The Circles of Life
There's no other choice
SMS FROM :0812\-\\\-\\.
" If you want me to return the children, you have to go home, if you don't go home, the children I won't return, I let your children cry, cry, I have no money, no children you eat, add long you at home ama, add long children you do not eat, quickly go home before your children die. "
06.15 Cents, 07 August 200*
"ma. " complained mama to grandma while looking at the SMS she received from papa, grandma took the phone and read it, then read it,
"do we have to call the police?" ask grandma to try to give a solution, then,
"don't ma... Aini must go home to bang ibrahim" replied the mother with a tone of no hope.
"why? how do you still want to turn him back on? that much love you are with him...? open your eyes, ain! if it's just a child problem, we can submit to the police on behalf of child abduction, you don't have to reverse the same..! you are not alone, look around you, ama always condemning you.
even though no matter what you care about, there is your om who always protects you. You should not be blinded to his love, he is really a hypocrite, a coward! " grandmother was angry to hear the decision of mama who wanted to turn home to papa.
"ma. aini instead of blinded her love, this is a decision that you can take so as not to disobey who, you do not know..
in the past, aini have often run away from the house, used to be fitting to say the same we want to walk to his brother bang ibrohim's house outside the city, it's actually a lie, it's a lie, actually aini went from home, aini went to the house of friends aini, never also aaini work to Padang panjang so far from him, still he could find aini, no matter how he, he, whether for what he was wearing, last time he ran away from home, aini went to the police station, aini clearlyin all his treatment to aini, first pas aini story, then, the police listened and nanggepin his story aini, but pas aini call his name and gave his identity bang ibrohim, the police began to off guard, they did not nanggepin aini anymore.
the police trus told him to wait in the waiting room, a few minutes after that ibrahim dateng, aini did not expect it turned out that the police were conspiring with him.
once also fit aini escaped he wanted to burn the house ama, so aini had to go home again.
for now, aini has no choice maa, this is already about children aini, aini must go home to the house of ibrahim, aini do not want to take too big a risk if aini do not go home soon, he said, aini did not want to squirm the corpse of his son aini who died of hunger, 😭"
*Eventually my mom told me everything she always felt, all the burdens she bore by just telling her little son without being able to do anything*,,, etc*,,
"I'm sorry for not knowing your suffering.why don't you ever tell me the same thing..? maybe if zakiyah did not tell the same story, I would not know until now.. "
"makasih ma.. ama all this time is a place aini complain any problem, but for this problem, aini feel not pantes ngadu same ama,, because this all happened because aini nurutin said ama first... "😭
SMS FROM :0852\-\*\*\*\*\-\*\*\*\*.
"Bang, I'm home, take the kids home now"
the message went to papa's phone, that afternoon we were still on the road that I did not know where, whether what papa went to, either****wood forest on the top of the mountain there, or, I don't know what the bottomless pit is on its side.
A few hours later this car came out of the strange, unfamiliar route, and then I found a familiar road and the car sent us home.
by 16:30 we were home..
"mamaaayah!" I shouted happily when I saw my mother at home, Khair ran towards my mother and hugged her.
Almost a year, my life goes like that, papa rarely comes home, every return angry anger is not clear, if midnight goes again, mama is often beaten, I go to school and khaaair....
he was at home watching people's activities.
The difference is, this year my grandmother often went to my house, maybe because she was worried about all of us.
but don't think in our silence, we just give up, oh no...
mama is also a smart person, after one wrong step many times, each next step will be more careful, steps that have passed become a lesson for him.
right now, for us to live like a game, and papa as a hindrance, if we lose, we will start all over again, mama always make plans with me, emang only had it, but said mama, although still small, fortunately I could be invited to compromise.
but at that time, my weakness was that if papa promised to buy food or take the road, I could forget the strategy that had been promised, sometimes when invited by papa the road, I could forget, I even feel sorry for all our strategies that will leave papa, yes, naturally, when I was a child, easily changed my mind, easily brainwashed, etc.
sometimes this is also what makes mama undo the intention to go from papa, when all the plans are ready and just leave, even I do not want to go with mama.
mama wants to be patient waiting for me to mature a little so that I understand what is good and what is bad, not just relying on who is able to grant my request, if so, then, obviously mama is not able to comply with my request this is it, because mama is not much money.
mama wants to endure all the torture until I want to come with mama go, mama knows I do not want to come with mama because I have not been able to give a decision for myself, if I go with mama how, if I go with papa how...
I'm so grateful that my mom would wait for me to grow up a little, if she only thought about herself, maybe she would go out with me and leave me with my dad.
"Zachikiyah! come wake...! you're late for school! today there is a race..."
my eyes immediately sparkled as my mom said "there's a race today"
I'm so excited today, I'm in a singing contest, I want to wear the best clothes, I want to win in this loba.....😊
//naturally fasionshow, wearing the best clothes to win...😒🙈//
The smell of lifebuoy fragrance stuck fresh in my body that morning mixed with the aroma of burning spirit, I was very excited, because the race was only for the show filler, and I was very excited, and the real event was our graduation carnafal.today was my last day having fun while studying at this school, and soon I will be wearing a red and white uniform..😊🇲🇨🇲🇨🇲🇨