
With a smiling face, I sure wanted to convey a feeling that I had been craving for a dozen years.
'That I love you.'
My lips are hard to say that word. I could only shout in my heart so many times that my heart was beating fast like a man running on a 7-round stadium field.
I wanted to cry, but was held back when Kyeri grabbed both hands, then grabbed my shoulders.
"We enjoy this time together, yes, until the time comes" Kyeri said, looking deeply at my face.
Like there was a word he wanted to tell me but in fact those words were buried in the bottom of his heart.
Kyeri bought me enough food, one big plastic with various forms of snacks to my favorite drink.
"You?" I offered a drink to Kyeri.
"No, for you."
"Is this a lot of time for me?" Ask her.
"Yes, dear Nadta, this meal and drink is special for all of you."
"Ish, it's not exciting if this food is not shared, we usually always eat together," I murmured.
"Oh yes, sorry. I forgot that actually we are different directions and not the same as before" I said while bowing my face.
"No need to apologize Nadt, I know this is all sal-" I cut off his words.
"Gak Ke, we are indeed ...." I couldn't continue because I remembered what Teo said two years ago.
Flasback.
Trip Home.
Teo and the mama had a little discussion about Kyeri or better known as Matteo for their circles.
"That was Matteo mah."
"Huh?"
"You said Keri was his name!?" Mamah surprised.
"It was a affectionate call from Nadta and we finally called Matteo by his middle name" Teo explained.
"Oh my goodness, handsome too!"
"Like his father was when he was a teenager."
"Do you know Mr Bram's family clearly?" Tanya Teo was a little curious.
"Yes a little, because Matteo's father used to have a class with mama from Junior High until we went to college."
"But unfortunately, while in college Gerry Bram chatted with seniors and had to be moved to another university" continued mamah Teo explained.
"Oh yes, his grandfather had experienced severe pain and was quite acute until he died at the age of 50 years."
"But mamah forgot what the name of the disease was," said the mama while thinking.
"Is it possible that Kyeri was in the same condition as her grandfather?" Ask Teo.
"Your mother doesn't know for sure. But mama is no stranger to the name of the disease."
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"If not the wrong Lung Cancer!" Continue your speech after 15 minutes of thinking.
"Serius mah, what is the main cause?"
The main cause of lung cancer is usually due to smoking, but there is also another factor: occupational exposure to carcinogenic chemicals.
But there is a possibility of lung cancer because of a previous history of cancer (heredity) and a history of COPD or pulmonary fibrosis.
Lung Cancer Symptoms.
Early symptoms of lung cancer that usually appear with a cough accompanied by chest pain, ripples or phlegm mixed with blood, breathing sounds (wheezing), and weight loss drastically.
Signs of lung cancer can be more severe than the general symptoms, if it has entered a more serious condition. For that do not ignore the symptoms and immediately consult a doctor.
How to Prevent Lung Cancer.
Preventing is better than treating, for it immediately stop smoking and avoid cigarette smoke, especially for passive smokers.
Start diligent exercise regularly as well as the consumption of nutritious and fiber-rich foods. Avoid stress is also important, but do not forget to routinely do medical check-ups.
"If you see Matteo his life is as healthy as that but still exposed to severe disease" said Teo.
"Can you expect to live a long life or not mah?" Teo asked who remembered Nadta.
"Mamah does not know, but we pray that he can be cured with the disease he suffers," replied the mother who knows the essence of the speech of the child.
Flasback.
This made me sad because I realized that Kyeri who was next to me would not live with me forever.
Hiks .. hiks .. hiks ...
"You're evil!" I said while wiping away tears.
"Wicked why?"
Deg .. deg .. deg ....
'Nadta knows?' his inner.
" Why have you never told me? Why didn't you ever say?" My speech.
I can no longer keep all the words of money stored in this recess of my heart. If I let it go, then I won't know the truth.
"Do you know?" Ask Kyeri.
I could only cry while wiping my tears violently, grasping my thighs with my own hands so that I could stop crying.
"Sorry Nadt, I don't want you to be sad like this" he replied to a question that was still in my head.
"Although I know you are not a creature that can be bohogi long and continuously, but there will be a time where I tell everything."
"But why not from the beginning?" Ask me.
Bugh .. bugh ...
I beat up Kyeri's upper arm and said, "Wicked you! You are so evil!" And so it went on that my hand could not beat him anymore.
"I'm sorry Nadt, I love you too much even this affection is more than just a darling. I love you but I can't Nadt."
"I will definitely abuse you and trouble you continuously" Kyeri continued.
"You stupid Ke! Have I helped you all this time? Have I ever helped you in a difficult situation?"
"I've never helped in such a heavy way to even the one with your family you always help my family and you always help me in any case."
"I'm the one who always bothers you Ke, you realize no heck? This way you make me feel useless!"
"I want to help you, I also want us to be difficult together, I also want to pull you like you pull me right down!"
"Because what? I also love you to, I want us to live together until the end."
"I want you and I to see our children running in the field, going up the tree house, swinging and we taking care of our children together."
"But you're lying about something very serious. Even I know from people the next thing."
"Hiks.. hiks ... hicks ..."
"Can I ask God for another chance to live together forever? Because I want it Ke, want it."
Hiks .. hiks .. hiks ...
Drape ...
Suddenly I was hugged by him very tightly, I did not hesitate to return his embrace. Then Kyeri said the same thing.
"I also want to be like that Nadt, but fate cannot be changed. The fate we have passed together will be a good memory for the rest of my life."
"Knowing you is the right path for me to reach life, achieve everything I want."
"Knowing you is the most beautiful thing I will never forget."
"That I am loved by a sincere woman named Nadta Garwita Langsih."
Hiks hyks
How could I not cry so much? If the man who made me fall in love the first time was him, Matteo Kyeri Bram.
"May I hug you a little longer, won't I, Nadt?" Kyeri asked who was still hugging my body.
"By Ke."
"My body fragrance is still the same as it used to be, it hasn't changed and I like it" Kyeri said.
"I like it if you like it" I replied to her statement.
"I love u" the last words Kyeri said to me.
"I love u too."
And shortly after that his body began to tighten towards me, even his hands just slowly detached from my circumference.
In the middle of the beautiful sunset, on this hill, in my arms, is proof that Kyeri has left me for ever.
"Ke?"
"Kyeeri?"
"Kyerii's? Hiks hyks hyks."
"Kyeriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii."
Connect ....