ZULFA FORTITUDE
I'm Saying to Him

Irwan waited for Shaffa in the living room while reading the newspaper and enjoying his favorite milk coffee. Tired of waiting, he went out for a while, looking at the dazzling night scene. The sky is full of stars and also the moon that shines perfectly, will certainly be warmer if you can talk in such an atmosphere. Yeah ... romantic snobs. Angan Irwan also floated. With whispers of his heart to the ruler of Arsy up there.

God gave himself the power to tell the truth. About shared feelings, desires and dreams. To make all light. Our Ridhoi is in the arms of your affection

But something made him a little confused. I don't know if you want to talk to Shaffa why all the words are gone. To the point of having to look for inspiration of all, like people who are really in love. Astaghfirullah al - adzim .....

Long time he waited on the porch, but Shaffa did not come too. Don't you fall asleep? Well, maybe it's not time to talk to him. But when going to step inside, it turns out Shaffa is already standing in the middle of the door.

"I thought you were asleep."

"I'm sorry, Mom. Tia asked to be told all. I'm finally getting carried away."

"What's wrong. How about if we are outside, while waiting for Mother and Papa to come home," he asked. Actually Irwan was a bit worried about Lika's messiness. Looks like he's not asleep. The room lights are still on. Most importantly, it's easy to find inspiration.

"All right." Shaffa approached Irwan who was back sitting down. Shaffa sat in a chair separated by a table.

For a moment, they fell asleep with their own thoughts. Without being able to express through words.

"What is Irwan talking about?" Shaffa's soft voice broke the silence between them.

"Mmmm ...."Only a small murmur was able to come out of his lips.

It turns out that oh turns out, a romantic atmosphere, does not make Irwan can reveal what is stored in his chest. The tongue she made, the lips trembling uttered it.

Oh my God, it's so hard to say sich!

Come on, Irwan.

Bismillah!

"You're not offended if I ask you something?"

"Depending," answered Shaffa casually which of course makes Irwan have to look for more words so that it fits and does not damage the atmosphere.

After a moment of silence, he looked at Shaffa with a full look and also a smile.

"Actually I'd like to ask you about your feelings for Heru." Not yet Irwan continued his question already seen Shaffa moody and sad.

"I'm sorry if it offends." Irwan turned his gaze to the garden in front of them. Don't want to see Shaffa's grief.

For a moment Shaffa turned his gaze toward the sky, as if to speak to the calm moon shining down on them. Whispering something that became his burden at this moment.

"No pa-pa Mas. I'm happy, someone cares about me. But, what is it to Mas."

"That's very important to me. Because while delivering, I saw that Mr. Isaac was saddened by the current decision."

"It's all too late. I've already spread out the invitation."

"As long as there's not a curved yellow janur, there's still hope, right?"

"I can't refuse Dad no matter how I reason."

"If Isaac had changed his mind, would you have accepted it?"

"I don't think it's possible. That's not the father type."

"Anything can happen."

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you sadder."

"Of course I'm very happy that you canceled our wedding. I don't know very well about Heru. But with what's going on, I'm not sure I can kill him. I'm afraid he's going to plunge even deeper. And it makes me even more humiliated."

"Something like someone who likes you. Do you want to take it?"

There was a small laugh from Shaffa's lips. He looked strangely at Irwan's thought. Who would propose to a girl like her, a country boy who knows nothing.

Moreover, a few more days will be manicah. It is not good to accept other men. Just because she wanted to run away from her future husband.

Shaffa could only pray. If Heru is his soul mate, may Allah guide him to become a better man and a good priest for him and his children. Of course that's a reasonable hope for a weak human like us.

"Mas don't give me weird dreams. Who wants to be like me?"

"He has been watching you for a long time. But I can never tell her feelings. She's late. He came when you were getting married. If you want to cancel the marriage, she'll be happy."

"If she really had the same feelings as Shaffa, why didn't she meet Shaffa directly. Must go through Irwan's mas?"

"You really want to know who he is?"

"I don't know."

What's that important to me.

"Shaffa, I'm sorry Brother Irwan. Who has been hiding feelings for you. Actually, it has been a long time Irwan amazed by you.just brother Irwan waiting for the right time. But when the right time it turns out to be too late, you've already proposed to someone. When I heard you didn't want the wedding, brother was happy. This gives way to my brother. But do you accept it."

Shaffa looked at Irwan. Is it true what he hears. A sweet expression comes out of an Irwan whose incidentally is a director of the company, the son of his boss. It's impossible. Shaffa smiled faintly, laughing at his dreamy self.

"Why are you laughing?"

"Sister Irwan this could be, if you want to make Syafa happy do not love the picture as if a dream for Shaffa."

"It's not a dream. Brother earnestly. Mother of the same papa also already know and agree. Just wait for you."

"Sister, don't entertain Shaffa with impossible things. Just because Shaffa doesn't want Heru.!" Shaffa said with tears flowing. After rubbing it, he said again, "Alright, if you really mean it, Mas told you. If you agree, Shaffa will come." His gaze was still fixed on Irwan.

"So, I told you to Dad. If you don't believe me, we're going to Father's house tomorrow."

"Alright, thank you Brother for comforting me." Shaffa was down.

Why is one problem not solved yet another problem?

"Don't you believe in your brother?"

"Shaffa tried to believe. Even if it's impossible."

"What do you have to say, so you can believe?"

"There's no brother. I'd be happy enough if Big Brother really had revealed that to you."

"Does this mean your brother accepted?"

"Give me time, brother. Maybe this is one solution for me. But it's about marriage, it's not a joke."