Realize my love
part 3
POV Dusk
How happy I would be if I could say what has been in my heart for you, Radika, I admit there would be no friendship between a man and a woman who are pure friends only, one of them must feel love or maybe if they do not want to say love hmmm like a fear of losing each other.
I'm Sandhya Arunika the daughter of the owner of one of the top companies in S city, Sandhya in Sanskrit means new sunsets and Arunika which is taken from Hindi which means red which is why Daddy likes to call me Dusk. Until adulthood I was called Dusk by everyone.
I became friends with Radika who had been my first love since we were in junior high school. The tomboyish me might be one of the factors Radika feels at home with me, actually tomboy is not my original personality. It all started when I saw Radika secretly helping a classmate who was being bullied by a herd of bad kids on the streets. After defeating some of the boys, the gang's friends finally run away because they are afraid of Radika.
Radika gave the girl's bag that had been thrown away by the herd of naughty children. While muttering and half annoyed Radika to the girl.
"so girls don't be weak doang nangis" Radika
Radika left the girl who had succeeded in helping her just passed by.
Many times I helped Radika get the girls she wanted to be her boyfriend, I never refused even though in my heart thrashed not wanting to do that. But it's all for Radika.
Radika does think I'm just a friend in this case I'm the one who is trapped in Radika's love while Radika is not. Whether I was stupid or I loved him too much, I was able to endure all this time harboring my feelings for Radika so that she and I could still be together. Actually her prolema was the same I was afraid that if I was honest with Radika about my feelings she would stay away from me and it would be torturous for me.
For about ten years this feeling was well preserved in the recesses of my heart, I had no intention of saying it at all because in this way I already felt comfortable, as long as Radika stays by my side I will still be able to hold this feeling in order to stay neat in my heart.
Today Radika again gave a code that she wanted to date one of my classmates named Angel, no more jealous vibes in my heart because she felt this way too often, sometimes it only feels painful in my heart when I accidentally see Radika being alone with her boyfriend.
Why don't I just find a girlfriend? That question I also never knew the answer, because maybe my heart was already imprinted on one person namely Radika, the fact that to open and let someone else enter it felt impossible for me.