THE BEFORE WE DONE
Why Run From Me?

"Stay here." Nanda said as she sat with Regan and Ayla in the guest room.

"Well, I'll go back to the hotel to get a suitcase." Regan Sahut.

"why not this?" Nanda looked at Regan's cynical eyes.

"We're afraid you won't accept us, Nan." Answer Ayla.

"There's no way I'm letting you out there with Ryu. You guys are too reckless to take Ryu a long trip. How about Ryu get sick." Nanda started to nag.

"Ryu's father is a doctor, Nan. Although it's Obgyn's doctor, but Regan also understands the child's health."

Regan leaves Ayla and Ryu at Nanda's house, and returns to the hotel to pick up a suitcase, and Nanda's private driver delivers it.

"Who told you where I live?" Ask Nanda.

"Can you guess?" Instead of answering, Ayla asked back.

"I think it must be Robi's sister." Guess Nanda.

Ayla smiled, "Wrong!!"

Nanda scrunched his forehead, "Then who?"

"Om Ramli's. He wants me to keep you company."

"really?" Nanda asked unsure.

"You think I'm kidding? I also didn't expect that Om Ramli would tell me, I thought that Robi's sister would tell me, but she just said that you'd come for her wedding."

"You're too reckless, Ay. Why do you want to kill yourself in front of Kak Robi, don't you think of Ryu as well as Regan?"

"Ryu still has Regan and Regan will survive because of Ryu. But you're only Nan alone, I can't allow that."

"Why Ay?"

"The color where Nanda is, there's Ayla, and vice versa. That's what Papa slalu told me."

"You don't hate Papa?"

Ayla shook her head, "How can I hate Papa, while Papa who is slalu is there when I'm sick, takes care of me, takes care of me, and I feel Papa's sincerity, not from her guilt, but it was Papa's heart that was so good."

Ayla was silent for a moment.

"Why Papa thinks I'm gonna hurt you and you're finally leaving me. Don't you know Nan, I was so worried about you when you decided to go alone. Me and Regan can't figure out why you don't think we're your family."

"I'm just not ready, Ay."

"Yes, you're not ready because you're just preparing for the breakup without facing it. If I had known when you gave me that necklace as a sign of goodbye, I would have locked you up."

They were silent for a long time, until Ayla finally spoke again.

"I'll stay here until you're ready to go home." Ayla said as she sipped her lemon tea.

Nanda was a little surprised but remained calm, "I won't be back again."

"Then I'll stay here too."

Nanda sighed, "Then what is Regan's job? It's not easy working as a health worker in this country."

"I'm going to LDR with Regan, maybe Regan will be here once a year. It's easy."

"Oh..!!"

"Your mother..!! Whatever happens I will be with you. Regan's allowed it."

"Aye.. You're married, your life should be with your husband."

Ayla rolled her lazy eyeballs, "Don't argue with me, if you don't agree I'm far away from Regan, then you should come with me home. We live together in Papa's house."

"I'm not ready to go home, Ay."

"Then let me stay here with you." Ayla stood up from her seat, "Where is my room? I want to put Ryu to bed."

Nanda mendeesah. If Ayla has spoken do not dispute it, it's a sign Ayla does not want to argue anymore and her decision is final.

Believe me, the magic word Ayla was able to make Nanda no longer dare to refute it.

Ayla who is usually patient, will be fierce if it has issued its magic word.

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Regan and Ayla have been in Amsterdam for three days, but Nanda has not revealed his decision, he is still weighing whether to go home or stay in the country he likes.

If Nanda chooses to stay, then Ayla will stay and that means Ayla and Regan will be LDR, while Nanda does not have the heart to see Regah far from Ayla and Ryu.

But if Nanda chooses to go home, he is afraid to meet Pras, even though in his heart he so misses the father of the fetus he conceived.

Nanda is simply not ready to get married and join Pras and meet his parents. Nanda just doesn't want to get in touch with Irwan Budianto's family. Without Nanda knowing, forever he will continue to be in touch with the family, because inevitably, Ayla and the fetus that he conceived also flow Irwan Budianto blood.

"What are you afraid of Nan? You're not like Nanda I used to know. Even the teacher you used to fight, why now do you seem to be hiding?" Regan's voice broke Nanda's daydream sitting on the floor.

Nanda glanced at Regan then looked forward again, "Where's Ayla?"

"Some, you're putting Ryu to sleep in the room." Regan answered and sat down with Nanda.

Nanda smiled with a blank look ahead, "I was so brave because there was Papa in my life, Papa who was ahead if I was hurt, therefore I was so brave and confident."

"Didn't you consider me and Ayla? Does our existence have any effect on your life?"

Nanda sighed, "If Papa doesn't make trouble with Ayla's family, maybe I won't avoid it like this, Re. I was just afraid to see Ayla hate me, so I decided to leave."

"But in fact Ayla doesn't hate you nor does Papa."

Nanda nodded, "Ayla is so good as Papa, Ayla should be Papa's son."

"Now, what's your decision? You're gonna stay here? Your son needs a father figure."

"I'm sure I can raise him alone, like Papa can raise me without a wife. I'll prove, being a single parent isn't bad."

"Your problems and Papa's problems are different, Papa raised you alone because your Mama died, people will sympathize with you who do not have a mother." Regan sighed for a moment then continued talking back. "While your case, your son was born out of wedlock, what would people value, Nan? There is no sympathy, only the scorn of even the bullying your son will get."

Nanda thought for a moment, what Regan said was 100% true, Nanda did not think that way, what if the child later in the bully just because he did not have a clear father, he said, even if someone insulted him out of wedlock.

I can't imagine if that happened.

"What do I do, Re?" Nanda asked confusedly.

"You know the answer, Nanda. Don't lie to yourself."

Regan rubbed her face, "Your mind won't open if I'm not fierce to you."

"I'll stay here forever, so Ayla can stay here and leave you alone." Nanda ketus.

Regan rubbed her eyes, "Don't mess with me Nan."

Nanda stood up from her seat, "Biarin.. Weekk." Nanda stuck out her tongue, as if she was rubbing Regan.

Suddenly, Nanda looked at someone she was not ready to meet.

Regan who saw Nanda who was suddenly silently staring, then looked at the direction seen by Nanda.

"Oh my God, Mas Pras." Regan tries to calm Nanda down, she embraces him.

"Leave us both, Re." Pras said while looking at Nanda.

"Sorry, Mas. But I can't leave Nanda." Regan pulls Nanda to the back of her body.

Ayla came out and was surprised to see Pras' whereabouts. "Mas Pras."

"You can't tell me where Nanda is."

"Mas isn't it, I just don't want Nanda to be depressed."

Pras stared intently at Ayla, "I want to make her happy, not suppress her."

"She, we understand, but wait until Nanda is ready." Regan Sahut.

"You'll never be ready if you're not forced."

"Enough." Nanda suddenly said.

"You want to talk, let's talk."

"Dutch, are you sure?" Ayla asked very gently.

Nanda looked into Ayla's shady eyes, "Don't I have to face this?"

Ayla nodded, "Yes this must be faced. Call me if you need me, speak from the heart of heart, I know you won't make a decision if it's not good."

Nanda smiled and nodded, then Nanda approached Pras, "Come with me."

"Mas." Call Ayla when Pras passes Ayla, and Pras pauses in front of Ayla.

"Don't hurt Nanda, I love her so much, don't make me hate Mas for hurting Nanda." Ayla's words were full of pleas.

"Do you think Mas will hurt the woman that Mas pursued so far? Even in his heart there is now my son."

Ayla shook her head, "I believe Mas."

Nanda invited Pras to a slightly closed family room.

Unexpectedly, Pras immediately approached Nanda and kissed her brutally, Nanda who was unprepared but missed Pras was unwittingly returning Pras' kiss, they shed this slama longing.

"Eumpph." Nanda pushed Pras' chest, when he felt oxygen depleted.

Pras took it off, their eyes stared at each other, then Pras' thumb rubbed the rest of the salivary on Nanda's lips.

"Why run from me?" Soft question.

"It wasn't me who ran away from you, it was you who let me go." replied Nanda.

Pras was silent, Nanda's answer made his heart throb bitterly, Pras was wrong to let Nanda go that night, even worse, Pras did not defend Nanda at all in front of Irwan who was cornering Nanda.

"Sorry." One word came out of Pras' lips.

"I'm sorry." Pras felt Nanda was disappointed in him.

"You can be angry, but don't run from me." Say again.

Nanda stared fixedly at Pras' eyes, seeing the earnestness in the eyes of the person who planted the seeds in his diahim.

"Go home, Mas. We are not fools." Ogre Nanda.

Pras was surprised to hear Nanda say, "You didn't forgive me?"

"I forgive you, it's just that we can't be together."

"Why? In your womb there's my son, I'll take responsibility."

Nanda shook his head, "No Mas, I won't sue you for anything. Let this child take care of me. You still have Disya, you still have a family, and I only have this baby. Let this baby be with me."

Pras sighed, "You haven't forgiven me!!"

"I've forgiven you, Mom. Really." Sergey Nanda.

"Why did you tell me to leave?"

"My father hurt your parents too much, and your parents couldn't possibly accept me."

"Mommy accepts you." Pras answered quickly.

Nanda shook his head, "Your father hates my Papa, and your Papa also hates me, there's no way I can stay with the one who hates me."

"I'll get out of the house and bring Disya to live with you."

Nanda shook her head. "Don't. I don't want to make you the son of a dissident and abandon your parents."

"Nanda please, let's get married. I won't take you to live with my parents if you're uncomfortable. I can visit them every day, but we can stay together." Pras continued to convince Nanda.

"Mas, I've had a failed marriage, my ex-husband's unfinished past, so hurt my feelings. I don't want to repeat making you choose between me and your parents, however much blood is thicker than water, I'm sure one day I will have to give up. Before that happens, I'd rather back off."

Pras patience is over, Pras holds both Nanda shoulders and looks her in the eyes. "We will get married, I will take responsibility for our son, I will not force you to stay in my house, wherever you live, I will follow. No more rejection."

Nanda sighed, "You're the same Ayla, glad to force me."

"Your color will not obey if it is not forced."

Nanda just kept quiet, really now he can't run anymore. Nanda's only hope is one, he does not want to fall into the same hole, failed in marriage.

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