My Cruel Little Empress
Chapter 29

The day has gone up in the evening, soon dark will greet the sky of the Zhang kingdom which is currently decorated with red orange-red scratches - berahan. Right now I was enjoying the twilight sky on the back porch of Shan's pavilion. A small table filled with snacks and a set of poci and tea cups accompanied me to see the sunset of the sun counting the minutes.

It should have been after coming home from the secret meeting I had with the emperor's father and crown prince Liang, I then freely thought about what gifts I would give to the empress mother after my advice was well received by the emperor's father and crown prince Liang who now began to make their gifts.

Before we disbanded, crown prince Liang had decided to give the empress Mother a painting she would paint herself, while the emperor's father will give the Empress Mother a calligraphy containing poetry that will be the emperor's father strung wholeheartedly and will also give jewelry of his own design. Neither the emperor's father nor the crown prince Liang had thought of even starting to work on making their gifts, whereas I was still thinking of other memorable gifts for the empress' mother.

Everyone will definitely give empress Yin Yin's mother a gift of cloth, coats and jewelry. As for my memory Mei Rong will give a dance performance that makes her the center of attention and gets the praise of many people.

I remember now that I was so eager to get the same praise as him and then came to give a spectacle that in the end made the Zhang royal family must get ridicule from people because I danced too with origin, even my extremely menorizing appearance was clearly a huge and humiliating blow to Zhang's kingdom back then.

Not the compliments I expected, I then only got ridicule and ridicule from the invited guests who fearlessly brightly - the light of humiliating me in front of my royal family and in front of the representatives of the Han kingdom who attended the party empress Yin Yin's celebration.

I'm sighing. At that time I gave Empress Mother Yin Yin the worst and most meaningful gift because the incident was difficult to forget and even continued to be a subject of ridicule and ridicule - the insults of the residents of the Zhang kingdom. It managed to make me shut myself up because of shame, even to fall ill because of ignoring my meal hours.

It was obviously a memory of a lot of bad memories that I didn't want to repeat for the second time. On this occasion of my life I will use it to improve myself, to atone for my mistakes and sins, and to clear my name from the evil that I created in the memory of the residents of the capital Zhang and also the residents of the kingdom Zhang.

"Your highness princess.."

The call of a 25-year-old young eunuch jolted me from daydreaming. I quickly turned to look at the young eunuch and asked "What's wrong?" much

"In answer to your highness, your highness the empress sent a tailor for you" said the young eunuch who then made me frown.

"Why did the empress' mother send me a tailor?" ask me again

"Your Majesty thinks you want to sew new clothes for you to wear at the royal consort's glorious birthday party" she explained, saying, "but I don't need new clothes, I still have a lot of new clothes I haven't worn" I said

"Then should this eunuch ask the tailor to go home?" ask the eunuch

I then thought for a moment, until an idea of a gift I would give to Empress Dowager Yin Yin suddenly appeared. I said "no need, I'm going to meet the tailor to do business" I said, moving away from my seat.

The eunuch then lowered his head as I passed by, not long after he followed me with the eunuchs and other ladies-in-waiting. I passed through the corridor beside the Shan pavilium as I entered through the side door facing the small garden and fish pond. To get to the back porch, I always use the side door on the left side of the Shan pavilion so as not to walk around so far when I go through the front door.

I had just entered through the side door on the side of Shan's pavilions which directly connected me to the middle room that was in front of my bedroom door. The middle room only contains a round table and chairs lined up in the middle of the room. In each corner of the middle room there are bookshelves and cabinets that contain various ceramic decorations.

The sound of screaming announcements about my arrival jolted me from the daydream as well as jolting a 35-year-old woman who was sitting waiting for him while enjoying tea and snacks given by the servants to accompany the tailor.

I immediately asked him to get up and sit back in the chair and accompany me who had just sat in one of the chairs in the middle of the middle of the room. At first the tailor who was originally in my shadow was probably an old woman then subtly refused and said.

"This lowly servant does not dare" he refused

I sighed and gnawed my forehead which was beginning to throb, I knew the reason why the tailor did not want to sit and accompany me here, was because my status and my higher position frightened him. Let alone having the intention to sit together, imagining the punishment he would receive first erasing his intentions and desires.

Besides, there are rumors about my ugliness that like to play tricks on those below me. Besides my name is so bad about being known to the residents of the royal capital Zhang because of my stupidity, my makeup, my way of dressing, and my temperament being so bad. I am also known as a cruel and oppressive princess. I don't know how many Surahs have been victims of my cruelty, I don't know how many screams and pleas for mercy they made, I used to be so proud and cold-hearted that I didn't want to hear the heartbreaking screams of the people I had tortured.

"All right" I said after clearing my mind of my mass memories

"If the tailor's aunt doesn't want to be with me, at least stand closer to me" asked me who hesitantly obeyed the seamstress.

When I felt that her figure was not far from me, I changed my sitting position sideways so that I could look at the seamstress freely.

"Auntie, I know you're afraid of me. Perhaps because I am famous for my ugly name and coupled with bad rumors that are getting worse and making the views of everyone in Zhang's capital wrong about judging me completely" I said "I will not defend myself, I am a sinner who has committed mistakes and abominations. But has not everyone ever done wrong and sin?" tanyaku who answered the nod by the tailor woman however he felt the words of Mu Lan's daughter were not entirely wrong.

"Even though everyone has ever done wrong and sin, there is always a chance not to right wrongs and atone for sins?" I asked again who was back in the nod by the tailor woman.

"Now on this occasion, I am trying to improve myself. I was trying to slowly correct my mistake, clearing my name also atoned for my sin. So I hope auntie no longer needs to worry about me who might be in the shadow of aunt will be bad to you" added me who immediately made the tailor stiffened for a moment because my guess about the target.

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**TBC

Sunday, 7 June 2020**