THE DEVIL'S LOVER
Part 22's. Barbados 7's

More fluid talk later, he said what he knew about this place. For this I trust him. As he said, this place is his pride. So obviously he can be a good guide.

The show finished at almost 9, we went back to the room. Sleeping hours are long. I went to the bathroom changed into a T-shirt and comfortable cotton pants.

I don't like having a room with him, uncomfortable, thinking maybe he's reckless, or whatever he thinks.

I had a bad experience when I first had a boyfriend in college, maybe me and him stiff lack of experience, he was rude, I did not enjoy at all the sessions that he said should be full of screaming kenikm*that atan. There I feel forced to be the one to handle him having to take something out in his body. It's painful and I want to push it away right away.

The relationship was short, we broke up just a few moments later. I entered the workforce, I was busy pursuing a career, I had no time for a personal life, when I had a relationship lover shortly because I was more concerned with my work. Being a junior assistant in the early years is full of time-consuming petty work.

And again I was unlucky about this in two other short dates. I didn't enjoy it. I guess it's because I'm too fixated on a painful first experience. Or they suck, I don't want to blame others or blame myself. Maybe I'm what people say is a cold woman aka frigid, I don't like the physical relationship that people describe as very pleasant. Finally I quickly asked for a break up from another lover rather than me not enjoying it.

The drama of love frankly makes me tired. I enjoy my own life more with my mother and sisters. They can take me on vacation and I don't need any emotional adjustment to anyone else. Well even though Mom always asked me what when to get married.

I feel uncomfortable with people who look too national*t like David. A lot of bad thoughts about him, maybe it's been 7 years on my own. When I saw David deliberately teasing me, I was obviously not comfortable. Nothing on my mind one night stand. I'm afraid something like that happens.

Now I don't regret carrying this long wool sweater. There's no winter here, but this sweater makes me feel safe tonight.

When I came out David looked at me in wonder.

"No."

"Why are you wearing a winter sweater?"

"It's cold, and it's pretty windy outside. I want to take a walk." I managed to find a reason that made at least some sense. Although actually as cold as AC in the tropics is still normal for us.

"Where do you want? I'm with."

"No need. I go alone okay."

I closed the door quickly. Just want to be alone. The beach bar should be open until night. I can take a walk looking around.

Before long I had sat down on my own a chair while ordering a cocktail and snacks. Beach bar is quite crowded, yes I know the rooms are filled to the brim because of this wedding. It seems that the guests also do not want to sleep too early like me.

I was sitting at a table at the end of the restaurant itself, the beach can still be seen there is a floodlight that leads to it. So something can still be seen.

I love the quiet atmosphere of sitting alone, no matter I'm alone. People with introverted personalities like me can enjoy their own prayers. No need for other people to talk, just sitting quietly by themselves they can feel happy.