Sekar & Raja Phinisi
I'm Disappointed

“Good morning Raja.. I just want to let you know that Mona is conscious.”.

Ucy's doctor's words made the apple the King was holding fall down. His eyes stared at the ocean. It felt believing and not believing after finally 3 months more women he was waiting for realized from a coma.

“Mas King where is the position now? Mona asked the King constantly. He said he wanted to meet Raja.” This time doctor Ucy's speech made Sekar's chest tight. His mind was afraid that the King would turn to Mona.

Suddenly there was another woman's voice from Ucy's doctor's cell phone.

“Mas King... A..aku kangen Hearing that voice, the King's tears trickled down. Sekar who saw the King change began to release his embrace from the King. He slowly withdrew away from the King.

“Mona..?” The king squeezed both his hands.

“When did the King come back here? Momo kangen ama mas.”

“Quickly... You're fine there. I'm home as soon as possible,” Happy smiles start to crack on the King's lips. Even Mona still remembers the affectionate call the King gave her.

My heart was torn to shreds by the conversation. He is not the King he knows. He was no longer the King whose heart was for him. Sekar only fell silent at the voices of Mona and the King. With all her might she held back the tears that were about to fall.

“I hung up. I'll be back in the heli. Wait for me there, Momo.” The king started calling the pilot.

It just so happened that the pilot of Raja was in the Tarempa area with a helicopter belonging to the King Phinisi company. The pilot immediately picked up King and Sekar.

Just being quiet doesn't say a word. He let the King hold his hand. Still digesting what does it mean the King spoke affectionately on the phone with Mona? And now his hand is taken by the king to the helicopter?

In the helicopter, the King still paid attention to him. Installing a seat belt, holding his hand and occasionally the King kissed Sekar's head. But it all felt cold.

Sekar's face grew pale after the helicopter reached King's Island. The king invited Sekar to get out of the helicopter immediately. The King's wide steps were hard to reach by Sekar's suddenly stiff legs. He drew his hand from the King's hand.

“Au. You first aja..” Sekar bows his head. Holding both knees that are painful.

“You don't pa, do you, baby? Come... Mona has been waiting for us..” The king tried to reach Sekar's waist in order to be strapping.

“You were just. I am followed..” Sekar still hides his face from the King.

“Ya already... I first yes... I wait for you there,” The King starts running towards Mona's ward. That's when Sekar wiped the tears that had almost fallen.

From behind Sekar came a female voice. The other one is Dr. Ucy.

“Dek? You why?” ask doctor Ucy to grab Sekar's arm so as not to bend.

“Slightly giddy, doc. Probably because I haven't eaten.” He began to stand up again.

“Oh... Yes, we go to Mona Yuk's room, there is a small party there. Ben had done a lot of food there,” invite doctor Ucy.

They also walked to Mona's ward. Many voices were heard in the room where the door was open. There's El whose face is still slightly bruised, Ansu sir, Ben, Raja and of course Mona. The king hugged Mona. Longing and guilt mixed into one. She hugged Mona tightly on Mona's bed.

The sight made the steps stop. The deathly pale face began to be read by the doctor Ucy who was next to him.

“I want to go back with you, mas... Hiks... Hiks... Can we continue our wedding plan first?” Mona's tears flowed profusely regretting her actions.

“Iya.. Yes..”.

Ha's? Whahuh? Yeah…? Did you forget me, Mom? I'm not dreaming, am I? I am very disappointed with you, mas, muttered Sekar.

“Don’t cry Momo.” The king tried to calm Mona down. Wiping away the tears that ran down Mona's cheeks.

Without him noticing there was a woman whose eyes were already red withholding tears in front of the door. The position of El, Ben and Ansu who turned their backs to the door did not see Sekar.

They only pay attention to the King and Mona.

Sekar who could not bear to see the sight of the King and Mona immediately left. Run as fast as you can with tears. He ran towards his room. His mind just wanted to leave the Island immediately. Sadness wanted him to spill over to his father. I wanted to cry in his father's arms.

“HUAAAAA hkz hkz hkz hkz! Hiks... Hu hu hu hu.. Uhh... Uhuk... Hiks...” Sekar cried his heart out in his room.

“I love you already!  Huhuhu.. I don't want to be Mona! I don't want to learn to be someone else! I want to be myself! Hixes. I want to be Sekar ajaa. Don't want to dream of being Mona or Kasih. So just now.. hkz."

“Sekar...” Tok Tok Tok…! The doctor began to enter Sekar's unlocked room. He hugged Sekar to give him peace. “Udah.. Cup cup... Don't cry anymore yes. Surely the King was wrong to say earlier.”

“Salah said how…?! 2x he said yes! I asked her a dozen times to marry, NEVER once did she say YES! AAAA! Then what am I...? His mucus mucus trash tub?!... HU huuu hu! I'm already dirty. I'M DIRTY Brother.. hkzz hu huuu!” The sound of crying became louder.

Doctor Ucy doesn't know what to do either. Calling King? That's obviously impossible. Who would he be if he wanted to interfere in the affairs of the King's romance and now?

“Quiet... You should think clearly. Must be a strong woman. You can't be whiny here. Pity your parents if you find out you are this sad.?” Sekar increasingly tightened his embrace to doctor Ucy.

Sadness, anger, disappointment and destruction are being felt. Still confused what path he should take to the future without the King. But the one he knows. He could no longer linger on the island. Going is the right choice. Perhaps it would be easier for him to forget the King.

“Iya sis. I'll learn to be sincere..” It feels so sad to hear that word. The mouth feels easy to speak. But the practice is definitely like a roller coster jumpalitan. “Dok, help me to get out of here. I'm going back. I can no longer be here,” Sekar looked at the doctor with puffy eyes. It was slicing to see his friend's sister being treated like an animal. Only the complacent and the rest is discarded.

“Yuk! Come with me to Tarempa to my house first. You calm your heart and mind. You can't be this sad when you go home. What did your parents say later? They must be disappointed because they can't take care of you.” Ucy's doctor's words have a point too when you think about it. “You are young, sweet, beautiful, good again. I am sure you can get a much better man than Raja.” He was silent at the words of Dr. Ucy

The future he had imagined with the King was already dark. Finally Sekar obeyed the idea of doctor Ucy going to Tarempa. She must be a stronger woman.

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Seriate…

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