The Unused Ex
Old Diary

Monday afternoon, 2 September 2020

Ballads Homes

Love's.

I'm dissolved in your ocean.

Sank to the bottom, and,

Without the confidence to get back to where I was.

How could?

....

Starting from the spark, I gambled in the old hope

Miss her, though,

Take it,

I also love the time I spend with him.

My hope is simple, though,

He could see a brilliant smile under his two brown stars.

It's simple, isn't it?

....

And time goes on

Dragging my steps to continue to follow where her laughter and smile went

What dayaku?

His smile was so heart-wrenching

My willingness to do anything to see her smile reigns over me

Even when I have to hurt myself for his happiness,

I fulfill.

I let her smile belong to another angel,

While I hang on in the mask of rigidity.

That's what I do, love.

For her.

For her.

....

Love's.

I'm wounded.

The number of years has dragged me far.

Makes me lose my way to other dreams

While I hid in the shadow of her smile, she,

He is more brilliant in the embrace of his jelly angels.

Be ill.

It hurts too much, love.

....

And that downtime.

I decided to stop looking at it

Turning away from his brilliance twinkle his smile

Blinded yourself from everything about him

I took my hearing from his voice and name

I shut my heart tightly from possibly realizing your existence, love.

Excuse me..

I was too weak to endure this pain.

I'm sorry, love..

....

Love's.

I was also in the zone of worry,

After a long time I did not touch my path with his steps.

My world was empty at that time.

For me every time is night

Unfortunately the night of my world has no moon,

Or just as a star as a light.

I stammer in this pitch black, love.

Helpme.

The news about him came to me

With the angel...

....

....

Love's.

I returned.

I found my initial path to dreams that had been neglected

And we meet again, love.

He became one of the few angels who helped me find my path

I thanked him also to the other angels.

Thank ye..

....

And this time, my heart can be with the sincere.

The news of his separation with the angel did not make me go straight

Be happy in the suffering he is facing.

I no longer see it as a hope I can have

Because for me now,

He is an angel who is too bright even if only to fulfill my dreams.

My one wish about him is,

He could find another angel as brilliant as himself.

Amyn..

...

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"Pig! What the hell! Right here! right here! It's Umi's!"

Maya, a woman of about twenty-three years old, just took her old diary in the hands of her husband, Suhan.

The beautiful Maya paras like a barbie doll instantly turns red. Between feeling annoyed and also holding shame.

In his heart Maya regrets because she had asked her husband for help to lift the cardboard containing the old book when she was in college first.

The clean-up event welcoming this fasting month turned out to even provide an opportunity for Suhan to read Maya's pink diary.

You know, just now he was the one who moved the cardboard that was not too full to the warehouse. So there will be no incident of the old diary book can be read by Suhan like a moment ago.

Maya was immediately busy remembering, what things she had written in her diary. And he immediately regretted the weight. Because as he remembered, all the things he wrote there were about his feelings for Reyhan.. His first love..

Furthermore, Maya could not imagine, in the section of embarrassing things in her diary, which had been read by Suhan a moment ago.

'I hope it's not about how I feel about Reyhan.. If it's true about that Abi read, then what should I explain to Abi?' maya thought to herself in the heart.

"Well.. Umi. kan Abi has not finished reading it. Again the exclamations earlier," said Suhan protested.

"Don't read dong, Bi! Know privacy, right?!" tukas Maya still scowled annoyed.

"What privacy, Mi. we're married. Do not play secret dong, Yang.." suluk Suhan while hugging Maya from behind.

"If we are married, but Umi also still need privacy, Bi.. Try Abi think for himself! What if Abi's diary gets read to each other. Abi's ashamed of it?"

Suhan immediately looked serious thinking for a few seconds. Maya can't wait for her husband's answer. Maya was sure that her husband would understand her current feelings.

After thinking for a while, Suhan gave his answer. Unfortunately, Suhan's answer even made Maya become confused.

"Calm down, Mi. that's not gonna happen.."

"Why is that?" ask Maya for astonishment.

"Soalah Abi does not like to confide in the diary book, Mi.."

After a pause of one second, Suhan continued his speech again.

"..You see Abi's afraid of diarrhea later.."

Just so suddenly Maya became agape of astonishment. And.. Plaque! The woman reflexively hit the upper arm of the husband slowly.

"What the heck, Bi. ngarang terribly.."

"But if Abi has a Umi kayak diary, Abi just want to share a diary with Umi.. Umi can read the diary that Abi wrote.."

"Seriously? Umi finds it hard to believe." continued Maya while squinting and looking at Suhan from below.

"Duileh. it's the eyes.. Just look at it, why, Um? Umi tuh even more megegemesin know, if the pair look angry so!" goda Suhan again.

"Tauk ah! Abi mah likes it.. Seriously talking and joking around!"

"Yes. yeah.. Sorry Abi yes.. Here.. Here.. Abi was in his heart, Umi, let's not be angry anymore!"

A moment later, the sweet-faced man sucked his head between the curves of Maya's neck. Not to forget he blew air into the wife's ear. So friendly.

"Chiwii.. Bii.. ticklish ah! Don't play the blow ah! hihihi!!"

Maya's anger went nowhere. Suhan is like that. The man always knew the gap to mend the relationship between the two.

A relationship that has only been in place for two years. Since the first time he met Maya at a gathering of 'ied family.

Yep.. Suhan and Maya met about two years ago. And about a week later, the sweet-talked man immediately felt steady to marry Maya through the ta'aruf path.

Yep. The man bravely asked Maya. He had only known the woman for about a week.

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