Mystical Dream Terror (Real Story )
Longs

Three weeks have passed.

Since my meeting with Rey, I've had a slight change in mood.

According to my co-worker friend, I am now more silent and spend more time alone. Not infrequently they get me while pensive and dreamy.

As for my own feelings, I was confused myself. In my mind there's only him, Rey. I'm like an ABG kid who's having a falling out of love at first sight.

From going to bed at night to waking up before dawn prayers, in my mind and in my eyes there was only him.

But I tried to pull over and tried to cast off the shadow. It starts with approaching my husband and children. However, the more I tried to remove the shadow, the stronger it became stuck in my eyes and mind.

I became sensitive, my emotions became unstable. Being irritable and easy to cry even if there is no cause (it is according to those who do not know my mood at that time), and, even if they know and they want to hear my story and explanation maybe they will understand and understand a little. But my lips feel locked tightly, as if what happened to me should not be told to others and I myself should feel and bear it. Even to my own husband, I also prefer to harbor my feelings and what I feel even though it hurts. Maybe some people will say it is wrong, because the function of the household is to fill each other, give, and receive whatever the circumstances. But that didn't apply to me, despite his initial commitment like that. Especially with my condition like this, it even makes me worse. Because he was my husband, who was supposed to help find a way out to solve my problems, turned to blame me and cornered me.

My emotions are unstable. On the one hand there is no motivation from the husband to make me calmer, while on the other hand pressure me in an unusual way.

But as much as possible, the overflow of my emotions I did not spill on my children who were toddlers because they were not the cause of their misabababnya.

I feel so strong to be able to find and meet him. My appetite decreased and disappeared completely. No one can enter my stomach unless he sees his face, hears his voice, or just walks and can see his workplace.

I have congenital heart disease from a small, as well as high stomach acid.

Surprisingly since my meeting with rey for three weeks, there was no feeling to want to relapse or rise my stomach acid, or ordinary stomach ulcers. Though my stomach almost said never filled for three weeks. My weight dropped drastically, for three weeks my weight has dropped by 5 kg. But I didn't realize and never felt anything, other than wanting to find and meet with rey.

Search, search and search.

,,,,,,

I played music, looking for a song that thought it would fit and fit my mood.

Ahai, got a good song. I don't know whose song it is, Diary🤭 Book

Unforgettable

It was written in blue ink

In the diary...

And the next,,,, the,,,

Uh, goosebumps feel. It reminds me of memories from the past. Even though I was confused. Memories of who, for whom?

Missing the past, the past with whom?

It just feels like I want to go back to remembering a past that was never in my heart.

My mind floated again, filling my head. Feeling tired, full, full of memory. I think it's going to explode....

Just one,,,, uh,,,

Right now, I miss you far away. You who are not my husband. A longing that I could not prevent, even though I was prostrating to the Creator. The unfamiliar face was so beautiful to look at, the seductive voice was so melodious, everything was so distracting to my time that I prostrated myself to my Creator.

Unable to be solemn, very disturbing, and strange, I really enjoyed the moment. The moment between solemnity and rey shadow that kept teasing my nerves.

It was not willing that the shadow disappeared even if only for a moment.

I am just a human being, who has never escaped all the errors and sins of sin.

And I wouldn't be a hypocrite if I missed a touch from him who wasn't my husband. Even though I know it's a very big sin.