
What can I do now.. ?? 😔
I contemplated my fate, I was in Rangga village, I was forced to go with him after the Lord threw me away.
I've been here for a few days but I'm still lost in grief and I can't forget the words of the Lord that night either.
" maya you're okay.. ?? " ask Rangga worriedly.
" i'm fine.. "
Rangga looked worried, he actually knew if I was sad because I left God.
" Maya forget him" said Rangga.
I was just pensive I actually heard what Rangga said but I did not want to answer it.
" haaaahhh.. " Rangga let out a long breath.
" do you know why I live alone in this palace ?? " said Rangga while glancing at me.
I turned to look at Rangga and looked at his face.
" it's because my parents were killed when I was a child" Rangga said.
I just kept quiet and listened to him talk.
" they killed a nation of vampires before my own eyes, it's something I can never forget, it's a deep sadness to have lost someone you love and that's why I hate them so much" Rangga said blankly straight ahead.
It looks like Rangga is indeed very hit and deep trauma.
" did God do it.. ?? " ask me to guess.
" not her "Rangga replied with a slight shake of her head.
" then.. ?? "
" i think it's his subordinate or maybe ordered by him.. "
" Rangga I think when your parents were killed God was still in a state of long sleep so he really did not know what his subordinate vampires did to your people.. " I tried to explain to Rangga and I was sure that God would not do such a thing.
" hmmm.maybe, but even so I hate them all so much and more so he killed my great-grandfather first".
Rangga slowly turned his head towards me and looked me in the eye.
" all of us who are here also feel the same Maya, they have lost a precious person and that is because of the vampires who have killed our family "
" we have a grudge against them" Rangga said in a heavy voice.
I pondered and did not dare to look at Rangga again, I turned my face away from him, we were silent for a moment.
" eemm rangga can't if you make peace.. ?? " i asked suddenly in a slow tone.
" no it is impossible" answered Rangga.
" but Rangga I think if your people continue like this it will be endless, you will continue to compete and be hostile forever, how much blood and lives will be sacrificed ?? "
" i know Maya but we won't accept peace from our enemies.. "
I frowned at me.
" if you don't want to let me reconcile you guys" I said as I looked towards Rangga again.
" it's impossible Maya, it won't end until one of us is wiped out" Rangga said.
I was silent, and we looked at each other without speaking.
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At night, I sat alone in the moonlight, Rangga approached me.
" Maya what are you doing here ? " ask Rangga while patting my shoulder.
" i just want to be alone, "I replied slowly.
" come in you will be cold here. "take Rangga.
" settle down I'm fine. "I'm not getting out of my seat.
Rangga could not force me and he knew very well that I was sad so he left me and left me alone first.
Gusts of soft wind blew on me, the atmosphere was getting quiet because most of the Rangga would already be asleep, I looked at the moon perfectly round, I closed my eyes and I pondered everything that had happened.
Why am I still not able to accept all this.. ?? Lord do you know how I feel about you now.. ?? are you looking at me right now.. ??
I unconsciously cried again for the umpteenth time.
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On the other hand when I asked in my mind God was always watching me, he was always staring at the window since I left, God silently always looked at me for even days.
Right now God was still in his room and as usual he was silent by staring out the window, then Xey came over to him.
" excuse me, sir, for your drink.. " Xey put her drink on the table.
The Lord did not respond and just kept quiet, while Xey who saw her master always like that really made her uneasy.
" excuse me for being sassy sir, I know you care deeply about Queen Maya but I beg you also pay attention to your health" said Xey politely and lowered his body.
All of the subordinates of God in the castle were very considerate of its leader, especially Xey since he had already served the God family even since god was a child.
Hearing that the Lord did not flinch at all and remained silent, seeing unresponsive finally Xey ventured to be a little firm.
" your master must rest, you have seen the queen for days I do not accept if anything happens to you "
Finally the Lord lowered his head and turned around, he tried to grab his drink.
Houraang. !!!
Suddenly the glass fell down, the Lord looked at his trembling hand.
" Xey looks like you're right, I'm getting tired" said the Lord, still looking at his hand.
Seen from the Lord's face if he was very tired and his eyes were starting to look soft, slowly God walked and laid his body on the bed.
" rest sir" said Xey.
The Lord lay down and looked at the skies with a blank look.
I miss you so much, Maya.
And slowly the lord closed his eyes, looking at the eyes of the God who finally closed, Xey smiled in relief, finally the Lord fell asleep very soundly.