The Patriarchal Self
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Chapter 1: The Request

"Married?" I was so shocked by what my sister-in-law had just said, that the tray I was holding dropped.

Ah, there's no way that my sister-in-law is getting married. She has never been seen close to any woman in all this time. But, if that's true. What about my fate and the Kejora later?

"Mr," call Andre.

It was undeniable, after Mas Rudy left. Only my sister-in-law has managed and fulfilled all our needs so far.

"Who's that woman, Dek. Let Mbak meet him," I said with curious eyes and fear.

"His name is Amera" he answered with his head lowered as usual.

Andre was very obedient and obedient to the teachings of religion, where subjugating views was an obligation for the young man.

"Ko, his name is the same as Mama?" I was kind of amazed by the name he said.

It was silent for a moment, as if my sister-in-law didn't want to tell me. The curiosity that had risen to these crowns could not be dammed anymore.

"Sir, Ma'am just wants to meet your future wife. Ma'am promised, won't reveal all your ugliness to her." I tried to lure the young man.

"Is that necessary, Mother?"

"Hat habit!" angry, he turned around to ask.

But this time it was different. Usually Andre will laugh after making me upset, until a long sigh is heard.

What the hell's going on? Why does he look so serious right now. I became more and more riled up for him, with all the anticipation that would happen.

"Sir, do you still not understand?"

I shook my head to answer that question.

"As long as Mas Rudy is around, I've always been watching Ma'am. Until I left though, I didn't change at all. What have I been doing all this time, can't you feel it?"

Clearly there was a stroke of disappointment on my sister-in-law's face, I still deny this heart. That he has more feelings for her. No, this can't happen.

"Mbak is grateful for all the sacrifices and all the attention you give. If the Kejora is big and can Mbak stay? Then ... Ma'am will work and try to repay all your kindness."

I hope with my explanation, a little make him know. If I'm so appreciative of her sacrifice as long as Mas Rudy's gone.

"It's not so, Ma'am! Doesn't Mama still understand?"

He let out a heavy sigh and made me even more confused, until the sound of Kejora crying made me move immediately. It turns out my daughter woke up, but there was something strange.

"What's wrong with you, honey?" I immediately grabbed my body.

Holy hooch! I was so panicked, I screamed for Andre.

"Dad! Deck! The cruelty!"

Andre who was still in the living room immediately ran up to me, seeing that he was also so panicked after hearing my screams.

The door I accidentally opened made him freely enter and immediately grabbed the body of Kejora from my sling.

"Kejora why, Ma'am?"

"Bak don't know, Dek. Suddenly it was hot" I explained.

I noticed Andre who was so deftly undressing Kejora, my sister-in-law was perfect and amazing.

"Bak hasn't bathed Kejora this morning?"

I just grinned and shook slowly.

"Border!" After saying that, Andre brought Kejora to the bathroom.

I cursed this self that was so unable to do anything, during pregnancy and giving birth to Kejora. I'm just troubling Andre.

"Dec, sorry," I said softly.

I'm useless, I can't take good care of my own child.

Never mind taking care of children, taking care of the house I am still not so good. It is only fitting that my mother-in-law hated me so much.

I couldn't hold back the clear liquid that had wanted to fall, what Andre said made this heart so weak. 'My son' the word was embedded into Kejora. If only Rudy was still in our midst.

What the hell am I thinking? Immediately I threw away thoughts that should not exist, Mas Rudy had left and could not possibly return.

After bathing Kejora and putting on new clothes, Andre again invited me to speak while sitting on the bed with Kejora in the baby box.

"Sir, I want to get married."

That word again I heard.

"Mbak will bless you, Dek. May you be happy with the woman of your choice" I said, trying hard.

It's certain that I will feel so lost. Andre always comes here every weekend and helps me take care of Kejora.

Not only that, Andre even hired ART and baby sisters just to make sure our lives were okay.

"So, Mommy accepts me?"

Uh, what did he say? I became confused myself, immediately I turned away this face that suddenly felt heated.

"Sorry, Deck. Ma'am has to go to the kitchen," I said to avoid.

However, my hand was intercepted by the young man. I flinched a little, it's not usually like this.

"Sir," called me softly and pulled my hand back.

"Sorry."

"No pa-pa, I'm just afraid of slander" I'm obviously uncomfortable.

Although the door to the room is wide open and there are ART and baby sisters in this house. But, the two with the young man who was so handsome and not my mahram were still no good.

"In that case, let me justify it, Ma'am."

"What?"

Ah no! I may have misheard. But, what's with this chest? The more I dodged, the more this heart thrashed.

"Let me justify it, Ma'am." Andre repeated his words.

"Stop making Mbak have a heart attack, Dek. Don't you feel sorry for the Kejora? Don't let him lose one more parent."

Intentionally I said that, Andre was so concerned with Kejora and of course did not want to make my ball until why-why.

"I'll complete the life of Kejora, Ma'am. Let me just justify it, Ma'am Amera." This time Andre said with a serious look and looked at me.

The charm of my sister-in-law I can not deny, how this heart does not melt. Every word is sweet and polite, his attitude is considerate and willing to sacrifice.

In fact, willing to accompany me at the time of giving birth to Kejora. It was Mas Rudy's duty as my husband.

"Stop saying a word that makes me feel more, Dek. Ma'am doesn't deserve you. You're so perfect. There are plenty of good and decent girls out there. Unlike Ma'am who is only a widow with one child."

I can't hold tightness in this chest, I'm self-conscious. Andre is so perfect, he's such a beautiful jewel. I was just a pebble on the side of the road.

"Mr, I love you. Just like Mas Rudy."

"No! You are not the same as your brother!" I screamed loudly, rejecting everything that was happening.

"Alright, I won't force you." After saying that, Andre stepped away and said goodbye to me.

I followed him to the front door and stared at my sister-in-law's passing.

However, not long after the departure of Andre's car. A car that was so familiar to me.

"Him?" gumamku.

"Basarly a cheap woman! It's not enough you took Rudy from me? Now Andre wants you too? What pellets are you using, huh!"

Just now the woman got out of the car, suddenly just kept scolding and scolding me. I haven't spoken yet, she's already slid her palm over my cheek and it feels so hot and painful. Why was he angry and slapped me in the face, what was my fault exactly?

"Felt! Cheap lady! You deserve it!"