YOU AND ME
Background of the Figure
It starts with me always being wrong in the eyes of my father and family. My name is Dinda, I'm 25 now. I am the first of three children, I should now make my father and family happy but.I am still unemployed as usual, often I try various small businesses but.. always failing in the middle of the road. My family's economy has been lacking since then, so it's hard for me to start a business without enough capital.
I never blame my birth as a poor child, nor do I regret my parents who gave birth to me. But the more days I get crowded I can't make my family happy. While all my friends were busy with their work, I kept busy so that I could be of little use to my family.
The sound of this morning's alarm is disturbing, because it's been too idle for too long I've become a little lazy to live this life. Both of my sisters were ready to go to school in the meantime.I was still hiding behind a blanket even though Dad was already angry because I hadn't even woken up.
" It's noon. Cepet clean-up the house !! Don't sleep anymore !! How to succeed "sayir my father firmly and said repeatedly until Dad satisfied
"...."
Maybe silence is the only way I can avoid being lured into father's innuendo and try to wake myself up quickly from my sleep.
" Dicky ! Let's have breakfast first.. Dimas let's quickly eat breakfast first. if it's big don't be like your lazy brother !! Being told to get up from earlier instead of waking up "he said to me again. This time Dad managed to get me up from my bed and rushed to the bath without saying a word past those who were busy with breakfast
" uhh.. You should have made breakfast for your sister ! How can I wake up in the afternoon... "
Dad's advice is correct, but as I feel, I feel I've failed and already ugly in the eyes of anyone. Because for too long idle my soul became very sensitive, I felt not wanted to be advised and always felt that I was the most righteous but after that I felt guilty and useless in the family.
In the bathroom I cried I couldn't hold back my heightened emotions but didn't want to ruin my morning. Being unemployed is not fun, I do have a lot of free time, but with my poor economic condition this makes me a great loser. I feel like friends, neighbors, relatives and even my own family continue to blame me and intimidate me for not having a job.
I am not as often as they are job seekers to apply for a job, but without me I know the results. Because my body is short and fat where there is a company that will accept me. Plus, my age is getting old
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At about 9am I rushed out of the house to get my grandfather's medicine at the hospital. Just about to leave my friend Rara came and gave her wedding invitation next week.
" Shy..... "
" Rara ? Oh my... How are you ? " please welcome me because now his appearance is very different
" well. din. next week dateng yah. don't forget to bring the candidate lu hehehehe "
" hahha is not yet... "
" ohh the belom cave works again.This cave wants to take the medicine of cave grandmother Ra.. "
" ohhh. yaudah come together in front of him "take him relax and we also walk together while chatting small while heading to the house alley
Hearing Rara's happy story makes me happy and sad because now I'm the only one left behind has not got a candidate at all. Let alone candidates, I have never even felt the taste of dating.
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Whether today is my worst day or because it's my birthday, I feel like I'm so useless and continue to blame myself for all that's failed in me. Not wanting to ruin my day if I kept quiet at home, I chose to be alone in the hospital garden which was enough to make me comfortable calming down this messed up mind.
I kept quiet, no matter where my mind was going,. It was clear to me that I had been sitting for hours and the sun had set.
" sister... Where are ? Ko belom home ? "
The incoming message from my brother Dicky, for being lazy to reply to him I ignored the incoming message and rushed to go home . But the thing that I didn't want to feel happened, the money in my pants pocket was gone because it was hollow. I was confused as to who to call because I was lazy with everyone at home.
" Damn... The cave has to walk to the house ?! " my grunts are upset and out of sense to be able to go home
#TINTIN (The car horn sounds and the car stops right before I stand waiting for the bus to come )
"......" I fell silent confused and saw the window open slowly. I saw a man I didn't recognize smiling kindly greeting me
" Let's go up. We can talk about the price on the street "he said a little confused me.
"...." for a moment I was silent and wondered to my mind but when I realized that I immediately got into his car recklessly
I have stood in the place and zone of the women of the night, though I still do not understand how much my day will be.. I decided to be mean to myself and cross my line because my day was desperate enough for me
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