SECOND WORLD.
62. Heart Feelings And Trauma Carissa.

***the Holmes Kingdom***

…Carissa pavilion…

Damian still looked at Carissa, who was sitting beside him intensely. Damian still did not understand, what makes Carissa's heart heavy to do the terms of the magic padlock?

"what makes your heart so heavy?" damian asked that made Carissa look at Damian.

"excuse me, this is a matter of the heart and I find it difficult to do so." Carissa replied while trying to shift her seat.

Over time Carissa felt squeezed because they sat close to each other. Carissa is not comfortable sitting close like this, especially now that their conversation has been about her feelings, Carissa's feelings of love.

"why? don't you like sitting close to me…?" said Damian who is aware of the movement of Carissa's body that continues to try to shift from its place.

Damian noticed Carissa's body and face, which changed instantly. Carissa looked uncomfortable and her face was flat and cold again.

"excuse me noble servant, yes I am not comfortable." answered honestly Carissa who made Damian silent fixated and saw Carissa.

Carissa's honest answer, makes Damian seem to get rejected by Carissa. By itself Damian's hand stretched from the tight hold of Carissa's waist.

Carissa, who knew and got a response from Damian, immediately moved her seat. In Carissa's heart is not ready to be close to anyone in this world? Moreover Damian did it forcibly and suddenly?

Damian felt disappointed and slightly hurt in his heart, for Carissa's refusal. For the first time, Damian gets a rejection from a woman, because usually women are the ones who pursue her, but different from Carissa. Carissa was the one who rejected Damian's approach.

"have I interrupted your time?" damian asked out just like that, because of his hurt and disappointed impulse.

Carissa knew very well about Damian's question to her, Carissa knew Damian's tone was disappointed with his repulsion, but she didn't want to bother, because right now it wasn't important?

The most important thing is how to quickly complete all the conditions that can return it to its original world again. Carissa does not care about the thoughts and feelings of others at this time, she is the most important at this time.

"pardon the noble servant." That's the only answer Carissa could give.

Carissa again put on her flat and cold face, Carissa was afraid of her closeness to Damian. Carissa doesn't want to cause one more problem? because the problem alone was already very confusing his head.

Damian was speechless and quite understanding, apologizing and mimicking the face of Carissa who returned flat and cold looking at him.

'he still couldn't easily be approached, just now while talking and he could answer freely and familiarly, I'm already very happy because Carissa can be warm and friendly, he said, but I don't know why? his attitude had quickly turned back cold?' damian muttered inwardly looking at Carissa who did not change her face at all.

"excuse me for bothering you, I just want to help, but it seems like you don't need my help right now" Damian said, trying to understand Carissa at this time.

Carissa was actually happy to have a friend who could and would help her at this time, but Damian's warm attitude and the closeness that Damian was doing earlier, was very sudden. It even made Carissa feel afraid in her heart, afraid to be comfortable and safe with Damian's attitude towards her.

Carissa was afraid that she would truly feel comfortable and safe with someone, because she immediately remembered her fate all along. Every Carissa feels comfortable on something, all of it is bound to disappear and get away from it, every person can make it comfortable and safe, always that person will go and leave it for various reasons.

For that reason, Carissa is afraid to be close to anything and anyone? it was better that he was alone, even though in his heart it was very contradictory. But what is the power she is just an ordinary woman who also wants to be owned and have, wants to be loved and also love.

An ordinary woman who can still feel love for a man, and wants love from a man for her. An ordinary woman who wants to live like any other woman, has a partner who will always be considerate and love her, but Carissa never felt this long, she will end up back in her solitude.

Antoni is the last sense of security and comfort he has and feels, now he has lost Antoni, the man Callysta loves, the man who made Callysta have a family attention. Now there are memories that only he can remember.

Memories that Carissa is returning. Or the last memory with Antoni, which will only be a good memory for him.

"thank you, your honor, for your concern." reply Carissa did not want Damian offended and who will get into new trouble again.

"do I also have to leave you alone in this room?" damian asked who really felt Carissa didn't need him.

"pardon your noble servant, I mean nothing? that could make you angry, your majesty."

Carissa stood up from her seat. Damian looked for a moment at Carissa's face trying to smile thinly at him, and went away from there.

Carissa silently glued to look at the back of Damian who left her, Carissa could see the disappointment in Damian's eyes on her. Carissa sat herself down and was still silent, looking at the book on the glass table.

Carissa drew and exhaled her breath.

'what I did was right…!! always keep a distance on everyone is right…!! my goal is only one in this world, which is to find a way and a way to return to the world I came from.' Carissa murmured in her heart, to reassure herself and her heart.

Carissa went into the bathroom, soaking herself so that her body and mind were refreshed. Carissa needs a refresher at this time, before going forward will be very busy learning, practicing and learning again. Busying yourself is a way that has always been very powerful to make Carissa comfortable living her life that is always alone.

To get and realize his wishes, to have a warm and loving family, is very heavy and full of obstacles for Carissa. Is that possible for Carissa? the question that has not been answered for Carissa to date?

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…House of the Sacred Astrologer…

The holy seer knows and sees everything, sees all that Carissa felt and experienced all this time? Sophie knows, what is the past of Callysta Angelina that she used to live? Sophie know how Callysta feels right now? The holy seer can see, past and present about the fate of Callysta's life, only Callysta's future can the Holy Seer not see?

"Until when will you limit yourself Callysta? how long have you kept the trauma in your life? don't you want to open your heart again? in this old world as well as in your second world, you still do not open your heart and receive all the affection from others." muttered Sophie looking at Callysta from her empty mind space.

Sophie can understand the trauma of life Callysta lived first, while still a mob hitman. All that Callysta loved one by one left him. I don't know if it died of being killed, whether it went away without saying goodbye, only solitude would stay Callysta felt

It used to be when Callysta felt comfortable and in love with someone, who was special to Callysta in his heart, a friend and lover, would leave Callysta alone. Making Callysta very traumatized, good friends and lovers. The fear of continuous loss, makes Callysta reluctant to be close and have a friend or lover.

Sophie knows that even when she becomes Carissa, she still limits herself to be close to someone, Carissa's heart is still tucked away in fear of losing the person she loves, Carissa is not ready to accept herself who wants to love someone and ends up losing it again.

"i'll help you Callysta, I'll make you feel the love you used to feel, and I won't let your wounded heart lose it back, you deserve Callysta's happiness. You deserve all the dreams you want. I'm going to give you a family you never had in your life, a family of someone who was sincere with you, even if they weren't your real family." sophie said in her heart that pityed to see the fate of Callysta's life.

…damian Theodore…

"i don't know what's in Carissa's heart? you're too hard for me to guess, sometimes you can be sweet and warm, but will you suddenly get cold and not want to get close to anyone?" my mummy sat in the room after returning from Carissa's room.

I sat down accompanied by my favorite drink, pondering and in my mind right now was just a shadow about Carissa. I slowly closed my eyes and cast a spell in my heart, in order to see the magic padlock mark on my palm, the lock sign of the chosen couple from the magic key Carissa had.

I looked at the mark on my palm carefully, I also thought !! what will happen to us, who have a sign and connected destiny to be the partner of Carissa? what does all this mean? what game is going to happen to us?

So many questions in my heart and mind? so is the purpose of the holy seer, who commanded us to always protect and hide who Carissa really was? the holy seer also taught us a spell to hide the mark that was in the palms of the three of us.

Spells that can cover and unlock the marks on the palms of the three of us, marks that must be covered from demons, demons and black faction magicians, from the Darkness World kingdom. To keep us safe until we become stronger and Carissa's destiny can go as it should.

"what should I do to you, Carissa? approaching you is so draining of my emotions, my energy and my mind, you seem so limiting yourself to everyone, how can you live like this? I love it when you can be warm and sweet, but your coldness is thicker covering your heart." I muttered, still looking at the mark on my right palm.

My heart says, can we unite? are we really destiny that is indeed connected? the breath I took and breathed felt heavy and long. I acted as if I was going to fight against a strong and formidable enemy. A war that doesn't seem like its exact purpose?

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