99 Love for You
Farewell

Farewell this time to me,

It will be a story...

The endless sadness...

(Glenn Fredly)

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*Cecilia PoV*

I'm preparing to attend the final judgment hearing of my divorce and Mas Alvian. Yes, now is the time. I should really take off Mas Alvian. I never thought this day would actually happen to me.

I had to give up my first love. Ahhh, I am so weak. Thinking about all this made my tears come back. Too many things remain in my memory. When my mind was exploring somewhere, suddenly someone knocked on my bedroom door and opened it. It must be mom. I hurriedly wiped my tears.

"You ready?" ask mommy.

"Yes ma'am." I replied with a smile.

"Do you need a mommy?"

"No need, Mom. After all, where is a mother who wants to see her daughter get divorced?"

"No! I'd like to see the judge knock the hammer for your divorce. It's been enough all this time that you've suffered. I'm so thankful that you're free of that family now."

"Mother? Don't say that." I said with a pity. I don't want you to keep on cursing Mas Alvian and his family.

"Yes already. That Bima was waiting from earlier. Hurry up and leave."

"Yes, Mom"

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"Why did you come to pick me up? I can come alone to the court." I asked Bima while on the way to the religious court.

"Alvian asked me to pick you up."

"Oh."

"You seem to be calmer." Said Bima while occasionally glancing towards me who was sitting next to her.

"Nobody's calm in the face of a divorce trial, Bim. I just covered it up."

Arriving at the religious court. Bima and I were still in the car. I looked around the parking lot of the building. Looks like Mas Alvian hasn't come yet.

Understandably, he had to completely cover up this matter from the reporters. Just like the previous trial, Mas Alvian definitely needs extra preparation so that no one recognizes him.

Bima's phone is ringing. I don't know who called him. Bima just answered yes yes.

"Let's get down, Cil. Alvian's inside"

"Huh?" I'm rattled. Why did Alvian arrive first? But I didn't see any sign of his car.

"You looking for Alvian's car? He can't use his own car. Shasha has prepared everything well."

I just smiled hearing Bima's explanation. Why am I so stupid? Of course Alvian wouldn't bring his own car here. It's the same as suicide.

...***...

I feel like the trial is going very slowly. I have no power to sit side by side with Mas Alvian while hearing the verdict of this last trial. Every once in a while I turned towards Mas Alvian who from the moment I met him today, he just kept quiet.

I think he'll keep apologizing to me when he meets. But it didn't. Maybe because he knows I don't want to hear any more apologies.

My mind floated. I could not focus on hearing everything the judge said. I just vaguely heard it. Until finally what I heard was the loud sound of the hammer of the judge echoing in the courtroom. That's a sign that the trial is over. And the verdict has been passed.

I'm still quietly glued. I saw Mas Alvian shaking hands with the judges. Then hugged Bima. I feel someone touching my hand. Alvian.

"Come with me!" take Mas Alvian and hold my hand.

I just nodded my head. I thought I'd cry when I heard the judge knock his hammer. Butno. I've cried enough. Don't cry Cecilia anymore. My love is in my heart.

"Where are we going, Mas?" many confused.

"You will know."

...***...

Ocean. Beach. Mas Alvian brought me here.

This beach is full of memories for me. Here, he used to express his feelings for me, and proposed to me.

What'd he bring me here for?

"Why are we here, Mas?"

"This place is full of memories. Years ago. Do you remember?"

I'm nagging.

"We'll finish it all here."

I'm appalled. Resolving? Whatdoes thatmean?

"Cecil--- Let's get it all done."

I don't know what Mas Alvian said. Obviously our relationship is over.

"Cyl? Ask me all these things. Say everything. Don't keep covering up your grief." Mas Alvian's countenance began to change. He looks sad.

"What do you mean, Mom?"

"For a year now, why have you kept it to yourself? Was I not your husband at the time?"

I'm starting to understand where this conversation is going. "Did Bima tell you everything?"

"I don't want to hear from Bima. I want to hear all of you."

"Mas--?"

"Please tell me everything, Cil. Ask me what you want to ask me."

"It's all over, Mom. In the end, we will live our destiny. We can't live it together anymore."

"Please ask me one thing, Cil?!" his tone began to growl.

"Okay, okay. Do you still love Nayla?" the question just came out of my lips.

Alvian avoided me. He walked away. And ruffled her hair. Looks frustrated. He was fine, very calm and quiet. But why does he look emotional now.

"I used to love him, but not now. I married her not because I still love her, but because I am living Mas Alif's will.  I just love you, Cil."

"But Nayla is your first love, Mas."

"Everybody has had first love. And not necessarily we're paired with our first love."

"You were my first love, Mas." The tears I had sustained, now came out on their own.

Alvian was silent. He approached me, and took my hand.

"Cil, I did go to America because I was heartbroken. But ever since I met you, I feel like my life is back in color. You're different. You made me believe in love again. Even though you're not my first love."

Alvian was also sad. I never saw him cry. But this time, she was crying in front of me.

"I'm sorry, Cil. I'm so sorry it all got this way."

"It's not your fault either, Mommy. But it's also my fault."

"Cil, I've been thinking for days. All this time I've always hurt you. My family always presses you. Sadden you. I don't want to see you sad anymore, Cil. So, after today, please be happy. Forgive me for all my mistakes and my family. Say my apology to mom, too."

I'm nodding. My tears are still flowing. I don't know why I want to cry so hard. Alvian was crying too.

"I love you, Cil. You have to believe that."

"I believe it, Mum."

Alvian held out his hand. "Let's shake hands, for the last time. We-Could still be in touch, right, Cil?"

I'm nodding. I welcome Mas Alvian's hand.

"Let's go home!" bring Mas Alvian.

"I'll just take a cab home, Mas. See you soon, Mommy. Good bye."

I took off my handshake with Mas Alvian. I turned around and walked away. My footsteps are heavy. God, can I really lose him?

"Little!!!" Alvian called me.

I looked and turned around. I saw Mas Alvian running and hugging me. He hugged me while crying. She held me tight and stroked my hair.

I hugged him back too. Our cries broke. It'll be a farewell hug for me and Alvian mas.

Mas Alvian took off his embrace. Removing my tears with his finger.

"Don't cry anymore. Promise me you'll be happy."

I'm nodding. My phone rings soon. Call from the online taxi driver I ordered a while ago.

I say goodbye to Mas Alvian. Then we got into the car that stopped in front of us.

In the car, I cried. I saw Mas Alvian still standing by staring at the car that was taking me away.

O Lord, is this indeed the message of Your destiny for us? I had to give up my first love, even though my heart hurt.

.

.

.

I found first love.

But I also found wounds on him.

Nothing is perfect in this world. I wish the first love would be the last.

I worship God.

So that he is always happy.

So that I can be happy too.

After this, I have to open a new story.

Can I find a new love?

The last love I will carry until the end of my life.

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"I'm sorry that I keep bothering you. I just wanted to tell you one thing. I'm going to split up with Cecilia. I signed our divorce papers. After we officially get divorced, please take care of Cecilia. I know you like him. Happy him. I beg of you. Maybe this is a stupid request from me. But, ask your heart, do you really not have the slightest taste for Cecilia? If there is, you must realize it, and fight for it. Don't be like me being a coward. I can't keep Cecil by my side. Thank you for being my friend."

Rangga continued to stare at his phone screen. Repeatedly read the message that Alvian had sent him a while back. His heart began to shake.

"Can this Alvian do this to me?" rangga Ompat.

Rangga started to fret. He never felt in love with any woman. He avoided falling in love. Because he was afraid of heartbreak. He felt the pain when he lost a loved one. And he doesn't want to feel that anymore.

But after meeting Cecilia, there was a different feeling when she was with him. Rangga felt that Cecilia was a different woman. She's fragile. So that makes Rangga want to take care of her, want to protect her, and embrace her when Cecil is sad.

Is it true that she feels for Cecilia is love? Rangga himself was still confused.

Shortly after, his phone rang. A message. From Cecilia.

"Pak Rangga, I beg your permission. For the next week I could not get to work. I have personal business to take care of. I've already given up some work to Amel. For your attention, I thank you."

Rangga sighed. His thoughts were filled with various speculations about Alvian and Cecilia.

"Are they really divorced?" Rangga scrunched his forehead.

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Season one ends here------

it will continue into season two---

*How's your feeling, anyway??

I wrote it myself-somewhat swiped on the chest--but how else?

If I had to be asked what I could be combined?

Will be very firmly I answer, I can't afford 😭😭😭

Maybe that's the conscience of the wives, as well as Cecilia.