Your charms are diverting my love
She's a Beautiful Moon

“Mas, called mama sama papa, dinner first,” invite me.

“Hmmm ... later on,” the answer is short.

I nodded, then left Mas Danial in his room who was busy with his work. I went back downstairs, and had dinner with my in-laws. A few minutes later Mas Danial followed to join dinner.

I brought him food. He accepted it with a sweet smile on me. The pretend smile that always Mas Danial love when with mom and dad, or when with my parents, also when we were together attending some invitations.

After dinner, we gathered in the living room. Mama brought me a snack that she intentionally made. It's always like that if you know I want to stay at home, you make my favorite snacks, sometimes you buy the food I like. Mas Danial only glanced at mama when mama spoiled me too much. Maybe she was disappointed, because I was not the woman Mas Danial wanted, but I was his mother's choice.

All women want to be like me. Have a husband who has a sturdy body, clean skin, a sharp nose, dashing, and authoritative. All women also want to be like me, have rich in-laws, magnificent and luxurious houses, spilled property, and have an advanced business. All women dream of things like me.

However, they had no idea how much my crying had spilled. They didn't know I was planning on leaving, but I couldn't because I loved my mom and dad. I can not leave those who later when I leave, they have to be confused again to take care of the company, because the child is just too cute and stupid with the business that his papa mama built from scratch.

“Vit, tomorrow you don't want to go straight home, right?” ask mama.

“Depends on Mas Dani, Ma,” I replied. “Indeed why, Ma?”

“Tomorrow mama there is a meeting with mama's friends, mama wants you to come, all of us stop by our subscription. It has been a long time since you moved house mama did not go there to take you,” replied mama.

I smiled sweetly in front of my mom. She was my mother, my mother-in-law who was very good with me. The gift of my life has as good a mother-in-law. Who loves me as deeply as my own mother. Mama's the only reason I've got to hang on Mas Danial's side.

“How, Dan? Can I take your wife?” ask Mama to Danial.

“As for mama and Vita only, after all usually like that, right?” mas Dani replied busily looking at her dress.

“You were talked to by mama and instead focus on hape, Dan?” papa protest.

“Iya, sorry,” the answer is short.

“So tomorrow you're with mom. If Dani wants to go home first, no problem, later mama will take you home,” said Mama.

“Dani is here only. No need to go home, anyways Dani still miss here, still want here, Ma,” said Mas Danial.

I know, Mas Dani must have been afraid of being caught by mom if we slept separately at home. Since we moved, my mom and dad and dad have never been home. When they want to go home, we have a thousand reasons they never stay home. Not because our house is so narrow and so simple, but because we don't want them to know that for two months we moved house, we slept apart. So during our move, we took turns staying at my mom's house or my dad's house.

“Tomorrow can I come with mama?” my many.

“Ya is up to you,” he replied ketus.

“Well I'm with mama,” I said.

“Hmm .. I take a shower,” he said.

“Let me prepare warm water, Mas.”

“Iya.”

As usual Mas Dani must have taken a shower if he's going to sleep. Moreover, this afternoon he did not shower because at two in the afternoon he had to leave, and when he wanted to go he must have taken a shower first. I prepared warm water for a bath, and rushed to get a towel when the warm water was ready. Then I prepared a nightgown for her.

Danial rushed into the bathroom. I heard she turned on the shower, and water splashed down her body. After that I heard his voice ring. Nadira's name appears on her screen. The picture is so pretty. Her face was oval, her dimples were visible, her nose was sharp like Mas Danial, she was wearing a hijab, and so beautiful. Her makeup was perfect and simple, like a teacher in general, not too menor, but so unsightly. It was very opposite of me, I was like this, still could not close my aura, and I was immediately insecure to see Nadira like that. I'm so dwarfed when I know what Nadira looks like. Maybe he took a picture using a filter in his dress. But, still she looks beautiful and perfect, despite her simple appearance.

My heart was drawn to open their whatsapp conversation when I saw on the screen the hape Mas Danial appeared his conversation with Nadira. I hesitated to open their conversation. My heart trembled violently because this was the first time I touched Mas Dani's belongings.

“Good sleep, Nad. Thank you, your poem is good. Mas has not been able to reply to your poem, tomorrow monday we wait in the library as usual, during the break.”

I put my husband's phone back where it was while feeling the thump in my heart. I felt that I was no longer on the ground, I felt like I had been hit by such a terrible wave. Vacillating is not a hassle.

I immediately snuggled into the blanket. I turned off the headlights of my room, and I turned on the dim sleeping lights. I sank my face, and I felt no tears wash over my blanket and pillow.

I knew he needed time to accept our marriage. I know this matchmaking is so hard on her. Moreover, he already has the view of women who he may have loved long ago. I've established my heart to make her accept this marriage, but if in her life there's Nadira, there's another woman's name, how can I calm down, and make her accept me as her wife?

Nadira will continue to take all his time and attention. Nadira will reign in the kingdom of his heart. There would be no place in his heart for me. Nadira will continue to make her flounder, and I'm getting ignored. I am like a withered flower, which is easily blown away by the wind.

Why do I keep hanging by your side, Mom? If you could never at all try to accept me, accept our marriage? I'm getting as hot as I can. She cared about me shedding tears every day, and didn't want to know how many tears flooded my eyes in the days after our wedding.

I cried myself to sleep. Until the night became quiet. I woke up and saw my husband was still cool with his hape. I let him be cool with his hape. Maybe you're continuing to exchange messages with Nadira, maybe reply to Nadira's poem? Let him be. I continued to sleep, and I woke up in the middle of the night gasping for breath because I was dreaming. Pretty beautiful dream. Mas Danial held a handsome boy, we were both happy, and Mas Danial kissed me on my forehead affectionately. What a beautiful dream tonight.

I sat on the edge of the bed, remembering my beautiful dream. I realize this is just a dream, but tonight's dream makes my heart calm and peaceful, even though Mas Danial was friendly to me only through dreams. I got out of bed, staring at Mas Dani who was already fast asleep on the sofa. She was a beautiful moon, which I could only feel her radiance, but it was hard to reach her beauty in close proximity. I'm not sure I can reach that beautiful moon, but I won't give up until here. I'll have that beautiful moon, and I'll make sure my first night isn't long.