ZULFA FORTITUDE
I Hate You

After resting his body for a moment, Zulfa was awakened by a sound like a glass falling from his room. Without any prejudice, he headed there. Make sure what happens. Didn't expect the man who cut the wound to be in his room

"Maos ..."

He looked at Herman who wanted to take the lid of the fallen glass under the small table, which was beside the bed. . Want to help, but anger and disappointment still control his soul. Finally Herman went down, took the glass cover himself.

"Zulfa, I'm sorry. Use your room to rest."

Zulfa was silent, there was no desire for him to speak to the person now in front of him. But when he saw the weak body of the man who is still her husband, his heart was also broken. He approached Herman, helped him take the glass lid and helped him stand up.

"Rest ...."

"Thank you, Zulfa."

"Mas, have you taken your medicine?"

"Here, take some medicine."

"Eat already?"

"Not ...."

"I'll get it."

Without waiting for an answer, Zulfa went from Herman's presence, to the dining table. Take rice and also clear vegetables and chains. Take her before her husband. And feed it slowly.

"Zulfa, I'm sorry ...."

Zulfa remained silent. But his hands did not stop to feed Herman. But sometimes it seems that he takes a deep breath. A sign that he is carrying a burden. Until the rice in the plate was gone, not a word came out of his lips.

"More, Mum?"

"No, thank you."

He took the medicine, silent for a moment to read the instructions for his drinking rules. Still with his silence, he opened the tablets that Herman had to drink.

"It's Mas. Read the bismillah first."

One by one, Herman took the tablet from Zulfa's palm.

"Bismillahi rohimmani ...."

Herman gulped it down, until all the tablets in his hand ran out. Finished taking the medicine, Herman regained his senses with Zulfa still by his side.

"Zulfa, you don't mind sleeping here."

Not a word came out. Makes Herman feel guilty.

"Please, if you are angry .. be angry. If it makes your heart happy. Thou hast silenced me like this, the more despairing. And I will never understand you."

But Zulfa is basically a strong woman who endures suffering in silence. Not a person who usually expresses his emotions, both happy and sad in real terms. He remained silent, but there was sadness on his face.

Zulfa wanted to be angry. But every time the desire to be angry was present, always imagined the faces of Lika and Irwan and also Halimah.

"Say ... Don't just shut up." by looking into Zulfa's soft eyes.

Maybe it's true people say. Do not underestimate the silent people. You will regret hurting him.

For years Zulfa was silent in his suffering, until the burden could no longer hold him. He'll spill it all ... everything .. without the rest.

"I hate you, mas. Why don't you just die. You know how Lika and Irwan always ask you, what I have to answer. Do I have to answer

Your father doesn't remember us anymore, son. What words did I say to them. I always take care of your image of them. So that they do not lose the figure of the father, even though not together. But today, you destroyed it. Destroyed .... Your presence with the other woman before them, has really buried the figure of a father who is good for them."

"Seven years after your departure, I still hope you remember us. But what I received. Over the phone a woman introduces herself as a wife. You hurt me on purpose, mother."

"I always tell Irwan, "Dad, your father was a great business man, hard worker, blah blah blah blah. It is evident now that he succeeded. Because he misses the real father figure. Not a coward father. Just run and run again. Leave family. "

"For that, ma'am, let me walk away from you with the kids, after you've healed. To have my duties as a wife done well."

Countless drops upon drops Zulfa's tears flowed profusely, drenching his face. And Zulfa could no longer hold his head. He leaned on Herman's shoulder, which looked calmer than usual.

"Sleep. Forgive me, please."

"I've forgiven you, but let me go."

"I don't know."

If I'm sorry to remove the wound, I don't think lara's left.

I forgive you, but this pain torments me so much if I have to be together.

Maybe with me gone, I can escape the sense, that I once loved.

And our story is only a past story, which we cannot possibly remember.

Zulfa laid his body on Herman's side. Spilling heavy loads that have been stored tightly. Her hands gently stroked the hair of the woman who had always been patient to face her.

Gosha ....

Why you can be nice to the person who hurt you. And you never get tired of forgiving me for never caring about you.

Herman was still sitting dumbstruck with Zulfa's words. He knew his wife was patient, loving and forgiving. But he has wasted. Abandoned him for years. But he still survives for the sake of his children. Now he had returned, wanting to look back at her. But Zulfa's time was so short as to make amends.

Although under the influence of drugs, Herman's eyes can not be closed. He got up from his seat. But accidentally, Zulfa wakes up.

"Mas is not sleeping. Rest up. I'm sad when I'm sick.'

" That's what I like about you. Always look at others."

"Mas, what's it gonna take."

"I'm asking for help, get me that little box in that briefcase."

"Oh yes ... I forget. Haven't put it in the closet."

"That could be later. Please just get me the little box."

After rubbing his face, and tidying his messy hair, Zulfa got down from the bed, taking what Herman asked for. A small box of fragrant sandalwood..

"What is this, Mom?"

"true."

Zulfa returned to Herman's place, handed the thing to him.

"Reverse."

"What's up, Mom." Zulfa looked at Herman questioningly.

"Believe dech same mas."

He immediately turned around. Looks like Herman put something on his neck.

"What is this, Mommy."

Zulfa found a beautiful necklace, decorated with exquisite gems coiled around her neck.

"Zulfa, this is for you. Which I kept before Mary was present in my life."

Zulfa turned to look at Herman.

"Thank you, Mum."

Zulfa silently looked at Herman bowed.

"What's wrong?"

"Don't say that name when we're together."

"I'm sorry, Mom." Herman hugged Zulfa tightly. Then give a kiss to the top of his head. Zulfa tried to dodge, but it was useless. Because Herman won't let go.

He was just about to let go, when someone knocked on his door.

"Mas Herman, Tia's looking for you."

Zulfa immediately got off the bed to the door. D i in front of the middle door stood Mary and also her daughter ....