The Girl With
Girl With [Silent ] #1

All the traits and attitudes you do are taboo and gray.

I don't even know which woman you love. I don't even know which woman you really care about.

Sometimes, I think it's me.

But sometimes I think it's him.

And sometimes, I think that it's him...

...•••...

July in 2022. Precisely in the financial administration of the school, the place where I first met you. I thought, it was just a fleeting encounter that would be a memory and wishful thinking. I thought, after that we'd go back to being strangers and not say hello.

But fate says something else, yes.

Either God put me in the same class or vice versa, which I obviously never thought we would be in the same class.

In the past, I could only look at you far away. I am so ashamed to greet you, unless you speak to me first. Your smiling face, your nature as if not afraid of anything and anyone, also your figure that always makes others feel comfortable when near you. Again, the way you protect someone in your own way, and the way you say that makes everyone calm down and listen.

All of that made my admiration exceed his capacity. Making my feeling of admiration slowly turn into an inexplicable feeling. I guess, a feeling of liking?

Unfortunately, it's not just me. A lot of other girls like you, and that doesn't give me enough confidence. Even at first, I wanted to throw that hope away, and bury it deeply.

But, do you remember?

A task that requires us to go to a museum in groups?

A feeling that I had buried deeply, but seemed to grow back through the soil watered by rainwater.

I don't really remember the details of what happened that day. What I clearly remember is that the figure and behavior you were doing slowly almost captivated my whole heart, or perhaps the whole girl who was there at the time?

Even so, I feel a little sorry for you. You are very protective of everyone around you, you really care about the interests of others rather than yourself.

Wh why?

I wonder, what makes you like that?

In fact, I still remember clearly. You were willing to barely show up in the video recording, just because you felt bad about asking the other members for help.

Hey Rian, asking others for help is natural. You don't have to push yourself to please others.

If someone else is happy, then you?

You know, sometimes you have to think about yourself. No, it's not selfish. Sometimes you need your own attention too.

No, I'm not forbidding you to care about other people. But, think about it. There is someone who deserves your attention and help, but there is also someone who you deserve to ignore.

Someone who doesn't give you any reciprocity. Someone who can only rely on you without trying. Someone who only troubles you.

They don't deserve your care. Rian, please, think about yourself once in a while. I know, the person you're hiding is much more in need of it all.