The Uninvited Match
JTD Chapter 65

"I'm sorry, it would be unthinkable for me if you would know all this, Silvi. I admit I was wrong" Hendra said, bowing his face, guilt for Silvi made him not have the courage to look at his wife's face at this time.

The guilt? Yes, the guilt that is now in Hendra's mind. There's no way Hendra can't feel guilty. He knowingly and deliberately deceives Silvi with all her deeds that seem to love her.

"Unthinkable? How can you think of my feelings Mas, if in your heart alone there is no me. All this time together we've only been tormenting your inner selves, haven't we?" Guess Silvi who looked up at Hendra by lifting her husband's chin.

"Gear me!" Pinta Silvi to Hendra who closed her eyes, when Silvi managed to lift her gaze. Hendra did not want to see the sadness of Silvi who also tore his heart at this time.

"What advantages does he have that you can't forget? She is no prettier than me, she is also ___" Silvi's bragging speech stopped because it was cut by Hendra. Yes Hendra cut Silvi's speech. He did not accept the woman he loved would be compared and humbled by his wife.

"He's no better than you and no more perfect than you, but he's always been himself behind his flaws. Even though he lacked a lot but he always tried to understand me, to the point of making him have no flaws in my eyes, he was almost perfect in my eyes. I hurt her a lot, I never keep her feelings the way I always keep your feelings. I've never had the fear of being with him, not being with you like I am today. I have such a great fear. I'm so scared to hurt you. He always puts my happiness above everything else, while you are, like a person who only thinks of his own happiness. You're Silvi's selfish, but you don't realize that" Hendra joined at length with tears welling up in his eyelids, revealing what he felt as long as he lived with his wife.

Silvi heard Hendra's words with tears, she could not say anything, as her beloved husband continued to praise other women in front of her openly.

"You know Sil, when I blatantly hurt her, she was kind of a fool with what I did to her, I knew she must be hurt by what I did, he should have been angry or protested at me but he never did. He always accepted my bad good behavior with a breastplate. He would rather give up by remaining silent beside me. Never in the slightest did he demand that I should understand him, as you always ask me to understand and serve you, even my parents, so I'm bothered because of your indulgence and your childishness."

"Bag!!" Call Silvi who does not accept is called spoiled and childish by Hendra.

"You need to know. I left her only to marry you, do you think she's angry? Like you are to me now? No Silvi, she's not like that. Even you can see how she looks happy on our wedding day. He should be able to get mad at you, for snatching me from him, he could also cancel or ravage our wedding, but what? She let me marry you, without demanding any explanation or anything on me." Continued Hendra who looked at Silvi with tears that wet his jaw firmly.

Silvi was speechless looking at Hendra's bead eyes that kept streaming her tears. Seeing Silvi speechless Hendra spoke again, so that Silvi understood what he and Amel felt.

"You need to know one thing, baby. He and I have never ended our relationship to this day. But she was so self-conscious about my current status. Stay away from me without hating myself. And with what I did to him, I was a man he should hate. Don't tell me I'm not trying to forget it! I tried so hard to forget, but it was all too hard for me. I love her so much that I miss her so much. I'm sorry I hurt you with this forbidden feeling of mine, I know that you and I are both devastated by the destiny we are living in today" Hendra continued, he spoke without caring about how Silvi was feeling right now.

"If you want me to forget it for the sake of getting your forgiveness, it'll just be a waste. His name was already imprinted in my heart, it was hard for me to forget. Although my heart has been broken because of our separation, but this broken heart fragment, always knitting my love and longing for her more and more." replied Hendra who was so disappointing Silvi.

"Huh, Hahahaha..plus your word?" Silvi laughed with her cries, as she heard Hendra's words. Silvi mocked what Hendra felt for Amel.

"If you love her, why did you come back to my life, as if you wanted to repeat our story back? You are intentionally playing with our feelings. What exactly is your motive back to me? Is it because you feel sorry for my sick condition?" Silvi asked with her sobs.

"I can go back to you, because someone came to me. Begging me to fulfill your last wish of wanting to spend the rest of your life soon with me." replied Hendra honestly.

Silvi knew very well, who was the one who came to Hendra to grant his last wish. Definitely not his parents. Except Neil, his ex-fiancee. Because only with himself Silvi expressed his wish.

"Neil, I don't know if I should thank you or be angry at you right now, what is certain is that my life right now is not okay with my last request I said to you the other day. It does not seem to have to force a desire that eventually makes me disappointed and injured. This doesn't live up to my expectations. Is wrong! It turns out that I was wrong to expect too high on Mas Hendra who actually did not love you anymore I," Inner Silvi who seemed to regret all this.

"Now I understand Mas. It's only fitting that you don't want to forget it and let go of your feelings for me. Because you expected my death to come back with him. Didn't you?" Guess Silvi who was not responded to by Hendra at all.

Hendra remained silent without words and averted his eyes, he sat on the edge of Silvi's bed but now he sat back to Silvi's body. Silvi continued to watch Hendra who was frozen with sobs that never subsided.

"It's as if you're saying yes to all my presuppositions. How you got to me, Mom. Do you really not want a child who is in my womb?" Decit Silvi again filed the charges against Hendra.

"Don't talk like that, Silvi! You really like to guess and accuse someone indirectly. I really hate your habit like this," Hendra turned his body to stare at Silvi who was still sobbing with a gasp of breath.