The Limemine [AnimeXReader]
Pain [Sugawara Koushi] - Haikyuu

Akhm ... The warning! This story contains depressed elements, please do not imitate the scenes in the real world:)

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Brakk!!

The sound of the door being closed so violently that it sounded so deafening to anyone who heard it. Y/n, the girl did it, she closed the door of her room hard with messy hair.

His hands clenched firmly, his eyes staring at the mirror sharply looking at his own messy self. The words of his parents that ring in his mind like a film that is constantly in play.

"You girls! How can you make someone else so badly hurt! Goddamnit!" His mother who said with anger and grabbed his hair was strong.

He again felt the pain in his head that made the anger in his heart grow even more.

Plaque!

"You made us have to compensate for the hospital costs! You're just a burden here! You're not following Myuki who never let us down!"

The view of Y/n blurred feeling the heat radiating due to his father's slap on the cheek until it felt pulsating.

"Stop, Okaa-san, Otou-san ... Don't keep poking"

Prangg!!

The sound of broken glass falling to the floor, the reflection of Y/n in the mirror that became irregular due to the girl's blow to her bleeding hand.

Damnit damnit! The tears of Y/n fell, he could not hold back his emotions anymore. His parents didn't even give him a chance to explain what happened. He hated it, he hated his family. His hypocritical sister wanted to look good in everyone's eyes.

Y/n's shoulders trembled, and his body slumped against his bed. He did not care about the shards of shard that would hurt him when he sat on the floor. His feelings had been so chaotic, his family did not believe him, his hypocritical brother that the person who promised him left him.

With tears not stopping, his gaze was fixed on the shards of shard nearby, his hand grabbed the shards and grasped them tightly, his palms spitting blood to the floor.

Y/n again saw his reflection, and at that moment his anger again churned, as well as bad words that returned to his mind.

"I'm sorry I gave birth to you!"

His body trembled, he pointed the broken glass towards his left hand and made a thin line transverse vertically.

"This is for Okaa-san!"

"Basic useless child!"

Y/n held her breath, her hands trembled, the clear crystal once again filled her eyes. He again made a thin line horizontally in his hand.

"This is for Otou-san!"

"Bahh! I'm sick of the Y/n attitude! Why should I watch him!"

Y/n bit her lips strongly, when recalling Myuki's remark, when she accidentally spoke to herself in her room. His hypocritical twin brother. He again made a line shaped '/' with a little deep, until it looks a little skin that hangs at the end of his incision.

"This is for Myuki!"

"He's rude, I feel sorry for Myuki having a sister like that!"

Y/n closed his eyes, the words of the person defending Myuki without knowing the true reality and how he felt. A small rub escaped his lips, he again saw his left hand which had been painted several incisions. Y/n again makes a line shaped '' with the midpoint that connects the lines.

"It's for people with disgusting mouths!"

The wounds he hoped could relieve the pain in his heart even though it was temporary. However, the memories he hated the most came back, the memories that made his chest feel tight and his head was dizzy.

"Kou-kun, you're not leaving me, are you? You're not gonna forget me, are you?"

"Y/n-chan, I'll be back, I won't forget you. I promise!"

Y/n clenched his hands, and he slashed his thighs quickly, Y/n did not care about his blood dripping onto the floor fusing with those shards of glass.

"Liar!"

"Kou-kun!" Y/n who tried to greet Sugawara was happy when he found out that the man was one school with him after a long time did not meet.

"You know him, Sugawara?"

"Haha ... I don't know him, Sawamura!"

"Damn!!"

Y/n slashed his thigh back a little deeper. His mouth was open, he was anxious to scream, but stuck in his throat, only to end up with a groan sound that escaped.

The truck!

Y/n throws the blood-stained glass shards in his hand so firmly that they hit the wall. His hand hit his chest, trying he could relieve the tightness there.

What a shame, even the people he expected to forget it!

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Sugawara was walking down the school hallway to the cafeteria when he came across a teacher who told him to call the head of the 1-4th grade, his underclassman and that's why he finally broke his intention and walked quickly to the class he was heading to.

Until he was about to turn towards the first-class hallway, Sugawara felt his chest being smashed by someone, making him take a few steps back and the person who hit him fell down.

Sugawara immediately approached him and reached out his hand. The girl who bumped into him looked up, making Sugawara stunned as their gazes whistled.

The girl immediately got up and returned using her oversized hood, thus covering half of her face.

"Sorry."

The word resuscitated Sugawara, but as he turned around, he could only see the girl's back drifting away quickly.

"Isn't that Y/n? He's the one who got Seira from 1-3th grade into the hospital, isn't he?"

"That's Y/n! Why is he still in school? If I were him, maybe I wouldn't go back to school because of embarrassment!"

"Maybe he has no shame!"

Sugawara closed his eyes, and sighed. Then he walked back to his destination.

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It had been thirty minutes since the school bell rang, the sight of a man watching every student passing by.

Sugawara was silent at the gate of his school, he was waiting for someone. His volleyball team training was on holiday, and he refused when his friends invited him home together.

His mind kept on going to the girl who hit him earlier, the girl he missed, as well as the girl he had hurt.

Y/n, the girl who greeted him cheerfully, but he pretended to forget her. It was not without reason, he wanted the girl not to continue waiting for him and looking for another man to be happy.

His heart was sliced when he saw the state of Y/n when their eyes whibbroked, eyes moist and nose reddened, as well as a compress plaster attached to his cheeks. All he remembered, the eyes that always sparkled when he saw something, now only a blank look with deep sadness.

Is this his fault? What makes Y/n so bad? In her memory, Y/n was a cheerful girl and always smiled sweetly. A smile that makes her heart warm and what she likes.

Sugawara recalled the conversation of two students in the hallway, about Y/n who injured someone to get into the hospital. What has been experienced Y/n?

Sugawara's gaze looked up, he felt the autumn breeze hitting his face and the leaves that started to fall. Until his gaze was fixed on the roof of the school, he narrowed his eyes when he saw someone there, and a moment later his eyes were rounded.

The girl he was looking for was there, and Sugawara quickly entered the school and ran as hard as he could to the roof.

'I hope you don't think about doing it, Y/n-chan, ' Sugawara hoped inwardly.

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Y/n unscrewed the hood of his jacket, the bag he accidentally left in the classroom. He stood and clasped the guardrail on the roof of the school.

His gaze only saw a handful of students who left, the school was already in a state of desolation. Y/n looked down, there was nothing there, but he felt that the ground he saw was as if it was waving towards him to jump up to him.

The Y/n foot passed through the guardrail and stood on the edge, but with his hand holding onto the fence. His eyes looked at the clear sky with a beautiful reddish orange tinge, the autumn wind that hit his face made him close his eyes.

He also has no friends who worry about him. Even the person he had always been waiting for, and the person who had always been his hope had already forgotten him. He will disappear without anyone remembering him.

Unknowingly the clear crystal in his eyes fell down, down his cheeks. Y/n held his breath, he tried to smile one last time to himself.

Then slowly holding his hand on the fence began to loosen, Y/n took a breath, he hoped for this to happen quickly.

Until the moment the handle fell off completely, he felt a strong arm encircling his stomach and pulled him back, making them fall down and sit on the rooftop floor of the school.

Y/n closed his eyes when he felt such a tight warm embrace, a hug he felt after so long.

"Tree ... Don't do it, Y/n! Never ever!"

Y/n eyes were rounded hearing such a familiar voice in his ears. He tried to encourage the man to let his embrace slip, but the man tightened his embrace even more.

"Please, Y/n!"

"Le-go, shit!" Y/n banging on the chest the man rebelled.

Sugawara ignored the blow to his chest, hugging Y/n tightly. His heart stopped for a moment when he saw the girl right on the edge of the roof ready to jump.

"Depart, motherfucker! Goddamnit! You idiot!"

"Please don't do that!"

Sugawara further tightened his embrace, he did not want to lose Y/n.  What has Y/n experienced until he wants to kill himself? What happened to him when he was not around?

"Gu-be!!" Y/n revolted with all his might until finally the hug came off.

Y/n looked at Sugawara nanar, why is that man here? Did the man come to stop her only to come back to hurt her later?

"I'm sorry, Y/n!"

Sugawara pulled Rin's hand back to grab her, but her gaze was fixed on the jacket on the girl's right palm and her left arm with bloodstains.

"Deliver! Don't touch me!"

Y/n brushed off Sugawara's hand, but his left hand was grabbed and held firmly until he felt pain.

"Damn! Stupid pain!"

Sugawara as if not hearing Y/n, he revealed the sleeve of the girl's jacket to his elbow. His heart felt pierced by thousands of needles, there was a wound that was not even bandaged and treated.

Sugawara grabbed his bag and took the red medicine as well as gauze inside, preparing for his injury during the training. He did not feel the Y/n rebellion anymore, the girl just silently watched her activities that treated the wound painstakingly.

"Why do you care about me now? Have you not forgotten me?"

The question made his heart back pierced, Sugawara really regretted pretending to forget about Y/n.

He grabbed Y/n's right hand with his injured knuckles and his palm had a gaping incision there.

"Are you preventing me right now just from hurting me again later?"

"Sorry ..." Only those words escaped his lips. Indeed, had he remained with Y/n, perhaps the girl would not have been reckless.

Sugawara's view down the body of Y/n when there is another wound after he wrapped his arm. And Sugawara's gaze was fixed on the girl's thigh which was covered in socks with a slight patch of blood.

Without prior permission, Sugawara grabs Y/n's thigh and keeps it in his lap making their bodies even closer.

"Don't touch it!"

Y/n tried to retreat, but Sugawara held him back strongly. The man lowered his Y/n socks to his knees and saw the bandage plugged carelessly.

Sugawara opened it slowly, and his eyes heated up when he saw the girl's wound on his thigh. A wound with the inscription 'KOU' was seen there, a wound with his name.

"I'm sorry, Y/n ..." His tears could not stand it anymore, Sugawara tears dripped onto Y/n's thigh between the wounds.

Sugawara returned to treat the wound. He was really sorry to keep Y/n waiting. Suppose he did not reject Y/n from the beginning. Suppose he doesn't stay with the girl. Suppose he was there when Y/n needed him, maybe Y/n wouldn't have done so far to hurt him! Maybe Y/n won't be that reckless until he tries to kill himself.

Sugawara pulled the waist of Y/n and hugged her tightly after she finished wrapping the wound. Move the Y/n into her lap and drown her face in the girl's hair.

"I'm sorry, Y/n .... I'm really sorry!"

This time it was not a rebellion, he could feel his jacket being squeezed.

"I'm sorry! Put your emotions on me, don't hurt yourself again, Y/n!"

Sugawara inhales the fragrance of Y/n hair that does not change, the smell of chocolate.

"Trialoget ...."

Sugawara felt the shoulder in his arms tremble, and he could feel his chest jacket wet.

"No one believes me, Kou-kun!"

"I'm just defending myself!"

Sugawara hugged Y/n tighter and tighter, his heart sliced at the girl's sobbing.

"No one will listen to me!"

Sugawara gently rubbed Y/n's back trying to calm her down.

"I trust you!"

"They don't want me either!"

"I want you! Always!" Sugawara closed his eyes, did Y/n feel he was unwanted?

"lik! You even left me, Kou-kun!"

Sugawara could feel the squeeze on his shirt getting tighter and the raucous sound of Y/n. "I'm sorry ..."

He is really sorry, he has made Y/n feel the trauma of leaving someone.

"They don't need me!"

"I'll always need you."

Sugawara could not help but shed his tears. The girl looks strong on the outside, but so fragile on the inside.

"Prepare everything, Y/n. Cry, yell if you want .... Never hurt yourself!"

Hearing that remark, Y/n did not hold back herself anymore. It evaporates everything it craves, its sadness and frustration without it holding in the arms of Sugawara Koushi. With a reddish sky towards night, which bears witness to the outpouring of grief Y/n at that time.

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It was late and they were still on the roof of the school. Sugawara gently stroked the sleeping Y/n hair on his thigh which became a cushion. The girl fell asleep tired of crying.

The face of Y/n reflected by the moonlight, made the girl's face more beautiful and amazed her. Sugawara looked down at Y/n's face, his flushed nose made him want to kiss her, and his hand gently stroked her cheek which contained a compressing plaster, making the girl groan small.

Sugawara took off his jacket and attached it to the girl's body. Slowly he got up, then carried Y/n bridal style without waking up the girl, they had to go home because it was late at night, and the taxi order had arrived.

Carefully, Sugawara went down the stairs of the school roof.

He promised himself the last time he saw Y/n in a state of slump alone. He will make the girl smile back, and he will definitely continue to protect Y/n without leaving her!

Sure is!

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