Removing Commitment
What the hell is you Mega?

"I'm sick, doc?" ask Mega after checking.

"You're under stress and you're having too many thoughts. Are you having a problem?" ask doctor.

Mega's face looks restless. It is undeniable that the marriage of Satrio with the Goddess is soon to dominate the mind and torture the inner.

What the hell is you Mega?

a question he always repeated to scold himself.

What is this feeling?

Why would I not be willing if Satrio married the woman of his choice?

Should I be happy?

What's the matter?

No, I can't still love her.

I already have everything.

Deities.

Rania.

Why did my mind go to that man?

Usually, everything goes normal. I'm not in the fog today.

Mega who walked out of the hospital. Hugging himself with a chaotic mind.

Dert .

Not long after the sound of his phone vibrated. A call from her husband. "Hallo.." answered Mega picked up the phone from Dewa.

"Honey, she said, you went to the hospital? You why? Your pain's getting worse?"

"It's okay. I'm done and about to go home" replied Mega like never before. Sounds weak not passionate. God can feel it, if his wife is not okay.

"You wait there, I'll pick you up. I don't want you to do anything."

"No, I'll just take a taxi online."

"Darling..." The unfinished god spoke. But it was heard the sound of tut tut, the call was deliberately broken by his wife.

The gods can only breathe. The other with Mega. Who continued to massage the two temples alternately because the pulsations were getting more intense.

Mega did not go home. He's back in the blue lake. Stand and walk slowly around the place where Satrio and Dewi embrace. Embedding a ring might be the way Satrio proposed to her woman.

His memory was still fresh on all things and the two names that whispered loudly disturbed the serenity of his soul from yesterday. His sobs are increasingly sounding slashing and bitter. As if not able to see Satrio later joined at the temple with Dewi. Then constantly rebuking himself by condemning any question this, always so. Mega can't even control what's raging after hearing Satrio decide to get married.

"I thought you wouldn't want me to get married?" Questions like lightning strikes were heard and made Mega surprised.

Satrio stood beside the long wooden chair.

"Sat..." Mega still does not believe in the existence of the man.

"Why? Surprised I could be here?" Satrio still stood up and kept his two palms on the pocket of his covering pants that he was wearing. His gaze was also still straight ahead, staring at the water well swerving in the relentless wind. While Mega who had been staring at the boundary of the man's right cheek earlier.

"Why are you here?" mega asked while rubbing the rough two sides of his cheeks from the wet trail of tears.

Mega was confused and the look on her face caused a sudden panic. "Em, yes I was unwell last night" he replied stammering.

"What pain?"

"Fever but now healed."

"Have you been to the doctor?" her sweet question to get accepted to Mega's ears which further adds to the wound heap.

"Yes, just now" he answered briefly. But there is a sense of pleasure in feeling cared for.

"What did the doctor say?"

"I'm just mildly stressed. My head's dizzy."

"Thank God be light, not as heavy as I have ever felt," he replied with eyes staring at each other, implied longing but difficult to confess. There is no love left.

There are.

Although the percentage is divided between Gods, Rania and the man who is now sitting beside her with a cold attitude. It can be interpreted as limiting yourself and not wanting to be stuck back with the inner struggle on old love. Mega can feel it.

"Welcome you're getting married" said Mega though inversely proportional to her heart.

"I'm sure you're hard-pressed to accept this decision." Two of their eyes were looking back. Mega hard to swallow her saliva. His throat felt choked that second as well.

"Weight?" Mega bobbles head over him. "Honestly I am happy, you found the Goddess whom you will soon marry." Suddenly regretted and wanted to cry. But it is impossible for him to do because Mega also does not want to look selfish ends.

"You're lying" said Satrio, who made Mega sobbing. Covering his face with his two palms.

And so did Satrio. Still budging and have not tried to reach Mega or at least calm so that the crying does not become more.

The hand of the God was still folded on the chest. But not his eyes are not good at lying. His eyes were honest and shed tears as well.

For quite a while, they fought on each other's minds. Slowly relieve themselves the sadness in their hearts both.

"Didn't you often tell me to move on. It's my way."

Mega nodded repeatedly, with her hands endlessly wiping the snot following the pooled wet trail. "Yes, ignore my sadness for haru. I'll just feel like I lost you, sounding selfish and not on your own hurting heart. It's good that you are with the Goddess," said Mega with stammering.

"You think I'm happy with all this?" satrio sounded sad.

Mega looked at the man's eyeball. Vice versa. Everything is heavy, complicated, weird.

"You don't want us to be together either, you're heavy on God and Rania. I can what?"

Mega.

"Other than you will fight, sacrifice them and come back to me. It's not hard for me but it's hard for you."

Mega shook her head if it was impossible for her to do so. What's everything saying? his father-in-law, a large family who from the beginning fully supported the marriage of God and his self. "I just need some time. I'm sure I can, I can accept the harsh reality between us. This is all fate." he replied pausing every sigh of his cry.

Satrio hasn't changed places. Nor change the position of the hand that is still comfortable on his chest. It's just that the inner upheaval, the real torment of every answer Mega lied to himself. Undeniably, her brother also loved the woman beside him. This love triangle is not as simple as a string of words Mega who told him to leave just stripped his name.

No. gabe.

But all meaningful in, it is difficult to live both even though Mega status has become the wife of her brother. have a daughter named Rania, the fruit of their accident. Honestly, Satrio and Mega's love is just as great and can be united if the Gods don't get in the way. Rania was not among them.

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