
Everyone basically wants to be admired. Attracting people's attention and making yourself a model for others is something that can make us proud. However, sometimes people forget that not all the views that are directed towards it are positive. I mean, not everyone likes it when we get better at something.
Sometimes it is not a feeling of admiration that arises in others, but a negative feeling that will actually backfire on ourselves. That's the feeling of 'envy'. Jealousy is something dangerous so it is not surprising that it is incorporated into the seven great sins of man.
Jealousy is like a small spark that can ignite other negative traits. Yes, I had experienced it ten years ago when my family was devastated by jealousy.
I've always wondered what exactly the crimes our family committed that we deserve this fate. It was just revenge that took hold of me. It was like the itchy, hot feeling I wanted to vent to the bad guys who had made me this way.
But as time went on I realized that everything was not that simple. If only.. Yes, if only I could avenge this man who destroyed my family, would it all end there?
I'm too naive. It's too simple I think about it. It had never crossed my mind before what those who would side with my opponent would do when they found out that I was taking revenge. Is not it clear, they will definitely retaliate until finally it will become a vicious circle that is not broken. It would only end until one of the parties was completely obliterated. So that's why I thought and thought again about what I should do with this pain in my heart.
Ten years passed. Once while I was visiting a cafe to clear my mind with a cup of black coffee, I heard something interesting there.
"The Ichiji conglomerate family?"
As soon as the name was mentioned, the flames of vengeance that had been lingering in the depths of my heart instantly flared. I put my ears on carefully listening to the conversation of a male customer and a barista at the cafe.
This year the only daughter of Ichiji's family will attend Golden Star Academy. It was an elite school with super complete facilities and a special education system. So filled their initial conversation.
'Golden Star Academy?'
At first I felt it was not something important because a poor person like me had no hope of getting into such an elite school. My ears warmed up after hearing the next part.
"Say the school also accepts students from the special line."
"Oh, really?"
"Yes, but the test must be tough. If you can get away, they'll send you to school for free."
"Heeh.it's impossible. Those who escaped from the common path alone were no ordinary people, plus they also had to be able to pay right? Elite children like them are only through public channels. I can't imagine what kind of kid could escape that special path."
"That's how even I've heard the odds of escaping that particular path are just below zero point one percent."
"Small little?!"
"The food that escapes from that particular path will also receive a special nickname. The school called it.. Irregular."
My heart is pumping like a fully gas-fired car piston. Here goes! Finally comes the moment I've been waiting for where I can connect with that bastard Ichiji family.
I rushed out of the cafe. Even though I am not looking in the mirror right now, I can feel both ends of my lips drawn upwards. My face right now is definitely smiling widely.
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The cloudy sky above did not rain a single drop. The air felt a little cold as I descended in front of the bus stop that was in front of the gate of Golden Star Academy. If I pay attention again this school is really close to the word 'crazy'. Why is there someone who is so intent on making the school as big and luxurious? Whoever he is is certainly not a normal person considering that none of the information about its founder can be accessed.
The moment I stepped into the main gate suddenly appeared two large-bodied guards blocking my path.
"This is not a common area, it is forbidden to enter carelessly!"
"I'd like to sign up for a special selection."
"What brings you here?"
"I told you, I'm here for a special selection!"
I replied firmly, but the two guards did not respond. They kept their bodies in front of the door with an aura of intimidation that seemed enough to make a boy cry.
At first glance it might seem like they are underestimating me. Either it's because I don't look like a rich man or I don't look like a smart man. In essence, they seem to have known the contents of the book only from the cover.
People who act on their emotions and feelings may be offended immediately. But if you pay attention again carefully, it feels like there is something else hidden from the sentence and their procedures for acting it.
'Bidden to enter carelessly.'
That's what was said earlier, so let's try to see who isn't that random person. I was standing in front of the observing gate since earlier so I had already seen quite a number of people passing by. Some of those carrying identification tags were immediately allowed to enter. Some who carry a cover letter must undergo several examination procedures.
After observing that I realized that it turns out we need an identification or a cover letter to be able to enter. Now, where can I get one of those two things? While I was thinking seriously, suddenly a voice broke my concentration.
"Ah.. Tie my hair!"
A sheet of white cloth seemed to float in the wind towards me. It made me jump up and grab it before it flew too far.
"Thank God, profit is not far away."
A woman approached me. Those wide eyes with deep black irises looked at me deeply. Her thin lips in bright pink then smiled. The silence came and time seemed to stop until the wind blew back, making his long night black hair dance under the light of the day sun.
"Is this yours?"
"Yes mine. Thanks a lot. It's almost gone."
He answered with great relief.
Usually I don't care about the fate of others because all this time other people treat me like that. But this particular time might be another story because what I did earlier was purely a reflex.
He then put his hair together with both hands and tied it with a white cloth. I was quite amazed by his shrewdness that could tie his hair so easily and neatly.
"Oh, so that's a hair tie?"
"Yes even if it's just this cloth, but I like it."
He smiled with satisfaction along with a ribbon knot that had been neatly tied behind his head. This was the first time I met a strange woman. The familiarity that this person exuded was so unusual that it scared me a little.
'I'm a stranger, why is he even familiar?'
The question echoed in my head. As an introvert, meeting people who have the opposite of my nature is indeed something that is a little difficult to accept with common sense.
"You want this school entrance test too?"
The woman's question got me back to the main topic.
"That's how, I'd like to try the selection specifically."
The woman's expression turned astonished like she had just heard something so absurd.
"Is that weird what I just said?"
"Clearly strange. Part of that special selection seems to have not been applied. Maybe it was just a school lie because every time someone asked about it they never gave any answer. Yeah, it feels like the information on that particular exam never existed."
"Why don't you go to the general selection?"
I was silent for a moment hearing that question. It felt like I wanted to dodge or change the topic, but seeing her expression that seemed so innocent and curious finally left me no other choice.
"Money. I don't have money for this expensive school."
Hearing my difficult answer seemed to make him realize that he had asked something inappropriate. He panicked and tried to comfort me.
I'm sure he's from a family that's. The shadow of the economic situation where a person cannot afford to pay for school never seems to be imagined in his mind.
"What a ga. The reason I'm here isn't for education either."
"Freaky kok? Not that people come here because they want to go to the best school."
"For normal, yes. Unfortunately I have a complicated reason."
I felt a little sad after saying that. Silence struck us before he finally spoke.
"Oh yeah, I've heard!"
'"He said at each new student welcome event the number of students admitted that year will be announced. Surprisingly, it was not only the number of students of the general pathway that was announced. They also announced the number of students of the special track where every year, the number was always zero."
Just now it was a very important piece of information that had just entered my ear. It was like a faint light burning in the midst of a deep darkness. Hope is not lost here.
"Ah, it's almost time!"
He panicked when he looked at his watch.
"Sorry I have to go. Thank you so much, I tied my hair back."
He bowed deeply before heading to the school gate. Just before passing through the gate, he suddenly stopped and turned around to look at me again. We were still only about five meters away so I could see a jittery picture on his face.
"May I know your name?"
He said a little awkwardly. Who would have thought, he who seemed easy to get along with others could still feel awkward just because of the name problem.
"Tomo Shunsaku."
I haven't known anyone in a long time. At times like this I usually say my name with indifference and relaxation. But somehow, when I had to exchange names with the woman, there was a strange feeling that appeared in my heart. This feeling is not something good.
"my name.. Sei Ichiji. Hello to you."
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