Sebetsu No Tigau Betsuno Sekai He
Volume I【Chapter.05】
Flare, there's what's really going on with him.
I walked up to each other, I seriously looked at him to try to give him an answer, I wanted him to be open and not to bother me with strangers. He avoided looking at me, his face turned to the right of him, his body began to turn away.... "Grab" Before he started to go far I tried to catch his hand stopping his steps, it was very painful to see him not respond to me like that.
「Flare don't you trust me at all. We're friends not..」
I used to not care what my name was, but who would have thought if it made me feel so important again, even though I don't know how important it was for me. He remained unmoved, what was still lacking for me to keep him open, my hand tightly holding his arm, not wanting to let go before a word came out of his mouth.
I looked at him from behind, slowly turning his body back to me, with the other hand holding my hand back. She slowly let go of my hand, a behavior she displayed but was very painful when experiencing.
「Sorry but you shouldn't take care of someone's personal life. Very disturbing... You get it.」
His words left me speechless with this indistinctness in my heart, leaving without turning my back on me, I had no energy or desire to pursue him, looking at him who wanted to leave me in this pit alone.
『APA KAU A LOSER.!』
"I just want you to trust me like someone close. Is that hard for you Flare.」
I said that in a sad tone, my head lowered with teary eyes. Sadness strikes, I don't really understand what feelings are in humans, I'm just like a robot that exists to understand the knowledge that exists. I don't know if these words can make him change his mind and look at me, my small desire is just so that the conversation we have is not limited, the distance is not far. I wanted to cry, it was too heavy to hold my tears, I did not understand this feeling. I want to go back if there's no response Flare will give, there's no point in me just waiting for something that's not certain.
As despair arose and hope was dashed, a gentle stroke stroked the upper hair on me, petting it fervently made me feel at ease. The touch given was very different from the person it gave, the feeling given by Flare seemed to feel very natural and appeared unexpectedly. I looked up at our unequal height, she looked at me with a warm smile, very different from what that person did.
「Aster you're one of the friends I trust a lot. That's why I don't want you to get into my family's complicated problems. Moreover, I know if you are facing a problem with the builder... I hope you worry about yourself. This world is not very good for us.」
I understand what Flare is saying, he probably knows how dangerous my current condition is as one of the 'big' and the strife that occurs between me and the builder by bringing my selfish feelings. The possibility of my problem if not solved soon will spread to the people around me worried, I how will overcome it while the situation is still not studied.
Even so, such thoughts can still be calculated later, but I can not let if Flare goes through the difficulties by itself.... But I don't see anything else now, what are they doing.
「Ta-but... I don't have a problem worrying you.」
「... What happened to you. Not only does your appearance change. But it seems like your nature and character have also started to show a change to women.」
.... "Eh" What Flare said was true, but I also felt it was always strange that if this happened to me, the changes I was going through might not be so bad, just a little bothering me at first. I don't think he's trying to praise, from his tone he's teasing me. "Humph" My cheeks puffed up, turning my face away from the gaze, I felt annoyed that he was playing me this time, I could not reply.
「Have I gone first.」
I saw him go away, his figure began to be invisible back to my eyes, I did not care about the loss, the feeling of annoyance I could still feel.... "Em" It seems that Flare forgot something important, I held her back trying to get herself to open her mouth, but she left without giving me a word that made me feel satisfied, so the purpose of doing that.
『FLARE I HATE YOU.!』
.... I was already in the room to sleep, lying on a big bed at once smooth and soft, very comfortable than I was yesterday. Unfortunately they can't feel the comfort we have now, I regret that leaving people close to me, I don't know if I can call them friends.... Except for Flare who's my friend from before.
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My eyes are open, the glare of the sun this morning feels glare or this place that makes the sunlight enter brightly. But this feeling is very good, sunlight can make me regain consciousness easily, drowsiness also disappears by itself. Moreover, the morning sun is very good for taking care of the skin, immediately washing it with water will remove dead skin. I picked up the clothes that the servants had prepared. I walked out, and was told by the servants that the bath was on the left side of the room.
.... I took off all the clothes that covered the whole body, a little rough because yesterday I did not clean myself, more precisely the people below us are not allowed to use facilities such as palace baths, they could only do so when they were in a lake or river while on duty outside the palace. I started soaking, would wait a long time, my body had to be completely clean and smooth to come out later.... "Ah" I've understood why women take so long in the bathroom, maybe they're cleaning up so thoroughly, maybe. I used to be a man, the important thing is to brush my teeth with soap and the shampoo is done, I don't care about a lot of things.
I started wearing back, now that this outfit is better than before, the material is more comfortable and smooth, with the armor that has been changed to iron, it seems like it is time for us to start training seriously, he said, I hope I find the right time to say an apology later to Mr. Nero.
.... I will finish the food provided, they said if the place that became our training has been specially prepared by the king, this high-ranking person has given me special plans. Now that we were being directed to a soldier to a field that was different from the one yesterday, my eyes could see some complete training tools, such as arrow targets and wooden men.
We were again directed to march according to the instructions of the accompanying soldier, standing quietly waiting for the builder. I saw someone walking over, he was a middle-aged man in full armor, standing haughtily before all of us, he would be the coach now.... I wonder where Nero's coach is now, if he's not the one who's going to teach us now, maybe still upset about what I did yesterday. I was a little disappointed with the relief that followed.
「I am Lori. Warrior Captain who will replace lord Nero gives you the training of a hard soldier.」
He didn't try to hide it, someone who was very outspoken and open. As I predicted, I would like to ask what happened to the builder Nero but it's not good to ask now, I can see everyone here sighing quietly perhaps despite the trauma of the torture they had yesterday, still guilty of what they were going through anyway.
Our training began, with the confidence we chose the skills each had, I will practice with archery and swordsmanship for me to make as a capital to protect myself someday. I will train how to shoot as the first, take in the place that has been provided and choose one. I will take one, all of them are practice arrows not yet my time to choose the arrow that I will have to make a weapon later. Walking towards the place where the target area is, not myself who wants to be an archer, it could be said that archers will be an important choice for now, we do not want melee attacks as beginners in this world, he said, it is very dangerous to attack openly.
I pulled the bowstring, the first experiment was very difficult for me, who would have thought if it was very heavy not as imagined, even though the bow handle was only made of wood. I thought for a moment what if the materials used were made of materials stronger than this, instead of needing more energy to use, I need to rethink again now.
Someone approached me, my ears could hear the clinking of his armor, he was a royal soldier. Without any talk that meant he touched my hand, it made me very uncomfortable with his touch, let alone the outrageous movements under him towards me, he harassed me so blatantly, who would have thought he did it openly, seen by everyone here. He's very lewd, but I can't make the same mistake now, worried that the impact will be very bad. Most importantly I will withstand this annoyance, it was also my fault that made a builder like this appear before me.
I will focus on the target that is ahead.
「I will release the arrows when you are ready.」
He deliberately yes, I have been prepared from but he still does not want to release it, especially do not actually need direction from the captain of this soldier I have been able to train this archery skill, unfortunately he came to disturb in a very perverted way to look at. Whatever answer I gave him was the same in front of him, he just wanted to touch me until the satisfaction of releasing this arrow, I could feel if the power released by him was great to hold me back, can't find a way to take this off.
.... "Eh" There was a sense of wetness felt, it came from the bottom place he touched, he made me into material to do that disgusting thing, I was annoyed but what to do. His hand was off, I shot an arrow right in the middle of the target, but there was no sense of pleasure being well-reached on my first try. I put the arrow back where it was, with no word left of me walking out of the field, nothing stopping me as it turned out, he said, I feel like I have no self-esteem and feel dirty just being treated like that.
I walked quickly down the hall, I would go straight back to my room, not wanting to see them in the dining room later. I will go to the canteen of ordinary soldiers if needed later, although I do not know what will be accepted my presence there.... "Shelf" When I wasn't focused on walking accidentally I was like hitting something hard, I knew if it was a woman I immediately stood up to apologize to her.
「Sorry if it hurt you.」
I was so unlucky today.
「Are you only going to apologize once to me Miss Aster.」
I looked up my head, seeing if he was someone I knew very well, immediately stood up properly with a very nervous feeling, I found it hard to get out of this situation again if I met him.