Thanks For Your Love
What am I supposed to do?

Rome Pov

The honeymoon I've been craving is falling apart with the tragedy of Sandy's death, my husband's former partner. I see like there's been a change in Tommy's attitude towards me. I feel neglected, how not? I have fulfilled all his wishes. That night he asked us to go home first. All the families who took a vacation together were confused and surprised why we went home first.

It was like we had a dream but we just left the guests. It doesn't feel ethical at all. But everything seemed to understand our situation at that time.

I also heard that Mamak was very disappointed with me and Tommy. Especially with me because I'm not being forthright with Mamak and my Dad about my real husband. But I have my own reasons, I don't want my parents to be anxious, because Tommy is now cured and I think enough of my brothers know that.

On the way back to Indonesia, Tommy was mostly silent. Even after arriving at the apartment he went straight into his study. I dare not disturb him. I think he needs time to be alone.

I gave up and chose to rest. But I felt tired waiting for him in the room, he had been in his office for almost 3 hours. I wondered what my husband was doing lingering in the room. I walked into his study, I held the handle of the door but I had not opened it yet I heard the sound of crying from inside. My husband was crying over his ex.

Does Tommy still have feelings for her? Ahk, what kind of thought is that. I get all the bad thoughts about my husband.

I sat by the door of the room, waiting for Mas Tommy to come out of the room. It had been almost an hour I waited for him but Tommy did not come out of the room, until I realized when Mas Tommy lifted my body and laid me on the bed.

Tommy Pov's

Sandy's death took me by heart, the guilt she left behind hurt me so much. Why could he think so far. It was that deep wound I had inflicted on him that he took his revenge by killing himself in front of me. That night I couldn't sleep. I feel so guilty for my wife Roma. I know he was worried about me but I still wanted to be alone at the time.

I called Fernando, I remembered Zia saying that Fernando was Sandy's best friend.

"Hallo Fer, I'm sorry I interrupted your time" I said without further ado.

"No sir, is there anything I can help you with?" She asked me, I was confused what to say to her, but I had to make sure of it myself.

"Fer, I want you to answer all my questions honestly."

"What's up, sir? Please Tuan–, Mister want to ask what?"

"Are you really Sandy's best friend?" He was silent for a few seconds, after which his voice came back.

"Is Sandy okay, sir?" He didn't answer my question but he asked about Sandy. "I'm sorry, sir. I'll tell you the truth." He took his breath and exhaled it violently so that the sound of his breathing could be heard clearly in my ear.

"True, Sandy is my best friend sir. He also recommended me to work with you. But not for as his spy sir, he purely just wanted to help me, find a job for me. Because at that time he couldn't put me in his family's company because when the relationship broke with his family, he also just found out that he was gay. They knew when Mr. Tommy put him in jail. When he left his company just because he wanted to follow you to London."

"But why didn't you ever tell me that?" I wonder if there's any other intention Sandy helped her recommend my company to her.

"Sorry sir, that's Sandy's personal thing. Because it has nothing to do with the work so I did not tell you. Again forgive me, sir." His voice sounded sincere apologizing to me.

"When do you know our relationship?"

"I've known Sandy since Tuan High School, so I knew from the beginning of your relationship with her. She said that she felt happy because she finally had the same boyfriend as her. Even when she was injured because Mister preferred Miss Zia over her, back then she was also the story of Mister. But he was happy because Mister's marriage to Miss Zia was just a shield to cover up Mr.'s true relationship."

"And she began to get upset when Master ignored her and preferred Miss Roma. But the stabbing Miss Rome while in London was deliberately done because of her heartache to the Lord. I'm sorry, sir, because I didn't know you at the time and I didn't work with you, so I didn't know it was Miss Rome."

"I'm sorry, sir, actually the one who told you where your honeymoon is actually that I'm not Miss Zia. Because he wants to apologize to you." said Fernando explained how close his relationship with Sandy.

"It's too late Fer, he's not apologizing to me."

"I mean Sir?" Fernando was confused by my words.

"Sandy is dead."

"What Master? Sandy's dead?" Fernando was so surprised to hear that his best friend was gone.

"At this time his body is being brought by Zia and Ken back to Indonesia. I need you to accompany Ken to take care of his funeral needs. And if his family demands I'm willing to explain it in court." I also tell you all the events that happened when the shooting that started from his pugilism pointed a gun at Rome.

"Sir, actually Sandy came there in addition to apologizing he also wanted to say something to you" he said softly.

"Say what Fer?" I wonder what Sandy really wants to tell him.

"Sorry sir, I'm really sorry. I was confused whether I should say it or not." I'm getting curious about Fernando.

"Fer, quickly tell me not to make me more curious" I said with an impatient feeling.

"Sir, I'm sorry, but I don't deserve to say this. But since Sandy's gone, I have to say it before it's too late." It makes me even more curious.

"Quick say Fer–." I kept urging him to say something else what Sandy wanted to tell me.

"Sandy has HIV disease sir."

My heart seemed to stop for a moment, my lips could no longer speak. I could only listen to Fernando without commenting.

"Sandy only found out after doing his health check in Singapore last month. He contracted the disease from his partner before he was with Mr."

I fell on the floor, my world seemed to collapse. I imagine what the fate of my marriage to Roma the girl I just married even I have already married her.

"Sir, Tuan–." Fernando's voice called out to me continuously.

"Fer, I'll see you after I get back to Indonesia. And please don't tell anyone about Sandy's illness." I said firmly even though my heart was broken.

"All right, sir."

"Please help Ken take care of Sandy's funeral." I told him.

"Okay sir." said across the street and I immediately disconnected my phone call.

My legs were shaking, I had trouble standing. As hard as I could, I tried to stand up and I saw that my woman was fast asleep.

"What am I supposed to do with you deck?" My tears trickled down looking at the woman. "What should I do next?"

What if I also have the disease?

My mind's fucked up, I'm not sleeping at all. When he woke up I saw the anxiety on his face. I know he thinks that I'm worried about Sandy. But I'm actually very worried about him. How will my next relationship with him be.

"Oh my God, is this my punishment for being on the wrong road?"

I decided to take him back to Indonesia even though I knew he was very disappointed with my decision. My only goal is one, meet Fernando and do a medical checkup.

I ignored him, I was disgusted at myself, I wanted to get away from him. I feel like I'm a virus to be kept away from.

For hours I locked myself in my workroom crying over the fate of my life. I can't imagine if he knew that Sandy had the disease and what if it was in my body. "What should I do to this woman, Lord?" I look at our wedding photos that haven't even been a week.

I was destined not to get married. Is marriage a curse to me?

It was my first marriage that I hurt the woman I married just because I wanted to cover up my relationship with Sandy. I married Zia just to cover up that I'm actually gay.

And now that I am healed and repenting, what more trials has God given me now?

Should I divorce Rome to avoid that damned disease?

Should I go back to hurting the heart of the woman I love so much?

I miss that woman, I miss my wife.

I decided to get out of my study and how surprised I was to see him sitting on the floor until he fell asleep leaning against the wall next to the door of my workroom.

I lifted her up and I carried her up to our room. She squirmed half-consciously as I carried her.

I lay her body down quietly in bed, not wanting to wake her up.

But he opened his eyes.

"Mas–." she called me softly. I want to cry when I hear his voice. Should I hurt a woman this good?

"Sleep, you need to rest." That's all I can tell her.

I really want to hug her but I don't want to touch her for now.

"Mas, I want to be hugged?" the whining of his promise I couldn't resist.

I lay down next to him and I hugged him tightly. When he wanted to kiss me, I turned my face away and hid behind his head.

"Sleep baby, I'll always take care of you." I hugged her tightly not wanting her to be suspicious of the rejection I was making.

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