Pickup Transportation
Section 400: Gold Shop 30
“Why are we here?” The sister asked the sister, because the sister asked the sister to come somewhere.
“This is the hospital, where you were born.” Brother explained.
“Oh yes, I don't know, Mami never told me, but we never come here again after.” The body that the two souls occupied spoke for itself down the hospital hallway.
“When you were born, I did not come, I do not want to even take it, because there are neighbors who say gini, if you were born, Cici is not loved anymore with mami papi, because there are neighbors who say gini, if you are born, Cici is not loved anymore, that's why I don't want to come, because you know, surely you will take everything.”
“I didn't take everything.”
“But in fact, mami and papi are still only two people who have 1 heart only, which is divided in two to give love and affection to us, while porsiimu more.”
“No! we are both dear.” Sister denies.
“Of course you have more, you don't remember, because you're a baby, you can't remember what happened to you. Maybe when you're 5, those memories will be faint. So I also do not remember when the portion was given to me when I was born, the same portion when mami and papi gave to you, his total affection, his complete attention and excessive worry.
All that I do not remember, that the affection they gave excessive, also had been given to me, when I was born until you were born.
Because I was a child, my memory was limited, so what I remember is, the portion of your affection they gave you I didn't get.
All I remember in my childhood memories was, limited affection, divided attention and fading worry. That's what I remember.
And you too, have vague memories, from the age of 5 to the time of your death.
You don't remember that your parents gave you more affection than your brother, who mom and dad thought, I was big enough to understand, but not necessarily.
It cultivates unpleasant feelings for me, childhood wounds that poison the heart, the more days the envy gets bigger, makes a thick liquid in my heart, the liquid makes my heart dark.
I rejected the proposal to share with you, because I felt that you had gotten a much larger share of agn than I did, until I promised, never to let you take anything from me again.
Slowly I became an adult, but there was still that little boy in my soul, a frightened 10-year-old boy no longer dear to me. People think it's easy, people think I'm getting older my mind will open up and my heart will improve.
They're wrong Deck, whether when you fall, then wound, fall again and wound in the same place, the wound gets deeper, falls again and the wound in the same place, he said, the wound is getting deeper. Until the time comes the wound will improve with time, but .. isn't it because of the depth of the wound, it leaves a mark?
Then the scar remained, until it was time you borrowed the white shirt forcibly, not the value of the shirt, not even the shirt, it was worthless, but the way you forced me to take what I had, made me remember the pain of the wound, the wound that was repeatedly in the same place, incised by our parents, the pain of the wound, through favoritism for the reason that you are a child and I am a big one, when my heart and mind remember those things far more than you do, you need attention because of the basic problems, like eating and pooping, being affectionate, you don't understand.
As for me, I am easily hurt, easily hurt and easily embarrassed because I feel unwanted. So when people say you need more affection, it's actually wrong. You need more attention, but I need more affection, because of that fear.
But instead of being embraced I was kicked out of the house.
I didn't want to give up and force you to give me back my shirt, until I chased you out on the street and caused you to die, it wasn't the shirt, it was, but it's because of the self-esteem that I have to give you again. Though in my mind, you took a much larger portion, then why should I lose my self-esteem again?
Do you think your loss didn't hurt me? I was saddened and thought about killing myself many times, but it turned out that I was a coward, I often stood by that roadside, where you finally breathed your last by holding the shirt, he said, I stared at that path, I thought many times about dying like you.
Because I'm sad, I miss you, I miss you so much, I want you to be in my most important moments, even though maybe I have to lose again and again the love of the people around me, he said, but I want to repeat that day, every day, I want you to give up and not take the shirt and understand the pain of that wound you inflicted without even knowing that you were reminding me again of that inner wound.
Forgive me, forgive me for not giving up that time, then this time we will meet someone.”
The herd was seen before them, they were in a dark field, only the illumination was not very visible.
The flock came to the brothers in one body.
“So, what is the decision?” Aditia asked.
Papi was there, he looked calm.
“I will make amends this time, I will give up this time.” Brother said, sister just kept quiet, I don't know what she wanted.
“Mami!” one body with 2 souls ran over to the mother they missed.
“Kids mami.” My mom hugged them.
Brother was also shocked, because all he knew, the herd that was going to meet them, not mami, this was a surprise for the two of them.
“So, who will come home?” Mami asked the body, it still contains 2 souls.
“Cici Mi, Cici who will join mami, sister let here aja, tenenin papi, yes Pi?” The brother said, papi just nodded.
Big brother was really sincere this time, because he wanted to finish his past wounds, it was a pain to have to bear it alone all this time, because when he told me the pain, it was painful, people will say that he is immature, stupid because he can be controlled by the past or even lacks faith in God.
But they don't know how much my brother suffered, no wonder, even recently did you know, there was a teenage boy who committed suicide because he couldn't bear the wounds in his heart.
So look to your right and left, if you see a changed person who has a weak mentality, embrace, embrace and say, the world is not that bad, endure it.
Never say they are weak, they have no faith even stupid. Because not everyone is born with a mentality of steel, your mentality of steel, you are strong, then do you have the right to insult people who are mentally weak, where do you know, you know, maybe you should be able to protect those mentally weak people instead of adding to the wounds they feel.
Brother hugged sister's soul for the last time, brother is ready to come out of his body, brother will go with mami.
Then he came out of his body ....
“Loh! Dik!” Brother was confused, because he did not come out of the body, but already prepared, sister held him and he came out of the body himself.
“You've given me your body all this time, you didn't force me to return this body to you for a week, even though you were whining, Ci. That's enough, I don't want to be you anymore, too hard to be you.
Then I'll go with mami, you'll come with papi.”
“Dik, I really want you to have this body, let me give up this time.”
“You've done it Ci, you've done it, I thank you, because this week you've been my sister, that day, when we went to the playground, that day was the happiest day of my life, I'm with you, my most beloved grandchild.”
Sister ran towards mami, mami then took her and they both prepared for ‘pulang’.
“Hey .. I know you're not Mami. But, thank you yes, I do miss him.” Sister said to her mom, her mom smiled and they were both finally ready for ‘home’.
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AT THAT TIME, BEFORE THE SISTER ENTERED THE BODY OF THE BROTHER.
“So gini the plan, we'll pretend not to know if the sister goes into the body of the brother, it must happen, because surely that's what the sister wants." Alisha put forward her idea,
"Trus?" Hartino asked.
"Truss ...."
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Author's Note :
Patience, tomorrow the explanation.
Thanks everyone.