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Alira pounded her chest hoping that the pain she felt disappeared, the scene had really hurt her heart. Alira wanted to scream as loud as possible, or cry as she could. However, his throat felt dry, his chest was increasingly tight. The man who was her husband made her disappointed.
"Papa," he said in a sob. Alira doesn't know who else to call. Mr. Sadewa is the only person he has.
Oh, if he had a mama who would hold him in his warm arms, let him cry in his arms. Buy it with affection.
Her tears were shed, but she let them go. Alira is tired of her life.
Oh, does love hurt this much? If so Alira doesn't want to feel this. It hurts too much for those who are new to love.
"Papa." The name of the man who is still lying weakly in bed with a syringe stuck in his arm, as well as breathing apparatus installed in both nostrils.
Alira pressed against his chest, trying to neutralize the pain he felt, but could not. The more he tried the more he made his chest tight.
"Alira?" Someone's call made Alira flinch then hurriedly rubbed her cheeks, turning her head.
"Farhan?"
The man smiled then without permission to sit next to Alira who was in the hospital garden. Alira shifted a little so they wouldn't get too close.
"You know what's going on here?" alira asked trying to look okay. He did not want to look sad especially in front of Farhan.
"Why? Can't you?"
"Not that, but ...."
Farhan chuckled at the girl nearby looking confused, very funny and adorable in his opinion.
"No, my mama's a doctor and she works here."
"Oh."
"Hu um."
They were silent, confused as to what to say. Honestly, Farhan was very nervous, his heart was pounding. Ah, just sitting near the person we like has made him so happy how about having it? It's lucky for him if it happens, but baby, it's impossible.
"What are you yourself? Who's sick?"
The young blue girl with the white pasmina did not answer, but turned her eyes straight ahead where there was a husband who was feeding his wife who was sitting in a wheelchair.
Alira imagines if it's her and Gus Irham. Ah, is this too much?
"Al, aren't you pa-pa?"
Alira turned back to look at the man who was waiting for an answer from her before her smile expanded.
"No pa-pa, my dad's sick."
"ill? What pain?"
"The heart is crumpled."
"Oh, where's your husband?"
"Eemm, she ..., ah, so your mom works here?" Alira deliberately switched the conversation, she did not want to discuss her husband now.
Farhan just nodded, they then engaged in chatter. Farhan is good at finding topics until Alira forgets her sadness. Alira only realized when her phone rang and a stiff human name called. Alira did not change the name of her husband's contact at the meeting.
"Cocon't lift? From your husband, huh?"
Alira just smiled awkwardly and then returned to the room where her papa was treated, but before that Alira bought her papa order at the supermarket not far from the hospital.
Just opened the door a welcome probing question. Alira was silent, pretending not to listen. He kept the fruit he bought to the nightstand and sat on the sofa. Mr. Sadewa is still asleep due to the effects of the drugs taken.
Gus Irham. "Mbak Minah with Nurul I told him to go home" he explained without asking. Alira was still indifferent even as if she had not heard anyone talking nearby. Alira is busy playing mobile phone reply messages from Asya. Ah, Alira kangen to her best friend, how many months have they not met? How is that girl now? Alira homesick.
"Al, do you hear me?" Gus Irham began to be impatient because Alira did not consider it.
Called once again his wife's name, Alira was just 'hmm' without switching a bit from the screen in his hand.
Gus Irham took a deep breath, trying to be patient in the face of Alira's sometimes fickle attitude.
Gus Irham then rose to the hall to pray dzuhur because the time has come.
"I want to pray first you don't go anywhere."
"Why do you want to meet a special prayer?" sindir Alira without seeing her husband.
Gus Irham who was about to reach the door turned his head, feeling clueless with his wife's words just now. However, he still chose to leave Alira. He did not want to be late in prayer.
Alira let out a rough breath, then leaned back.
"No, no, not answered? Would you like to see that girl again? Who the hell is he? Her boyfriend? Or his other wife?"
Alira tries to mnepis prejudice against her husband, but the shadow as Gus Irham rubs the girl's head teases her.
Should she ask her husband directly?
Alira felt tired even though today he did nothing, but he felt exhausted. Not physically tired, but mentally. The girl laid her body down and in an instant Alira was already asleep. In her sleep, Alira dreams of meeting her mother. Almira hugged and stroked her head.
"Mama," delirium.
Gus Irham who had just entered gasped and walked over, crouching under his wife.
"Don't stay Al, Mah. Alira wants to be with Mama." Alira subconsciously grabbed Gus Irham's hand and held it as if it was her mother.
Gus Irham just silently let his hand be held by his wife. Looking at the face of Alira long ago, he felt pity. Alira, who was a child, had never felt what it was like to have a mother.
Ah, maybe Alira should be near Umminya to get affection.
Gus Irham took off his jacket and enveloped his wife.
"Don't go!"
Gus Irham paused his intention when he was about to stand up, turning to Alira who was obviously delirious again. A few moments left such circumstances until Gus Irham was absolutely sure Alira had returned to calm.
Gus Irham got up then approached the banker turned out his in-laws had realized. Actually it has been since then and Mr. Sadewa heard his daughter's delusions.
"Actually he was a good boy, only lacking the affection of his mother even though I gave it my all. However, Alira still needs the figure of a mother," said Mr. Sadewa with a sad face. Gus Irham just nodded in agreement.
Doctors treating Mr. Sadewa Kurdi came to check. The charismatic man continued to look at Nadia's doctor without blinking, he felt familiar with her face like he had met, but he forgot where?
"Pak Sadewa must rest a lot, eat enough and remember! The cure is yes, sir!" Doctor Nadia's advice with a friendly smile.
Mr. Sadewa was silent, he was still busy with his thoughts.
"Good Doctor thank you" replied Gus Irham.
Doctor Nadia came out and just as Mr. Sadewa remembered who looked like the beautiful, teary-eyed doctor who had just examined her.
'He ...."
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