
"Sorry sir, the husband's father was a gunshot wound?" ask the hospital staff to Erick, who is crying over Ronald's body.
"Hah .., i-iya Sus," Erick replied nervously, he rubbed his tears.
"Look sir, the patient is bleeding too much, can cause the health of the baby in the womb is threatened, the doctor decided to immediately do the operation, but we are waiting for your approval as her husband," explained the nurse to Erick.
"Hah ..., please save the mother and baby Sister, please do your best for them, I beg Sister!!" Erick pleaded while crying.
"Mr has to sign first" said Sister.
"Well, where?" connect Erick.
"There's a nurse dropping off the file soon, sir" the sister explained as she walked away.
Erick followed the nurse's footsteps towards where Nina was being treated, she was completely confused and did not know what to do. She is afraid of losing Nina and her baby.
"Rick ..., Erick!!!" dayat's voice calls.
Erick turned his head to look Dayat and Eka half ran up to him, Erick hugged Dayat and cried telling about Ronald and the state of Nina.
"Oh my God, why is this so" Dayat said.
Dayat pacified Erick, they shared their duties, Erick took care of Nina while Dayat took care of Ronald's body, he also informed Nina's parents in Jakarta.
After Erick signed the affidavit, Nina was taken to the operating room, Erick waited in front of the operating room feeling anxious, scared, mixed into one. He never felt afraid of losing like this, after the departure of Ronald, Erick felt unable to lose Nina as well.
The sound of a baby's weak cry from inside the operating room, Erick was relieved to hear Nina's baby cry, but he still had to wait a long time without news from the medical personnel who handled Nina. Restless and agitated again hit Erick's mind.
Moments later, the door of the operating room opened, and two nurses pushed Nina's unconscious body into the treatment room, followed by a nurse who brought a tiny baby in an incubator who was also transferred to the baby care room.
Erick followed the baby as he watched it with a feeling of joy and happiness, like a father who saw his son born into the world, his eyes glazed over looking at a tiny face similar to Ronald's.
"Father accompany Mom first yes, the baby should not be carried, later can be seen from the outside," said the nurse who brought baby Nina.
After Nina's baby is taken into the baby's special care room, Erick runs around to where Nina is being treated. Erick looked at Nina's calm face with her eyes closed. If he could change places, it felt like he was the one who replaced Nina, he could not see Nina living in agony.
Erick sat next to Nina with teary eyes, the sound of footsteps entering the room, Mbah Darmi came with Dayat's father, the old face looked very sad watching his granddaughter lie weak helplessly.
"How's my grandson Rick?" ask Mbah Darmi to Erick in a soft voice.
"Nina was not aware of Mbah, and her son was still in the incubator roar" Erick said.
"Ronald's family requested that Ronald's body be buried in Jakarta, so tonight Ronald was sent there," said Mbah Darmi.
"What about Nina later Mbah?" ask Erick.
"Maybe you can explain to Nina, Nina's parents are also waiting for Ronald to be buried and can come here" said Mbah Darmi lirih.
Erick looked at Nina's face with pity, he could not imagine that Nina was conscious and asked about Ronald, how to tell Nina about all this.
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Nina moved her hands, she felt cold all over her body, and numbness in her abdomen and back, slowly she opened her two eyes, a sense of glare and shadowing, she said, his eyes still felt heavy and sleepy, his body felt light like cotton.
"Hi ...," said Erick softly.
Nina blinked her eyes, Erick's face was faint and gradually became very clear, Nina tried to speak but could only smile faintly, Erick stroked gently on Nina's head, making the woman feel at ease.
"Sleep if you still feel tired, I'll take care of you here" Erick said.
Nina closed her eyes again, the effects of drugs were still so strong that she controlled her consciousness, she was again lulled in her dreams.
"Darling wait for me!!" call Nina to Ronald who walks fast in front of her.
The more Nina pursued Ronald's shadow, the more distant Nina tried to reach Ronald's hand but it was very difficult to reach it, and when she managed to reach Ronald's hand she was very surprised because it was not Ronald.
"Err ..., you!!" Nina let go of her hand.
"It's been a long time, Nina, have you missed me?" Rekso smiled looking at Nina's face full of longing.
"Go!!!" nina snapped at Rekso, but the creature did not budge.
"Nin ..., Nina ..., Nina ...!!" rekso's voice slowly turned into Erick's.
Nina was aghast and aware from her dream, she saw Erick beside her with an anxious look.
"Rick ...," call Nina down.
"You're having nightmares?" ask Erick.
"I why Rick?" Nina began to realize her condition.
"Where's my baby?" Nina felt her stomach feel empty.
"There is in the baby room, you calm down first yes he is strong and healthy kog," said Erick.
"Ron-Ronald how's Rick?" Nina began to remember Ronald.
"You calm down, rest first" Erick said, puzzled over how to explain to Nina.
"Rick .. tell me where Ronald is," Nina started crying.
"Ronald's ... Ronald has gone Nin, he ...," Erick can't say anymore he's crying.
Nina wept bitterly, Erick clasped his hand trying to give strength to the most beloved woman in his life.
"Why is God unfair to me Rick, why!!!" Nina half yelled.
Erick hugged Nina and let the woman cry in her chest, Nina roared sadly, disappointed, bitterly all into one, it felt like she no longer wanted to live if only suffering in her life.
"I just want to die Rick, I'm tired of all this, I'm tired of living like this" Nina cried more and more bitterly.
"Istighfar, you can't give up Nin, Ronald definitely doesn't want to see you like this, there's your son that you have to take care of and need your love, rise up where Nina I know first," erick.
Nina pushed Erick's body into her arms, remembering how she had been hurt, crying almost crazy.
"Do you know what I feel, the suffering I've been through, do you know Rick, how I had to get up from my wounds so many times, do you know!!!" nina Benthic.
Erick cupped into his two hands, apologizing to Nina, he knew how hard Nina had been alone.
"I'm sorry if I ever hurt you, Nina, punish me all you want if it makes you happy again, I .. I want to make up for all your wounds," Erick cried sitting down.
Nina turned her face away unwilling to see Erick's face, her heart ached and hurt. The two of them fell silent with their thoughts until the nurse came to check on Nina.
"Good day" the nurse said to Nina.
"Sister, can I see my son?" ask Nina.
"Can, later let the husband of the mother who interracede, but can only see from the outside first yes, the medicine do not forget to drink yes ma'am," said the nurse.
"Husband?" Nina looked hatefully at Erick.
"Later in a wheelchair, sir, if you want to see the baby" the nurse told Erick, Erick just nodded.
The nurse left Nina and Erick, the atmosphere was quiet again until the nurse delivered food to Nina, after the nurse Erick stood up and took the food and approached Nina.
"Eat after that take your medicine." Erick tries to feed Nina.
Nina glanced at the food in Erick's hand and glared in refusal, Erick took a slow breath, he was sad to see Nina hate him.
"You have to take the medicine later your surgery scars get sick," said Erick.
"I don't eat porridge" said Nina sewot.
"Yes, the operation must be a gentle meal first, later if you have come home from here whatever you want, I will find," said Erick.
Nina took a spoon and food from Erick's hand, she did not want to be bribed like a baby, after three mouthfuls she stopped and asked for medicine to drink.
"Take me to my son" said Nina Ketus.
Erick nodded and came out looking for a wheelchair, he returned with a wheelchair and approached Nina who was about to get off her bed.
"Slow down, let me help you" said Erick, capturing Nina's staggered body.
Nina just resignedly turns out her body is still very weak, Erick cradled and sat her in a wheelchair, then took an infusion bag and put on the hook in a wheelchair, Erick, she pushed Nina towards the baby room looking at her baby.
"We can only see from here, I'll help you stand up" said Erick extending his hand.
Nina grabs Erick's hand, Erick helps Nina stand up and lean on Erick's body, she sees her son from behind the glass, the tiny baby is asleep in his sleep, Nina's eyes are back in tears.
"We go to the room, you have to rest first, then I ask the sister to take a picture so you can see it with satisfaction" said Erick, while helping Nina sit back in her wheelchair.
They return to the room, Erick lifts Nina's body onto the bed and lets Nina rest.
"I'm going home for a little while yes, want to take a shower and eat from last night I haven't changed clothes," said Erick, Nina did not answer she only glanced at Erick's departure.
Nina's heart returned empty and empty, at a time like this she desperately needed Ronald by her side but again she had to swallow the bitter pill of reality, left behind when he needed a backrest now even Erick who was at his side.
'Why is this like God, what other plans You have devised for me, give me the strength to raise my son alone, ' Nina spoke inwardly, he tried hard for his son he did not want to fall and depressed again.
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