The Mafia Is My Hubby
The POV Yuan

(Lin Yuan is the ambi of Chinese actress Dilraba Dilmurat)

My name is Yuan Lin, at first I was wondering why I - who grew up in a small church in the Netherlands - could have a Chinese clan behind my name. Why am I not named after a Dutch name mostly like Henzie or Louis or any of my other friends.

Because I have Asian skin? Nah! Henzie's face also has an Asian accent but is also named after Dutch children. I didn't really care about it, maybe because I was a kid and happy - living with pastor Lionel and other foster kids. Until I learned the fact that Father Lionel found me while buying fish in the coastal area in a fishing boat.

And my name also comes from the letter he found in my baby basket.

‘ so I have a biological family?’ my mind at that time was also the basis for why I never agreed when there are people who want to adopt me. I'm sure there's a reason why my family dumped me. I believe that if my family loves me, it is evident that despite their abandonment they are still preparing a name for me.

 And being determined to find my real family that was - when I was quite an adult - at the age of 17 I chose to leave church, died pastor Lionel who I considered my own father and mother as well as my siblings. With a little savings I collected from part-time work as well as financial assistance from pastor Lionel I decided to dock down the mainland of China.

One year, two years I've been through it's not felt just to find my biological family, even for years just for the fact that my birth mother died trying to give birth to me, giving birth to a baby who does not want his presence. But because of loving the baby who has not been present in the world, my mother chose to flee to the waters of the Netherlands - no matter what fate made me find by Father Lionel. Maybe to say if my place should be in Holland?

My waiting and struggle were in vain, without realizing it, time had moved ruthlessly. I spent 12 years just on the fact that my mother was gone, who my father was, and the fact that my extended family didn't accept me.

I looked at my depleted savings book, all this time I was always saving up just for the sake of finding my real family - some of it was given by pastor Lionel.

After I started my journey to mainland China I had to live frugally because I knew - not the short time it took to find my family's whereabouts, not infrequently I just live hitchhiking from one place to another - sometimes overnight in the cattle pen so that the money I have is enough before finally finding my biological family. The most important thing is that I have a roof for shelter.

And here I am, when I was 30 years old, I was faced with the fact that I was no longer young - I was an orphan - even though I didn't know my father existed or that I didn't think my father was dead- because until this moment no one knew who my father was until my mother kept me in such a way and was willing to leave her family just to give birth to me. And I know if my life is still long, I still have to move on, after deciding to apply for a job at company Z-I walked around in a park before doing a walk interview.

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