Revenge In A Contract Marriage
Liz's Heart Voice #2

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Since that night, I was 10, I never asked about Papa again. Look, even to this day, I'm 14, she doesn't even come on my birthday.

At that moment, a quiet lonely night, I sat alone in the garden. That very night Aunt Yuli came, and she told me all the truth about 10 years. The truth of how Tara's real attitude is to Mama.

"You know, the reason why your Papa never met you? And your mother? That's because he loves Lathifa Kanneira, he's a dead love for Arfenik Arkasa's wife." Said Aunt Yuli sitting next to me.

I looked at him in disbelief. "Where might he love someone else's wife, when he has his own wife and children right?" Even though I hated Papa, maybe if Papa came and begged, then took my mom and I away, so we could live happily. Maybe, maybe I'll forgive him. But, to be honest I don't believe in Aunt Yuli's words. My mother is not so.

"Tara just thinks your mother is an outlet for lust, even she often uses Deyna to get Thifa. But alas, Thifa and Arfen are inseparable, even so. Tara loves Thifa. Because of Thifa, Tara dumped your mother, even when she found out your mother was pregnant with her child, you. You and your mother, dumped by Tara. You're not in his life, it's all because of his love for Thifa!" Aunt Yuli told her with a vengeful face there.

Degs...

My heart stopped for a split second. This fact, it's too absurd isn't it? I was 14 years old, only 14.

"Where is it possible.., he threw me and ib-"

"He did throw you and your mother away, he didn't want you, even when you weren't born! Realize that, son, your mother is stupid, since aunty told her to stay away from Tara. She doesn't care, she says it's all because she loves Tara. Love love love love! That's just bullshit, Liz, Love is bullshit. There is no love from a real man, they are just waiting for him to take advantage. Liz, remember this, in this world only your mother loves you more than anything, you know? How much does your mother love you?"

I was silent, my tears started to flow. But that is the truth, the love of others is nonsense. Real love, I felt only from Mama, Mama who gave me everything I needed, abundant affection, everything. My mom is everything to me.

I thank God, because that day I met Aunt Yuli, Vasa and Anna.

"You know? Your mother is very pretty, right? But she did not remarry, even though there were so many men who asked her, it was all because she loved Tara. You know, a love so stupid as Liz.., your mother's so stupid...,"

Then Aunt Yuli showed me the photos, where there was Papa and two other people, and there were two small children in the picture too, it looked like a birthday celebration photo. I could see Papa holding a three or four year old boy.

"You know where Tara is, papa, right? There's only one adult woman there, that's Lathifa, and one more man, that's Arfen. And those two kids? That's Arfen and Thifa's son. Aunty told me love is stupid. Tara loves Thifa and Arfen's son very much, he is Devan Arkasa. Devan is Tara's adopted son. Haha, look, even Tara dumped you and your mother, so she could take care of Thi-'s son"

"Enough!!! I don't want to hear anything anymore!! I'm going to bed, thanks to Aunt Yuli for coming back for Liz's time." I went back inside the orphanage, but all the way my tears kept flowing.

I walked towards my mother's room, but I stopped when I heard my mother's cry in the middle of the night, I opened the door a little, I walked slowly. My mom just cried under the blanket. "If only the woman you loved so much was me, and not Thifa. Maybe we will live happily in the moment. Tara.., I love you to this day even though you still love Thifa. It's okay, having a child with your blood is good luck to me."

Degs...

My tears can't stop flowing. My throat hurts, my lips are heavy to talk, sadness has crawled my body.

My mother bore all this burden.

I who didn't know anything at that time also started to find out everything. What Aunt Yuli said is true, I know everything from the internet, how good their relationship is.

Just a few weeks later that day, I knew again that what Aunt Yuli said was true. Mama.., reject all the men who proposed to her, because she still loves that fucking guy.

Ever since I was a child, and until then I remember everything, in that memory I can only remember, Mama's sadness. I don't even remember when was the last time he was happy? Ah no, she's never even been happy as sincerely since I was born.

Mama, like she lost everything, her happiness, her heart, her soul, even herself.

From that day on, I was determined and decided everything, everything that would be the purpose of my life. Tears that I don't know how many mama let out, I'll return the favor. My revenge was awakened at that moment.

I want to show my mom a suitable reply for those who hurt her. But, too bad, when I was 19. My mother is dead because she is sick. Reasonable.., he... Ah already.

I promised in front of my mama's grave, to avenge that smoldering, to Tara Mahendra, Lathifa Kanneira, Arfenik Arkasa. Through their son Devan Arkasa. This hatred will not be extinguished. You will suffer.

At that time I was educated by Aunt Yuli, my revenge was also supported by Vasa and Anna. But baby, when I was 21. Aunt Yuli also died....

...Liz POV Done...

"Liz!!" Calling Devan from outside, the call and the knock on the door awakened Liz from her daydream.

Liz looked at herself in the mirror. Unknowingly, his clothes had already gotten wet as the tears were flowing swiftly.