sasha so frantic again." examined Sister Lina.

"A drama story that looks like a soap opera, no? In fact, actually mas Patra can only reject the idea of this fiancee. But, he still wanted to accept this fiancee. Very good of course mas Patra" said sister Naina.

"Hmm. yeah, that's it. That's their business. We never knew their journey until we finally decided to get engaged. We don't know how hard their mental struggles were at this point. We only know from the outside, we do not have the right to 'judge' their story. It is possible, Patra mas like that with Miss Sasha. "cloak sister Kia.

"Ughhh. has been handsome, well, responsible. Where so sweetttttt again. ." said Naina.

Unknowingly, Zeline's hand shook to hear the whole story that was being made up by the sisters in the nurse's room. He who is new to Patra, is presented with an extraordinary reality. A secret that one would probably never know if not from gossip like this.

Zeline took a deep breath. He finally found out, why Patra could agree with that about Tentamen Suicide. He finally found out why Patra was so cold. She was protecting herself and protecting her fiance mentally. Zeline clutched tightly onto the bolpoint in her hand. Whether he is living what kind of destiny to be trapped with his feelings for a new figure named Patra.

-oOo

The rain fell quite heavily, making Zeline can only sit in the waiting room of the RS lobby. He sighed long. The money is mediocre so it is impossible to book a taxi. Her mother's money was used up for her ponya-foya at the beginning of last month. Zeline could only sigh in annoyance, fooling her extravagant behavior. He's getting into trouble when it's so critical. So, Zeline could only support her resigned chin while staring at the heavy rain out there.

Before long, a hot cup of coffee with smoke billowing in was pushed towards him. Zeline looked at the hot coffee and looked up. She's stunned.

"Patra.." - He looked at the figure of Patra already sitting in front of him, thrusting a glass of hot coffee at him.

-oOo

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