The Circles of Life
Plasteredness

Mama started talking, her sobs are still being heard.

"Zakiyah, if one day mama died because of papa's murder, you ask khair run to grandma's house...! you report to grandma"

"mama don't say that. I don't want you to die, you can't die..."

"you know? last night my mom almost died because of him, last night my mom's head was rolled up with this thick blanket" mama explained while showing her the thick blanket that was beside her. "mama shortness of breath feels, it feels like, thrashing ronta is also useless, papa's body is big and stocky, there is no way mama can fight your papa" mama cried again.

"did you see the mosquito repellent spray in that corner? he tried to kill the mama using it, just as he sprayed it into the face of mama, mama felt dizzy, so mama shouted, so if mama died anyone knows, otherwise, mama was afraid that the body of mama was thrown away and the children of mama were abandoned"

my mom hugged me and we cried.

"ma, why don't we just run away? " many of me expectantly.

"mama used to run away many times, but your father always had a way to find mama, until finally mama desperate.mama confused, she often tormented mama, mama, if she doesn't want to be with you anymore, why doesn't she let you go?

when you were pregnant, your father was caught cheating, there was someone who took you out he said he wanted to tell you something, then mama was invited to a place and there mama witnessed the behavior of your father who was very unakhlaq.

at that time mama ran away from home, mama went far away, but she could find mama in a few days, mama brought home again, and then until home tortured"

"mm, what's cheating? "my question really doesn't know.

mama is in again, stroking my hair.

"forgive me, son, you shouldn't have told me this story to you, you're outrageous, you shouldn't make you burdened, you're too young to listen to all this, you're too young to listen to all this, but mama has no one else but you to share the story.if mama told your grandmother, your grandmother would not listen to mama, because mama is very disobedient, because mama is very disobedient, do not want to take the advice of parents, fight and others.

mama knows actually sometimes you do not understand what story mama told, but the story to you makes mama rather calm. forgive mama yes son...! "😖

I always feel the sadness of my mother, although sometimes I do not understand anything, but see parents crying oppressed, who is not depressed child

the sound of tears then surprised us, the mother immediately carried the khair, in a sling of the khair felt comfortable, she was silent. then the mother bathed the khair and took care of the khair only silent, from the first very quiet, khair, unlike other young children, should his fair share at the same time talk a lot, ask a lot, spoiled a lot, but khair no, he always accept whatever happens with silence, he always accepts, if she was afraid, she would cry.

sometimes when I'm bored and want to play, I force the passion to play a doll, I don't care if he's a boy or not, which is clear I want to play a doll.

I have a lot of small dolls, usually when playing dolls, we make palace, then war, every khair war cannot win, he must pretend to lose, he must pretend to lose, otherwise I'll leave him alone and play to the neighbor's house.

hehe, I didn't realize I used to be that bad to khair.

"let's get ready, let's go to Grandma's house. "take mama. "get ready ma".

we walked to grandma's house, except for khair, I'm sorry why she always asks for a sling, kasian mama, huuuft.

The trip was a bit far, we took a break at a stall, we bought bread and drinks glasses.

"i'm tired of bangeeeet"

At the grandma's house, we kissed the grandmother's hand, the grandma looked happy we visited, we were invited to eat in front of the TV, we had fun, happy together, I wonder why mama did not tell what to grandma, what to granny, even look very happy, even though if mama told me, I think grandma can help.

I play with her sister mama, she's 2 years above me, she's only been in elementary school this year, her name is Livia, I call her uncu.

Uncu is very good, if I play at his house he always gives toys. Despite the defender, we often play drama daramaan, imitating the film we have watched, we have seen, we can memorize exactly the word and style of speech, sometimes we also play land behind the house, until scolded by grandma, or we take a bath together while playing crimpan krimbatan use regular shampoo.

uncu dear to me, every time I play there he always tell nginap. tonight we sleep at grandma's house, I sleep together to the back room, before sleeping we play salonan salon.

khair, she must have slept with mom. hmh 😤

At night, when my mother slept I was to sit at the dinner table, long chat, I was talking about papa, not keceplosan also the truth, actually, my mom never told me not to tell my grandma, then my grandmother asked me questions and continued until the details, when the story I felt guilty because my mom never told me...

grandma then went to the room and stroked my hair, then mom jerked, saw grandma teary eyes mamun wake up, "why am I crying? "ask mom. "why has Aini never told me the same story? so that's what Aini's been through all this time? you've been with him for five years, why haven't you ever told me? so your body bruised because of him? why are you giving me a strange reason2?"

mama saw me and uncu in front of the door, I was afraid of getting scolded, finally I ran to the back room, and to follow.

Morning day~

I cried in my room and was pacified.

"I'm afraid to be scolded by mama ncuu" said I was afraid to uncu. "don't ko.. ko.. niku.. mama is not angry" said uncu to calm me.

"uncu is not school? "

"on Sunday, yok play, do not cry continuously, ama uncu said if the cry continues later can come out maggots from his eyes"

I was not in the mood to play and I decided to go to sleep, I was still afraid of being scolded by my mother.

Outside, uncu, grandma, mother, mama, and khair are having breakfast. Teta, the aunt who woke me up told me to have breakfast, but I pura just slept because I was not ready to hear what my mom would say later if I met her, some time when my mother woke me up to breakfast, I immediately woke up worriedly, "let's have breakfast"

I just frowned and came out of the room, I saw there everyone had red eyes, 'like I've made them all cry' I sat down, mother gave me a glass of tea and some bread that was still wrapped, heddeh... 😓