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For almost a week, the memory of our meeting still felt fresh in my mind. I lay down on my bed and stared at the wall in agitation.

"Actually..What do you see me like?"

Andy's question kept repeating itself and repeating itself in my head, like the depths of an endless abyss. My heart felt like sand that was constantly being eroded by the waves.

Namun, ini semua mungkin karena rasa kesadaran diriku yang terlalu kuat.

"I've seen a smile like that from someone. Because I'm used to knowing that the smile she's showing is fake, so I can tell that you're trying to lie like that guy."

The other Andy's words slowly crossed my mind.

Without realizing my tears had finally fallen.

"It turns out.. Brother's heart already belongs to Kinara, huh?" my sigh.

That's what I should have thought from the beginning of our meeting. It's not that I'm late for my own feelings.

If it was like this, I could have betrayed Kinara's feelings.

"But..I also want to stay by Big Brother's side .. forever."

I'm aware of Brother's situation this time. I'm not completely to keep Big Brother with me. Even though I ended up accepting even though she considered me as Kinara's replacement, I didn't care.

But can I make you happy? After learning that he was so sorry and feeling guilty about the departure of Kinara.

In fact, you could say, I will be a burden for Brother Andy.

"I'm sorry Andy .. I'm sorry, Kinara."

Along with the fall of this water symbol of sadness, my eyes slowly closed.

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"Goddess, the bathroom is empty!"

Kinara's voice called out from behind the door of my room, which was located on the second floor, but I did not respond.

This afternoon, after returning from the hospital, I kept locking myself inside the room, not wanting to go down even for dinner.

Kinara placed her hand on the doorknob, but hesitated even while turning the doorknob.

The door opened and showed a dark room.

Kinara probably thought that I must have been asleep, and just as she was about to turn around leaving the room, a gust of wind air seemed to blow slightly. Makes shivering. My bedroom window is open.

He walked tiptoeing along the room, heading towards the window. Only to find myself curled up in bed, still awake.

"Ah, Goddess, sorry. I thought you were asleep." The nervous response of Kinara.

After a few moments of silence, I replied in a heavy voice, "Sorry, but can you please leave me alone?"

Kinara reached out her hand and clasped my hand, which was possible for Kinara to feel ice-cold after holding me.

"You're so cold. Your face is pale too. Are you sick again?" tanyanya's worried.

A certain amount of light penetrated through the curtains from the street lights, shining down on my face. At this moment, Kinara realized something that had happened to me.

"Did? Why are you crying?"

"...."

"What's going on?"

"It's nothing." My reply sounded like a suffocating whisper.

"But..."

Without waiting for Kinara to finish speaking, I buried my face in these two cold hands. Hiding myself from Kinara, and with a sign of self-blasphemy, I said, "I might have made her feel even more burdened."

Amidst my words, Kinara seemed to have realized what had happened. Speaking in a soft and quivering voice, he asked, "That person ... Andy's brother, right? Then what happened to her?"

My body twitched. In a soft, pain-filled voice, I replied, "I've been expecting more from him, but I didn't realize that he's been..."

This time Kinara felt clear. Looking at me, who was crying like children in front of him.

He got up to close the window, closed the curtains, and turned on the heating, then sat down by my side. He hesitated for a moment, before clasping my cold hand again.

After that, Kinara held me gently and smiled. Makes my body curl up and feel relaxed in an instant.

Kinara whispered in my ear. "Don't grieve. If he really loves you so much, you can't give up that easily."

The words came easily. After Kinara said it, my heart seemed to have been sliced by the sword. The feeling from deep inside my mind gave birth to this pain. 'I like someone that Kinara herself might like as well', is the feeling that comes to me this time.

Kinara propped me up, gently lowering me to the bed. Take out a blanket, then gently put it over my body.

How long he held my body, I don't know. However, my sorrowful cries began to become the sound of peaceful sleep. We closed our eyes. My heart slowly whispered.

"My only option is to give up. All I could do was bury this feeling deep in my heart. Because in Andy's heart, Kinara was already there."

Kinara then gently whispered to me.

"So you can calm down, I'll tell you something."

As I listened to her tell a story, tears slowly flowed down my cheeks, then fell onto the bed sheets, before finally vanishing quickly.

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