Secrets (Who Are You?)
7. Us and the World

The afternoon breeze blew his wishful thinking. Looking up at the sky above. It still looks blue. But at the end there is a gray cloud that began to propagate. It will soon rain. Rania stared at the rinai that started to descend. The longer the more. He had to stay longer at school.

Rain is the season favored by Mila, her orphaned best friend. That fact made Rania feel like a useless friend. About in that day or if he could smell that depravity earlier, perhaps today they are still together on their adventure against the world.

The wind carried by the rain blew fiercely, the cold began to be felt. Rania who sits on the stand in front of her class can only close her hoodie to get a warmth. Then the net is staring at the building across. The teacher's room lights are on. Maybe the rain made the room dark so it had to turn on the lights.

Rania was bored sitting there alone. Today she has no plans to spend her school days. No brawl today. In addition, some girls are reluctant to be friends with him because he is in the delinquent class now. While friends in his delinquent class have activities after school. Some do part time work.

Rania also broke through the rain by running as fast as possible so that her body was not too wet. He did not know why he was heading to the teacher's room. His heart told him to go there.

Inside the teacher's room was a young teacher who was still busy with her work. There were some files piling up in front of him. In front of him was a cup of warm drink. Visible from the smoke billowing over the cup that may contain tea.

His hand was hidden in the hoodie's pocket. The sneaker got a little wet.

"You haven't come home yet?"Rania's question is still on the doorstep

Rania's question made the person inside the teacher's room slightly surprised and turned his gaze to the source of the voice. He smiled at the naughty student.

"There's still some work. You alone?" The young teacher asked back.

"My father is away with his new. He told me to wait another two hours. Though I'm sure he won't be back in two hours." Light up Rania and draw closer towards Meika, the young teacher left in the teacher room.

"You're following your father, aren't you?"

"Of course not. You think? That's just the most normal excuse I can say. The real reason I'm stuck in the rain." Rania looked up and looked at Meika.

Rania stepped in, ignoring the condition of her shoes that would probably wet the floor of the room. He pulled out a chair from the row and brought it to Meika's table. Momentary silence. No one wants to start a conversation again. Only the brain is busy with individual thoughts. The rain made them miss their memories.

Grey clouds in the sky seem to describe longing. Both have memories of the past.

Even about Reina, the mysterious girl was very fond of the rain. But in the past, Meika and Reina seemed to be in two different realms when the rain fell. Reina will run through the rinai, while Meika will stay on the edge and take shelter. Suppose that day Meika could run with Reina.

"You have a special friend?" Ask Rania suddenly.

"Have." Answer Meika briefly and look back at her file which is soon finished.

"Where is he?" Ask Rania again

"The House of God."

Rania did not resume the question. He knew next was a story of grief. Then he whispered to the wind. Pray that everyone will be given happiness.

"Ro." Get Meika

"yes?"

"Can I hear the story about the delinquent class?" Meika asked him gently

"Sure, I'll tell you."

The delinquent class begins with the story of a Rania. The girl from the VIP line who finally chose to come out and join the row of children who got unfair treatment.

One year ago after Rania's victory with her friend in the national olympiade a conflict began. Rania gets the new car she wants the most. That day he thought he had become a child with a perfect life story. It is clear how Father and Mother welcomed him warmly, giving him affection when he opened the door of his house. Congratulations and proud expressions did not stop coming out of his parents. A perfect story.

Grief is gray, the world hates its happiness. Rania is in sadness. From that incident the father went crazy, his attitude changed no longer a father figure who is caring, loving and granting all requests Rania. His life has changed. His father often came home late with a condition of heavy drunkenness, swearing just escaped from his mouth, and brought many women to the house. Her father became unconcerned with Rania.

Rania is lonely, but she is still learning. Until one day it was a clear day, Mila. His best friend came to visit with a bowed face. Not usually the pretty girl looks sad.

"What's wrong? you got a problem?" Rania asked her best friend.

The two were sitting on the edge of Rania's bed. Suddenly, Mila hugged him. Of course he was surprised. The orphan girl had never been seen so badly that day.

"Why?" Rania asked softly

"I gave up Ran, sorry." Afterwards Mila ran out, leaving Rania.

From that day on, Mila disappeared, no longer did Rania meet anywhere. In the home where he lives, in the minimarket where he is part-time or in the city library where he studies. Mila vanished from her world.

Rania's world is completely gone. Destroyed was the whole dream. It was like being thrown into Andromeda. He had to live with a new story and a place so foreign.

School was also not fun. Everything looks gray. Even when everyone thought of her as a spoiled child and excommunicated her, only Mila clasped her hands. But Mila is gone. No one wants to be friends with him. Her teenage world is like a black and white drama piece.

Then the shocking news came and made him despair. Mila Drop Out of school. Rania saw her friend packing all the items left in her locker while crying. All the children formed groups and started to gossip, blurting out inappropriate words that certainly sounded so painful. Rania felt how sharp the inappropriate sentence was slowly raining down on a Mila.

When Mila is almost at the school gate that's when it's time for all the memories of the world story with Rania to come to an end. The world full of colors will only be a memory.

"Yahoooooooooooo!!!!"

Rania who that day was a sweet girl who was known to be so spoiled ran while yelling at her best friend's name.

The two look at each other. Tears seemed to flow from both. Even though Rania had no idea what was happening, she was actually very anxious to ask. But He knew that Mila would be more devastated if he asked now.

"You're gonna leave me?" Ask Rania

"I'll always live with you, forever my friend. But maybe not this body here anymore. I have to go." Mila's words sounded so pitiful.

Without a wave of goodbye or a promise to meet again tomorrow. Mila left him. Rania was already messed up, her legs seemed to be so heavy as to run after Mila. His tongue was twisted and his lips locked tightly to scream again. His body slumped, he sobbed lamenting all the things he did not know and why no one told him.

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"He's missing." Rania closed her story

"Then what happened later?" Meika Tanya is curious about the continuation of the story told by Rania

"Maybe next time, I have to go now. Besides, your husband has arrived." Rania came out of the teacher's room.

The rain had also subsided, even the lines of the horizon were gradually beginning to peek through the thinning gray gap. Soon the twilight rays really bathed the whole world. Like a new hope that arises after a sense of despair.

Meika closed the entire file and grabbed the Handle bag located on the table. He came out of the teacher's room and met Raihan who had been waiting for him outside. There was a smile on the face of the man who had been her husband. Marriage is not for those who want it.

About our lives and the stories we write in the world.

The precious you are a special part of my gray world.