Admiring You In My Silence
kevin's feeling

this is where tia is at the moment.

in the park not far from the hospital, along with kevin, they sit side by side but still keep their distance and silence each other

tia sighed, she disliked being in this situation the most, she didn't like being with someone but didn't talk about what. it feels like a lifeless log if it is still.

the end is that he does not want to start the conversation

"what was your college in Germany, vin?" tanya tia

kevin smiled and nodded in response

"alhamdulillah smoothly"

"yes even though in the middle it was down too" said kevin

"down how does that mean?" tanya tia

"yes, I had a college strike and almost in DO, but lucky new almost and still can be repaired" said kevin

"can you?"

"some of you, the mentang mentang already studied abroad so arrogant. until never tell me again the same I was just as naura" said tia as angry

kevin looked at Tia and smiled

"sorry" said Kevin sincerely

tia looks at kevin, unlike kevin who he knew 6 years ago.kevin 6 years ago is a cheerful person and never separated from his beautiful smile.

but that kevin in front of him right now?

"mm vin, you got a problem? you can tell me the same story, I still temen you lo" said tia

kevin glanced at Tia, smiling but not answering tia's question

"Vergessen Sie durch das Leben in Deutschland den Indonesier, Mr. Kevin's?

(does living in Germany make you forget Indonesian, mr kevin?)" tia in german

kevin chuckled, then looked at tia intensely.

actually he invited tia to meet because he wanted to reveal the contents of his heart to tia.

after attending the naura wedding at that time, Kevin did not feel pain so deep as in stay married by a lover. he only felt pain because in stay was married by his best friend. at that moment he realized that all this time he was only obsessed with naura instead of love. he is obsessed with wanting to make naura happy and free naura from bagas (suami naura), which at that time always play naura feelings, he wants to be able to make naura happy and become his hero.

even the obsession that made his heart blind, he did not realize that the real person he loved was tia. after he realized his feelings, he did not realize, he also decided to meet tia and reveal all his heart

with confidence he returned home only to meet tia and reveal his feelings, he was sure that tia must also still admire him as before.

but when he saw tia in the hospital earlier, he saw no words of admiration seen in his eyes, he saw tia looking at him with an ordinary view, he saw, same with the view of tia in men in general.

but Kevin is still not convinced by his vision, the end he decided to invite tia met after completion of duty.

and now, Kevin could see clearly how tia's eyes looked, a gaze that seemed to say that there was no more admiration in her.

kevin knew, maybe tia had buried the taste deep inside when he did not get a reply to his taste. kevin felt guilty to tia because that time had wasted tia, tia, he really is sorry.

finally he locked his intention to reveal his feelings, he took the road while thinking about his next steps, whether he would fight for his love or give up just like that