
Two years passed, too,
I finally went through a time of suffering in detention. The prisoners also treated me like their slave.
Every mistake they make, I will be blamed until I have no chance to explain it.
That means I'm taking the punishment.
Please someone pity me.
Right in front of the prisoner gate, I only let out a long sigh and was unable to say a word after being released from prison.
And I didn't do anything.
Once again my head turned and looked at the building standing behind me.
"I can't believe an innocent man like me is tormented in that place, I'm not even quoted."
Even though I was released, no one welcomed my return, only the sound of the wind blowing on me.
(The sound of wind blowing - woshhh.).
Suddenly my family crossed my mind, as I remember there was no news from them either it met me in prison.
Do they really know this?
Or...they worry about me?
I seem to worry about him too much.
When the night was approaching, I was standing in front of the mansion. I don't know why my body is shaking home.
Ahhh, that's because that family never accepted me as his family especially my mother.
Except the one who loves me is my father.
Even though my father was very fond of me, still I did not dare to express my heart.
You could say I was quiet and sensitive talking.
"I'm home." While opening the door.
Unfortunately, the door was locked. I was surprised, and then my hand knocked on the door.
(Tok-tok-tok)
"It's me, please open the door!" My tone is a little harsh.
No response, I tried again to get someone to open the door immediately.
"When today is my homecoming, why has no one welcomed me home." My inner.
The door finally opened and showed my mother welcoming me.
My face felt stiff and tense looking at my mother looking disappointed.
"I-i.go home, ma'am..." Stuttered me.
Mother's gaze became sharper, without saying welcome me. His hand grabbed quickly slapping my cheek.
I was stunned by this slap, my eyes were teary and of course I was shocked, then looked at my mother again.
"Go there!" Mom cried.
"Why?..." Ask me.
"...why? I'm your daughter, ma'am. A mother shouldn't treat her child like this much less throw me out, I just got free, ma'am!"
My tone sounded out loud, it felt sick of having to be relentless. This time I have to dare to ask the reason the family did not accept me.
Mother was really angry with my words sounding defiant and disrespectful.
"Children like you are not worthy of this family because of you..."
Suddenly she became silent and realized her words were almost thrown away.
I was wondering, "because of what, ma'am?"
"Please, ma'am, did you hide anything from me?" Force me.
"Enough! I can't stand you anymore, you've humiliated the Ayaka clan due to your behavior outside and it's spread!"
My mother ignored my question.
"You even harmed that honorable man to the point of disability."
That incident 2 years ago had ruined Hayaka's surname because of me. And it spread everywhere including the Ayaka clan.
Of course, mother felt her pride had been tainted by me.
But at least the mother trusts her daughter.
I convinced him, "That's not true ma'am! Please believe me ma'am, it's all just a misunderstanding!"
When I tried to persuade her by touching my mother's shoulder, I didn't hesitate to pull her off.
"Never touch my mother!" Rigorously.
I stammered, my two brothers also appeared and wondered what was the storm outside until my mother sounded so angry.
"Aren't you back?" Said Mina, my youngest sister.
Both of my sisters have grown up, I am a little relieved they are healthy and fine.
"Shein, Mina...."
"Why did a new sister show up ?" Tanya Mina looked disappointed looking at me.
I'm wondering, "Huh?"
"Sister, I'm gone!" Mina said
I don't know what face to face to hear my youngest brother say, as if I can't accept losing my only father who loves me.
I really don't believe that!
"W-what? Whatdidyou say..? A-dad...is gone..?"
"Mom, tell me, what Mina said is true? Is dad dead?"
I tried to confirm the answer from mother, mother's face was already stiff and her eyes were slightly red trembling looking at me.
"Go there!" While pushing me down to the ground.
Mom pushed me, but I still didn't give up.
"Mom, please answer me ma'am!"
"Yes that's right! It's all because of you!" It seems like my mother is tired of me too.
I was so discouraged just my tears kept whimpering. My face bowed and wept, mother and Mina walked in leaving me.
Mom really kicked me out, I don't believe I have to face this suffering.
And this time, I have lost such a good father figure to me. And not a single word was revealed from my heart to my father.
"I'm sorry, dad.sorry me...."
I'm tormented.
Shin was still left staring at me. He slowly approached me.
Then hugging me, this was the first time my little brother had given me warmth.
"I'm sorry." Said Shin.
"Forgot that, tell me what happened?"
Shin looked at me with attention,
"So you're gone, I'm lonely and worried you're not coming home, and that's why I had a heart attack and died."
I really suck at not thinking about how worried my father was about me. It's my fault for not telling her what happened back then.
"You okay in that custody?" Shin's worried.
I think I need to stay away from this question,
"I have to go." My reason for standing back.
Shin was even able to read my movements.
"Your habit is to shy away from my questions."
I got caught, "Sorry..."
For the time being I was at a loss to answer what my circumstances were, it was like the world had betrayed me.
"Then where are you going?" Ask Shin.
"Of course."
I was forced to leave this house for my own good so as not to tarnish my mother's surname.
"Good bye."
So small to find happiness, starting from my age at Junior High to High School and working part-time. There was no feeling of happiness in my mind, only thousands of wounds piled up in my mind.
I thought my suffering was over.
"Saori!?" Shouted Shin calling me.
My step stayed in place and let her talk.
"I understand what pain is like in your mind, but I think you're my best brother who's trying to hold it strong."
"I really want to help you, unfortunately I can't..."
I let out a long sigh, holding my tears down and looking back.
My lips smiled fakely looking at Shin, though,
"Then, please just support me Shin."
"Yes, I support you." The reply.
I continued my steps and slowly...
My tears whimper.
(crying.)
I wish the rain would come soaking in me because it would help me scream out loud.
So that my cry will not be heard by anyone.
********