That is Fate
Decisions
"What am I?"
"God, alah... Answer dong bang"
"Emh, actually .. ana...."
The atmosphere became quiet, we are still faithfully waiting for the continuation of the speech Ustadz Sakha. Uh not us meaning , but I . I looked at him at a glance, like I was thinking about what answer he deserved.
'The answer may not disappoint, though,
' my inner...
A few minutes later...
"Ana also does not know in the future how, but clearly as an ordinary human being you can only hope according to what you want"
Wait, is that an answer? huh, what kind of answer is that? I am really not satisfied with the answer. That's not what I want, Ustadz!
"Well Bang, answer that for a long time, even until the remembrance of all again" said Cow suddenly.
'uh yes, right too' I murmured slowly.
echemm
Patul cleared his throat "You're a Cow, if you talk about it first oruh, well see Sasa so badmood tuh"
"Eh no, who's badmood ih loe mah sotoy (sook tau ) Tul" said my.
Wait, what's going on? why do I feel disappointed with ustadz Sakha? Gosh darn.
Ustadz Sakha glanced at me, thinking I didn't know that.
"Well, who wants to ask the deck?" he said it made me misbehave, how could he know there was an incongruity in my mind?
I shook .
The pipe that knew something was wrong immediately took the others a little away from us.
"Patul, Cattle and bang Fathan Kesana are now yok" Pipa said.
A moment later they were away from us, not so far away but could be sure they could not hear what we were talking about.
Yes, maybe it should be asked, I can't be constantly in this position .
"Eh wait, I'm coming" on a slightly high note.
Ustadz Fathan turned to "You tea there, finish what you have to finish, straighten what must be straight. About fish let us roast"
Right, we were planning to bake the fish, I forgot about it.
"Jeez, what a pity" I murmured slowly .
Now what am I supposed to do? Finally I could just step back and sit back to where I was.
"Are you angry with Brother?" ask her in silence.
I shook my head "Either bang, I don't know"
With a deep sigh I continued saying "Sometimes I feel special but sometimes I also feel foreign"
"meaning? Is this about----?"
I'm nodding. "I don't mind commitment, but I realize that as an ordinary woman I can't possibly be with a wonderful man, like my brother."
"Sir, what are you talking about? Don't take the dizzy talk of Umi earlier"
"It's not that easy Bang . Now, did you tell me about me with Umi Abi?"
Ustadz Sakha was silent.
"Then, did you really not know about the matchmaking of Brother?"
My question made Ustadz Sakha flinched, it was obvious that he was so shocked to hear it.
"Huffttt astaghfirullah" he muttered softly but I could still hear him.
I shook my head "Abang is not wrong"
"Honestly, Brother hasn't told Umi and Abi yet, then for your second-to-second question"
I smiled faintly "I already know the answer, Brother must have been betrothed. It's okay bang, I've prepared the heart just in case it gets broken"
"Sir, please.keep fighting for us"
"Until when is Ustadz Sakha? until Ustadz's wedding was announced?" I said quietly but stabbed her .
Ustadz Sakha was silent .
"Who's the lucky lady?"
Ustadz Sakha shook his head.
"She doesn't know who either. Sometimes you wonder about the fate of Brother, why should you? While Brother also has an older brother, but his fate is better because he is not trapped also in this bond"
"Where is he now?"
"Why are you asking him?"
"Either wrong?"
"Okay, Brother replied." then he let out a long sigh . "He became a lecturer at one of the universities in the city, Abang forgot the name of his university but obviously he was very lucky"
"meaning?"
"From the first time he was never set by Umi and Abi, what about his life choices still supported by Umi Abi, while Abang? education, ideals even for the criteria of prospective wives have been determined by them. Honestly, Brother actually can not bear the title of ustadz because sometimes Brother envies his own brother, funny huh?"
The deg!
My heart is sorry to see it, poor man in front of me but what can I do?
"Cong, istighfar. What parents do is best for their children.Well, if we are friends, God will bless us. Lf it doesn't? it's okay for me, because I'm proud of this feeling that ever stopped in my heart. You're a good man bang, too perfect for me this sinner"
"meaning? you want----"
"Let's bang, at least my heart is airy now that it knows everything "
I don't feel like my tears are just dripping.
"Without the deck, we have to fight for our blessing"
I smiled "Don't you know that God's blessing is also located at the Parents Rest? If parents don't approve, what about God?"
Ustadz Sakha was silent. Oh, my God, what am I doing? I advise a current Ustadz .
"I have a suggestion for Brother" Then I lyrically he at a glance "Babang better still explain our feelings eh meaning the feelings of Brother to parents Brother. If they approve, you can immediately ask for my parents' mobile number, and if not? Let this feeling remain in the heart. I personally won't force this feeling to go away, I'll just let him stay here until it stops on its own."
Then I stood up and walked two steps but I stopped when I felt there was less to say . "Oh yeah I never fell in love before even though I already had a boyfriend yesterday. If with yesterday I feel I got the wrong person, maybe for now I feel my heart is wrong . Honestly, my brother is my biggest heartbreak."
As I was leaving, suddenly
"Wait deck!"
"What's the bang?"
"Can we still be friends?"
I nodded "Still, but can't be too familiar, I have to make peace with fate.We can be friends like before we knew each other first. I deluan there yes. Assalamu'alaikum "
"Waalaikumussalam "goddler Ustadz Sakha.
I rejoined the others, I maximized to hold back my cries, and I tried to smile.
"Why you? safe?" Ask the cow when she is next to him.
"Yes, why are you? what's Bang Sakha doing?" this time the question is the pipe. Ustadz Fathan has been with Ustadz Sakha since I joined them.
Patul who had been silent since he came to me, right now I need a hug.
"Cry Sasa, wash everything" Patul said.