The Love Mas Battalion
20. Dilemmas.
Bang Hasdin was holding the pain in his heart. Now he has officially become Citra's husband as well. Wanting to scream evaporates all tastes, but all he could not do. This was part of the consequences he chose.
Bang Hasdin shed tears as Citra kissed the back of her hand. There softly Bang Hasdin read the do'a and blew the Citra crown.
There was a sense of haru in the heart of Citra as Bang Hasdin treated himself well. It has a taste that he has to endure. He's just a complement. A sick woman who cannot meet the needs of her husband.
"Abang accepts you sincerely, Abang hope you can also sincerely accept Abang. We have a bond. Hopefully we can do our duty as husband and wife well" said Bang Hasdin although he did not want to say it at all. His heart cannot pretend, but marriage before God is not a pretend thing.
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That afternoon Bang Hasdin greeted Citra. Citra's face continued to look down not daring to look at Bang Hasdin's face.
"Take the meal, get healthy quickly..!!" bang Hasdin.
"What now all that needs to bang? Doesn't Citra have to be fast so that Citra can immediately be useful for others and you quickly free from this situation" Citra replied.
"Your speech may have a point, but man should keep trying to heal because God gives us pain to test our faith man" Bang Hasdin raised his chin in order to look him in the eye.
"Abang will not limit yourself, you can complain to your brother about what you feel. Whatever our circumstances may be, our marriage is a reality."
The image looked down again and nodded slowly.
"After this you should return to the barracks. Is it okay khan?" ask Bang Hasdin.
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"Where was Pratu Hasdin?? why is there no permission???" reprimand Bang Ares on his other members. At that time Bang Ares happened to be the leader of the apple.
"Ready. don't know" replied the members.
Bang Ares' feeling became unpleasant. Not usually his best friend went without saying goodbye even irit talk.
"Well, let me handle it myself if Hasdin has come" said Bang Ares.
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Arriving at the house of Bang Ares, Bang Hasdin immediately met Hana. He hugged Hana from behind. He put his chin on Hana's left shoulder. The guilt was so pressing on her.
"What's the matter?" ask Hana worriedly.
"Sorry Brother. Brother is not a good husband to you" replied Bang Hasdin.
"Hana is also not the woman who has that perfection Bang. Never mind. Don't talk that way again..!! For Hana.. Brother is the best husband for Hana and a good father for Cherry" Hana said trying to calm down.
Bang Hasdin kissed Hana's cheek. The longing is back. His body began to respond restlessly.
"To room for a minute yuk..!!" bring Bang Hasdin.
Hana smiled and nodded. She knows exactly what her husband wants right now.
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Bang Hasdin continued to kiss Hana, his d***hnya voice could not control. In the moments of almost letting go, the shadow of the image's face suddenly swirled in his memory.
"Astagfirullah hal adzim.." Bang Hasdin gasped in shock and withdrew even though Hana was also almost to the end.
"Why Bang?" ask Hana confused.
"Yes Allah. sorry deck. Sorry" Bang Hasdin kissed Hana's face for feeling so guilty for ignoring Hana's inner needs.
"Any more headaches?" hana's face did show a very disappointed expression and Bang Hasdin was very understanding of it.
"Yes deck. Come on again..!!" get Bang Hasdin to push a little and throw Hana back.
Hana nodded. He followed Bang Hasdin again.
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Bang Hasdin cursed himself because after almost half an hour.he was not ready while Hana was back up because of his actions.
Paras ayu Citra seems to be wrapped up in his mind and heart. Both of his wives were equally beautiful and beautiful face made her inner as a disturbed man as well, but rather than thinking of the appearance.he was more afraid of hurting his two wives, especially Hana.
There was a sound of Cherry whining which meant they had to stop the bed activity.
"Cherry's up Bang" said Hana.
"Abang sorry today disappointed you. Next time.. Brother will not be so" promised Bang Hasdin.
Hana smiled wryly.
"Yes Bang" he answered briefly and then got out of bed.
Bang Hasdin could only stare at the back of Hana who was away from him.
Is this what we call justice? How hurt my wives would be if I knew I was wishing them both. If there's a cry from both of my women, it's obviously all because of me. I choose to cry and make them cry at the same time. Whatever happens, I need to be ready. Must be strong for my only daughter.
Bang Hasdin ruffled his hair, confused how to arrange a heart that might be crushed to pieces.
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"You enter the room first deck..!! You want to talk to Hasdin..!!" pinta Bang Ares at Dinar when they both just got home from office activities.
"Where have you been???" snapped Bang Ares who saw Bang Hasdin coming out of Hana's room wearing only shorts.
"Other members are busy with activities..You're even good at home, where's the street you think it is????"
"I'm not feeling well Res." replied Bang Hasdin.
"The sick person is not your body. Fill your head that is unhealthy. What the hell are you doing??" grute Bang Ares.
"There's no Res"
"If you do anything behind my back. I'll make sure your body is broken" replied Bang Ares no kidding.
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