Wendy And Boys
Nothing to Feel (3)

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I hugged my slender waist in front of me. "Wannie baby, if things don't go as we expected, will you be disappointed?" I whispered near his ear.

I dunked the face around his neck, inhaling deeply the scented scent that burst out. "I love you, Seungwan-ah loves you very much." The pain when I stated that sentence seemed to make an imaginary needle manage to pierce and pierce my heart deeper.

A fragment of the memory of betrayal evaporated, reminding me of my unfaithfulness (these several months), of the sin I committed.

"Well, why do regrets come to an end?"

I feel guilty, I should have. I know at this stage should be the dominating party can control wisely so as not to occur framing during a period of saturation of a relationship. Wan-ah, I'm not a responsible couple. I'm sorry, my love is not that sincere.

"Oppa, if you think regret is at the beginning, you can't possibly find fault" you close the book you're reading.

The thick book with the blue cover of a human organ made me frown in wonder(Did you never bother about the thickness of the book? Even I was the one who saw the horror shudder). "And you can never learn from experience or from previous mistakes."

Learn from mistakes? What can I learn if that mistake has already happened. I mean, what can teaching fix that?

Or it may prevent it from happening a second time. Perhaps, the last option can be the most complete answer.

That Khilaf, that woman, both of them I cannot make as an outlet for the mistakes I cannot stop. Here I myself am wrong, purely my fault because I cannot hold myself back well. And I'm really a criminal.

"Wan-ah, if Suho said hyung impregnated women out there, what would you say?" Forgive me, Suho hyung for now I need a parable (I cannot say clearly about the pregnancy of the woman who claims to love me, the woman who slept with me and gave up her virginity a month ago).

Seungwan turned around and looked cynically. His face looked humbling. "Suho oppa impregnates women? Cih, that's disgusting." I grimaced at your answer.

"If you were in Irene Noona's position, what would you do?" ask me to be careful to reveal it.

"Of course I am... "

Ting..

Vat..

His words were cut off by the sound of a bell. Ahhe.. I swear to whoever comes.

"Let me open, "And Seungwan went to open the door, welcoming the guest I had so well sworn.

I thrust my head over the sofa, looking up at the sky roof of the lounge where I am now. A little sharpening my hearing, I need to know who came without having to bother welcoming the guest.

About 3 minutes, my Seungwan is back. His foot steps are level He steps immediately. Retracing the floor, placing emphasis on the bottom coating marmel.

"Darling, wait! Who's coming?" I immediately got up from sitting chasing Seungwan who was walking towards our room.

Blams..

I haven't had time to reach him, Seungwan first entered the room, painting the brown door.

"Wan-ah, hey what's up? Baby open the door!" my door knocked on the door. And right at the knock to the five doors began to open showing Seungwan with his big suitcase. I who saw that was just silent, digesting the situation I was in right now.

"You want to know my answer, don't you?" seungwan said lifting one corner of his lips. "I'll get away from him." That big suitcase, he dragged me away. It passed away.

Then I did not want to lose it, I chased Seungwan who was a few steps in front of me.

"Darling, wait! Where are you going?"

"I said stop, honey!"

"Darling..!!"

"Babys..!!"

"Son Seungwan..!!"

Still, the girl with short brown unravels does not want to stop her steps, instead she is getting faster. And right on the side of the door that had opened wide, I managed to grab it, clutching a hand that was not how big of me. I flipped her tiny body, staring into the caramel bead of my sweet lover.

"Let go! We're over, Sshun-ssi!"

The words he had just spoken made me pause for a moment. The word 'ended' made me shaken. Can't it be, Seungwan broke off our relationship?

Nah! Don't do that, Wan-ah. Unknowingly I squeezed the shirt in the chest area, it felt so painful that it made me unable to breathe and eventually resulted in clear fluid spilling through the cheeks.

"Why?" I try not to sob. I never knew that breaking up was this painful.

It's fair that many alay people out there commit suicide out of love and I'm one of the victims of love itself (or maybe I'll actually be one of those suicide newspapers?).

But why did my Seungwan say all of a sudden?

"Sun-ssi."

And I knew the reason after hearing the soft voice behind me. The woman stood there, she came and I'm sure Seungwan knew about her pregnancy, knowing enough that I was her father.

"Well, I'll explain!"

But in vain because Seungwan is not here, he has disappeared from my sight. I myself just fell down, crying over my stupidity.

And one thing I just realized, it turns out that the women I have been pregnant turns out she is as pure as my lover, it just seems that they look very similar.

I'm so sorry, sorry Seungwan-ah.

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